sacrificial taste

Acknowledgment

I focused on seeing the nadin who was leaving the zafran room, a feeling of guilt immediately arose in my mind

"vania" suddenly zafran held my hand, "thank you yah"

"ehh, huh? thanks for what?"

"thank you that you have forgiven me and will give me a second chance, I promise not to commit a stupidity that could hurt your heart and will not make any more mistakes that will keep you away from me! I promise you Vania, stay with me!"

instantly my guilt for Nadin turned into a feeling of haru and for the first time I felt overwhelmed by the words of a man to me.

***

"son of vania? today don't go internships?"

"no ma'am, today's vania off"

"can you ask for help?"

"if vania can be sure Vania will help, what will you ask for help?"

"mother asks you to help accompany zafran well, mother went home first to bring dirty clothes"

"ohiya ma'am"

"son of vania all right?"

"no kok bu, vania will accompany zafran until mother comes"

"thank you, son, you're a hassle"

"no trouble to mom"

"you go home, Dad!"

"vania get to the bottom of ma'am?"

"uh, no need! vania's just here"

"be careful mom"

"iyaa" when she wanted to go her mother zafran kissed my forehead

I saw his mother go and disappear from the door holding my forehead and well my smile did not disappear from my lips

"hilariouslyaa" zafran mocked me

"whatsof"

"here sitting" as he was already sitting, he patted the bed beside him

"i'll just sit here" I chose to sit on her bedside chair so as not to get too close to her

"sorry to trouble you"

"no really, I'm off today"

"let's see, me and mom are just two in this town because my dad was assigned to the field.

"yeah"

"i don't have a brother or sister either"

"yeah"

"vaniaa, I just saw you like this"

"you mean?"

"i'm happy to see you acting this way with me, I'm happy to see you loving you too"

"i also love your mother, she's kind and very open to me"

"if zafran? baby no?"

"what the hell"

"vania, so mine well" she took my hand, held it tightly and looked at me with a hopeful face

"you why the hell" I wanted to let go of his grasp but it was hard because the grip was so tight

"i've made a commitment to you, but I'm still afraid of losing you. Especially because of that, I've lost you"

I just kept quiet

"vaniaa, so mine well" she repeated her question

I kept quiet

"did you just consider me your friend?"

I'm still quiet

"or maybe it's true said Nadin, you're actually bothered by my presence?"

I looked at him but didn't say a word.

"vania, have you had feelings for me or not? why is it that every time I show my love you never respond as if you have the same taste to me?" he kept urging me with his questions "vania, why shut up? or is it true that Nadin said that you actually already have someone? do you have a boyfriend?"

"we can't zafran!" I stood up from my seat and managed to take off his hand

"we can't or because you don't have any feelings for me?"

"you won't understand zafran"

"what can I not understand vania?!" he asked in a somewhat shouting tone

"i don't want to take you zafran!" I could not resist the turmoil of feelings that I had been feeling all along and finally my tears broke when it made the zafran feel guilty for having spoken highly to me

"sorry Vania, I didn't mean to yell at you" she held my hand, pulled it so I could sit next to her. she held my face, wiped my tears and looked at me "you didn't snatch me from any vania, you didn't take me away from anyone, I'm just yours! zafran belongs to vania!"

because I got carried away I reflexively hugged her "I love you too zafran, but we can't be together"

*connect*