sacrificial taste

Disappear

"mimelaa!" zafran ran towards me "you fantasize? I've been calling you from the end of the street but you didn't hear me"

"uhuh?"

"heh heh heh! wh why? who are you thinking about?"

"not anyone"

"Remain, you can't tell me. What's up?" he pulled me to sit "I guess! definitely nadin?!"

*cognize*

"today I'll talk to him, you don't have to think about it anymore"

"i'm afraid of hurting him zafran"

"nadins must accept this reality of Vania"

"i feel selfish"

"uh!" he lifted my bowed chin to look at her "you're not selfish, not at all like that! don't we deserve to be happy too?"

"but zaf"

"i promise to make Nadin understand and accept our relationship"

"what are you gonna do? don't do or say anything that will hurt you"

"yes, you won't believe me"

"yeah"

*suddenly zafran pout*

"you why?"

"today I haven't seen that sweet smile"

"hm?"

"you're not going anywhere, wait till I get back"

"return my sweet smile!" with an almost inaudible voice followed by a zafran that had disappeared

*not long after, he came by hiding his hands behind his back*

"shut your eyes!"

"fluff"

"do it!"

*I close my eyes*

"now open!"

*he brought ice cream and chocolate*

"why are you a manyun?"

"why buy that?"

"why indeed? all I know is ice cream and chocolate can make our mood happy"

"yes, but I'm on a diet program again"

"diett!diett!" zafran poked my forehead

"hhhh! akhattt" I ruffled her hair"

"don't torture yourself! whether you're fat or skinny doesn't matter to me"

"hallahhh! it's bullshit"

"if you say you like ngeyel!" he's flicking my forehead again

"need! it hurts!"

"i'm right now beside you not because you're pretty, slim or anything"

"i'm not so interested in pretty girls"

"bullshit! where there are men who are not interested if there are beautiful women who approach him"

"we heard ya! if I was looking for a woman who only has beautiful capital, you would not be next to me"

"need! so you mean I'm not pretty"

"no! that's not what I mean, you hear well, even though beautiful women are many but there's no one like you"

"nonsense" by the way"

"why the hell, from earlier said nonsense continues"

"well, it's just bullshit! you said so now well because of the position you are in now with me isn't it?"

"i won't be able to turn away from you, let alone from your sweet smile"

*i feel embarrassed and try to find a topic to divert the conversation*

"eh look, the ice cream is melting!"

"yahhh, you talk a lot"

"so I, you are a fussy one!"

"quickly take it, spend it!"

"ihh no! you eat the ice cream, I'm the chocolate hehe"

"yes!"

*********

on the way home, me and the zafran were quiet with no sound even I could hear the sound of my own breathing.

"where's he?"

"i don't know"

"i'm sure he disappeared because of me! I hurt him zafran! I'm bad, I'm a bad friend!" I was crying on the street

"silence vania! relax!" zafran stopped his vehicle

"i'm evil zaf! I've guessed all this, he must have been very hurt by the incident in the hospital yesterday! I'm a bad friend! i'm selfish!"

"vaniaa relax! it's not your fault, the disappearance of nadin has nothing to do with you! it has nothing to do with us!"

"there's zafran! there are! nadin couldn't possibly stop apprenticing just like that for no reason!

moreover, this apprentice is important! we interned for our last semester grades in order to graduate.

and now that nadin stopped, he's out zafran

it's definitely because of me, for sure! this must be zafran!

it's all my fault! I'm a bad friend! selfish!"

*zafran hugged me trying to calm me down*

"it used to be when he was heartbroken that I and the other kids were with him, helping him to be strong!

but now? nadin must have been zafran himself, no one was with him! nadin where is zafran?!

dika said, nadin has even moved house"

"already! look at me, you're not wrong! there's nothing wrong with us! maybe by disappearing like this nadin can think calmly or he does need time alone! it's his decision, want you to blame yourself like whatever this has all happened, and what we did was not wrong! hear me! I love you, is that wrong?

you love me is that wrong too?

we share our feelings, is that wrong? not van! so please stop blaming yourself"

*i just cried in his arms*

"cry, maybe crying can calm you down"

*connect*