Look at Me, My Husband
S2 Mother of my Son 71
"Tell me, Mas. Where did you know my pregnancy. Everyone, I want to hear your story." Naina tries to open her heart, hearing everything from the perspective of the Hero. In this kind of position, he was reminded of his married life with the Hero first. Naina could feel a puff of Wira's breath, the man was tightly hugging his body possessively.
"I learned of your pregnancy from the test pack that Mbok Sumi left me and a letter." The hero closed his eyes, repeating back his pill story. His embrace tightened, with the other hand rubbing Naina's flat stomach.
"I'm grateful, behind his revenge on my family, Dennis is still kind enough to tell me where my baby is going with you. I can't imagine that he's hiding it and I don't know anything. I could have married a girl of my choice. Or .. I don't know." The soul breathes slowly.
"Over these three years, I've been looking for you, Nai. My days are up with work and looking for you. The fruit of it all, my company soared. I crawled up, from ordinary entrepreneurs to getting a lot of projects and being able to hold the world. But I never forgot you. I live only for you, Nai.”
“My life is starting to change, much compared to before. I meet a lot of people, I open myself up to new people. But not my heart. My life and my heart belong only to Naina. Pratama Wirayudha belongs only to Naina Pelangie. And this is who I am now. You may be surprised, but this is my life. I hope you can understand." Hero explained. I remember a few friends who came to visit him.
"You remember, the girls who were in our apartment a while ago?" Hero asked. He deliberately emphasized our word, so that Naina felt this place was her home as well.
Naina nodded.
"They're my friends. I'm lucky to have them. Although I stumbled over an unusual association, a drink, but they were not random people. They support me, they know all about my story that's always looking for you. They were in my worst moments. Someday, I will introduce you to them.” The hero tries to solve everything. He does not want any secrets and misunderstandings in the future.
Naina nodded.
“Some of them are entrepreneurs like me. We often gather together, party until the morning. Sometimes touring, charity to some major cities in Indonesia. In the club not only the girls, there were young men as well. Some of my business associates are also members of the same club. It just so happened that the club belonged to my friend. I beg you not to misunderstand me, if you see them suddenly hugging when you meet. They're not cheap girls in night clubs." Wira tried to shake off some of his lifestyle during this time.
"Your pregnancy strengthens my heart to this day. Plus when my people started tracking you down. I got excited when I found out that Vienna is really my daughter."
“I turned down dozens of girls who proffered Mama.” The hero tells the story, opens it all up.
Naina looked in her silence.
"Why not be honest with me if you're pregnant, Nai? I will definitely fight, it is impossible to let our divorce happen. Is it your heartache to close your eyes until you don't want me to know about your pregnancy?"
Naina shakes. "I left home, a week after the court's divorce. I can't stay there. It hurts, Mas. Stuffy." Naina shared her feelings.
"I don't know .. if I am pregnant. .. I was planning to go back to Yogyakarta. Start again from the beginning. But, Mbok Sumi .. invited me to come with him. After I thought about it, I finally went with Mbok Sumi. Luckily, I went with Mbok Sumi .. otherwise, I don't know what my fate is and Vienna. Could've, I didn't get Vienna, Mas." Naina's eyes are heating up. There was a strong urge, pressing out from his eyes.
"It could be .. I lost Vienna. But, Mbok Sumi took good care of me." Naina bit her lips.
"I started working after setting my heart. High School graduates like me can not choose a job and I am grateful that there are still people who want to accept me to work even if only with a small salary. Armed with the ten million money I brought and my income, Mbok Sumi and I shared, living in one of the villages in the city of Bandung.”
The hero closed his eyes, imagining how difficult it was. In her excess, Naina is deficient. "How do you know Dennis?" The hero tries to find out more.
"I knew Mas Dennis when he had his first hemorrhage. Mbok Sumi asked for help Mas Dennis. And Mas Dennis came to see us in Bandung. It was there that I first met Dennis. At the time, he was a helper to me. I can't work anymore after the hemorrhage and Mas Dennis is sustaining our lives." Naina explains.
“Mas Dennis is always in my every predicament. He was not involved in my life, but he always stood beside me. Every time I fell, he would reach out and help me stand up. When I walk, he won't stop me. He just quietly followed and took care of me.” Naina told me about Dennis.
"Why not look for me?" The hero tightens his arms, letting out Naina's long hair.
"I ... Maybe I was still hurting you back then, Mom." Naina answered softly.
"Bad you, Nai!" The hero said slowly.
“And as always, Mas Dennis will not act without my consent. He's the only guy who never forced me and said no to me. I know, he objected when I left for Austria, and he never forbade me. He would only nod and support me even if it was against his will. He's the one who never scolded me even though I made the wrong decision. He just quietly cleared up all the mistakes I made and returned the situation to how it was.”
"Nlt ...."
Deg— Naina jerked. He opened up too much about Dennis to Wira.
“Y-yes, Mas, Naina staggered.
"Come here!" The hero turns Naina's body to face her. He felt the need to talk while looking into Naina's eyes. If the lips cannot tell the truth, the eyes will not lie.
"Andai .. You know the truth by then, will you come back to me, Nai?" tanya Wira hesitated. Caught the beautiful face of Naina who now rarely smiles. Unlike before, Naina's face was so bright, a smile always adorned Naina's face.
"No. To come back to you again .. I have to think over and over again, Mas. It wasn't easy for me to get married again after our divorce. Love is no longer the goal of my life, and marriage is not a must for me. I've been married, won't be curious anymore. I decided, my life for the happiness of Vienna, to sacrifice and fight for Vienna and my baby." Naina rubbed her stomach.
“But, maybe .. If I knew the truth, I wouldn't be hiding longer than you. I'll tell you about my pregnancy or my baby. I must have brought it to you." Naina explains.
I heard heavy breathing. There was a heavy burden in his heart.
"I was planning on not remarrying for life and spending time alone with Vienna." Naina answered confidently. "The money I collected during my time working in Austria I will use to open a boutique" Naina continued, recounting the contents of her head during this time.
"Then, what's the reason you're willing to come back to me?" ask Wira.
"One of them is because of Vienna and my pregnancy. I can live without you, but not Vienna and maybe my baby. I saw for myself how happy Vienna is when I'm with you. They need you. I don't have anyone else, if I don't come back to you, who do I have to leave my kids to? No more Mbok Sumi." Naina bluntly.
"Thank you, come back to me, Nai." The hero hugged Naina. "Whatever reason you came back to me, I appreciate it."
"I know, I used the wrong way. I forced you back at me in an inhumane way." There is regret in the sentence of the hero.
"Already, Mas. Since when can life be humane to us. Life is never fair if what we demand is justice. I'm just learning to look at life from so many angles. If it's not fair to me, but it could be fair to you and Vienna." Naina asserted, trying to break away from the decrees of the Hero.
"I just learned not to be stubborn and forgiving. I don't always look at a problem from my point of view. Learn to accept reason, learn to accept all without demanding much. Learn to accept my own mistakes before pointing to others."
"If I were always looking for someone else's fault for our divorce, I would feel pain at all times. But, if I learn to accept that our divorce is also because my mistakes don't give you enough trust, I can learn. And don't feel this is unfair. I assume I deserve it, because it's also my fault."
"I've forgiven you, Mom. I consider my pregnancy to be a rebuke from God for my stubbornness all along. And I'm grateful, God still feels like I deserve this place." Naina smiled. Although the smile was not as bright as usual, but he sincerely gave the smile to the Hero.
"I love you, Nai." A kiss docked on Naina's lips. The hero hugged Naina's body tightly.
"Mas, please tell me, how can I get pregnant? Is ...." Naina looks doubtful, discussing her dark night at the hotel. If it wasn't a hero, it could have been a problem. Even today, she herself is unsure of her pregnancy. Only based on the story of Rima and Wira who accept responsibility, claiming to be the father of the baby in the womb.
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Tbc
