sacrificial taste

episode 22

while in the yuni parking lot glanced at me "really you don't want to come see the zafran?"

I just kept quiet

"come on, Vania, don't you want to see the zafran? the man you love is sick" Lana whispered in my ear

"no! you're the only ones who leave" I'm still in my mind even though my heart is eager to see it

"we've been waiting for your invitation"

"no, you guys just go! the clock runs out" I told them to leave

"can't we leave you alone" Yuni sat beside me "you're still so angry at Nadin?"

"i'm not angry, just disappointed"

"nadin has completely changed, he doesn't even have the good intention to apologize to you" she said

"i love nadin lan, even without the nadin doing that I've intended to stay away from zafran for him, I was very disappointed and did not expect nadin to do that just because of men"

"i used to pray that we would never love the same man but that was not granted. nadin should be happy to see you like this vania, seeing you starting to open your heart again instead of behaving like this" Yuni wrapped her hand around my shoulder

"already! you guys don't go along and don't talk to nadin, pity him!"

"does hera have to know all this?" Lana was suddenly sitting next to me

"don't! he's been devastated by the separation of his parents, don't make him sadder"

"Hera must be very disappointed to know this" Dika who had just been silent to talk

"if only Nadin knew how much you loved him, I missed us first" Yuni pulled lana and dika and immediately hugged the three of us. the warm and moving atmosphere as a friend plus the sunlight that slowly disappears is replaced by the dark night sky

"eh already, ashamed to know" dika trying to escape from the embrace because he's his own man and a lot of people who see

shortly after, my invitation arrived

"do you want to send greetings to the zafran?" Lana nudged my shoulder

"no!"

"alright if that's what you want, but don't regret it"

***

as I was daydreaming in front of the window, my hair was flying in the breeze I thought of the zafran, feeling very anxious about his condition and also feeling guilty because I felt he was sick because of me, for apologizing to me, even though my heart was eager to see it, my ego refused it!

"did I call Lana to find out the zafran's condition? but he would definitely mock me" I opened my phone and saw the profile of the zafran who was still using the photos of the two of us, I reread our short messages and without me noticing a small smile emerging from my lips, only a day I did not see it but my heart felt so long. while looking at the photo of the two of us "I worry about your situation zafran, I love you and forgive me"

while I was busy talking to our photo suddenly Lana called "it turns out she first called haha lana-lana" I picked up her phone "iya lana?"

"the love of zafran van" he began the conversation in a sad tone of voice

"why?"

"when we saw him he was very happy but when he found out that you weren't with him, his happy face turned moody"

"why so?"

"well he's disappointed you didn't come, come on Vania I know and understand you're disappointed but it's not entirely zafran's fault! I also know that zafran did it must not have been easy, he also asked you about me earlier"

"what are you calling me for?"

"i'd like to give you some advice before you regret it!"

"you mean?"

"bend the day off you, you look zafran gih"

"don't force me lan!"

"i'm not forcing you, just giving you advice!"

"well, I was so sleepy"

"you never want to hear me vania, but this time you have to follow my advice"

"yes, thanks lan! I love you" I turned off the phone

*connect*