Look at Me, My Husband
S2 Mother of my son 44
After a kiss that can evoke all the memories of the past, Naina darted towards her bedroom without spending the rest of the noodles in the bowl. Many feelings churned in his heart at the same time, the old memory opened up again. Those smiles, cries, laughter and tears were hugging him at the same time.
Sitting on the bed, Naina cries. “I'm sorry, Mas. I have a lot to consider to open my heart again. Our circumstances are so different, I can't reach you anymore. You have run far ahead, there should be no need to come back and wait for me,” whispered Naina softly, remembering the words of Dennis who asked her to open her heart to Wira.
Naina's nanar gaze was fixed on the pile of items laid out on top of her wet handbag.
“Who put it all here?” ask Naina. His hand had already grabbed the square object at the top. The wet wallet looked full, not as thin as usual.
Naina sobbed at the pile of money tucked inside her wallet. He knew, Wira cared for him, but on the other hand he felt ashamed. He does not want to be pitied. He also wanted to fight for him and Vienna. He doesn't want any of this. What happened to him and Wira the last few days made him uncomfortable. Moreover, until both of the Wira's parents knew, his already ruined pride would be further trampled. He did not want to be considered taking advantage of Vienna for all these conveniences.
The mistake was when forcing a divorce without considering its cooperation with Wira, without giving a chance. And by the time they got divorced, Wira was darting away. Being a man is different from his accomplishments. He could not blame Mama Wira.
The hatred and fear of his former father-in-law, of course, he understands very well. The hero can now get a much better and perfect woman. Naina is self-conscious, she is not included in that. She was just an ordinary woman, before the marriage of Wira and after the divorce from Wira. There is nothing special about him. If Mama Wira wants a better and decent woman, of course she can understand him.
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Time passes so fast. The weekend passed and Naina finally fulfilled her promise to meet Dennis. The man told him that he was already in Indonesia. A simple restaurant near the offices of RD Group became Naina's choice to meet with Dennis. He had to take his lunch time to meet the man. He did not want to until his work was interrupted.
Five minutes waiting, Naina could see Dennis popping up in a white T-shirt and jeans. The handsome man walked towards her with a sweet smile as usual.
“Nai ..” Dennis greeted as he looked around the restaurant. As usual, Naina decides the place and she will comply without much protest.
“The place is convenient.” Dennis commented. Standing right in front of Naina while stretching out her hands. “Can hug?” ask Dennis.
Naina stood up and walked over. Hugged Dennis' waist tight, as usual.
“How are you and Vienna? You guys okay?” dennis asked after breaking down the hug. Pulling a wooden chair, Dennis sat right across from Naina.
“We are fine. Now, Vienna and I are living in Mas Wira's apartment for a while. Until the old house is finished renovated.” Naina explains.
“How do you work?” dennis asked, putting his phone on the table.
“Good, Mas. I've started to get comfortable with my work.”
“When will you pay your debt to me? I'm waiting for your first paycheck.” Dennis chuckled softly as he saw Naina's face change and pout.
“I haven't paid, Mas. I've been planning on sending you my first paycheck. I didn't forget about it. Just like when I was working in Austria. I know I owe you a lot. No need to remind him.” Naina grumbling.
“You know, Nai .. I never count what I gave you and Vienna. I accept all of that as a debt just to appreciate you. I don't care if you pay or not. Most importantly for me, you and Vienna are fine. With whoever it is, anywhere.” Dennis smiled, grabbing a glass of orange juice on the table.
“Mas, it's mine.” Naina protested when her juice glass was overrun by Dennis without permission.
“Message again for you. I'm thirsty.” Dennis took a sip of orange juice in the glass. “How about your relationship and Hero. Is there a bright spot?” ask Dennis. The man's gaze was so slicing, with fingers dancing, knocking on the wooden table. He hides his wounded feelings.
Naina shakes. “I'm not comfortable staying with Mas Wira, but I can't turn it down.”
“Why not just contract?” ask Dennis.
Naina shakes. “I can only contract in a simple tenement house. And Mas Wira thought it was not worth it. What I can do, my ability just gets there, Mom. If you ask Mas Wira to find a contract for me, it must burden him again. I don't want that, Mom. I don't want to trouble him continuously.”
*“Wira is really stupid! Five years married, he should understand the character of Naina,” *in Dennis.
The man smiled. It's not that he doesn't know what Naina's attitude is. For three years keeping this stubborn woman in front of him, he had already finished things. Naina can't be forced, because it will make her feel uncomfortable. Nor can it be arranged arbitrarily, Naina wants her own independence. Naina wanted to fight with her legs and hands. Were it not for that hard character, it was certain that he would not have allowed Naina to work to take care of the sick abroad.
“Alright, what asked me here? I know ... must be a serious problem.” Dennis took his seat.
It looks like Naina is breathing. “Mas, Mama misses Nola .. em .. I mean your daughter. Would Mas allow Mama to see your daughter?” asked Naina hesitatingly. He knew this request sounded too late. Moreover, Dennis and his mother's relationship deteriorated over the years.
“Mas serious?” ask Naina.
Dennis nodded. “In exchange marry me,” said Dennis chuckling. A joke that has seriousness in it.
“Sorry, Mom. I still love Mas Wira.” Naina bit her lip. The sentence went as smoothly as usual. Same reason every rejected Dennis. He wants to keep his own feelings, alone. No one knew, neither Dennis nor Wira.
“I'm kidding, Nai. Go back to the hero. I can relax and let go of you and Vienna. You also need a backrest. It can't be forever like this.” Dennis. The man's lips were so smooth, but his heart was sliced as he said all of that.
Naina was silent.
“Didn't you tell me .. if you still love her. If you still love Wira .. return to her.”
“Yes, Mas. It's just to come back I need to consider it.” Naina answered slowly. Dare not look at the interlocutor. It can't be straightforward. He no longer knew what he felt for the hero. That sense buried him deeply with his divorce wound.
“So is wrong? What makes you think about it?” ask Dennis.
“Many. Everything has changed, Mom. Me and the Spirit are like the earth and the sky. Me ...” Naina's eyes are glazed. Unable to continue his sentence.
“Because of the current state of the Hero ... makes you uncomfortable being next to him,” guess Dennis.
“One of them.” Naina said quietly, barely audible. There is a heavy burden that has been stored by himself.
“Make yourself as comfortable as possible. Don't listen to people's opinions. You deserve to be happy, Nai. I'm not a difficult person either. My wealth can be pitted against the hero. Have you been feeling sorry for me all this time? Uncomfortable with me?” ask Dennis.
Naina shakes. “We have no past. I don't have to feel that way about you, Mom. Where is the wealth you mean. Three years together, Mas faithful with your butut black pajero!” Naina chuckles.
Dennis squeezed the order paper on the table and threw it right on Naina's forehead. “Bad you, Nai. If we're in Bandung, I'll make sure to throw you in the river, at the end of the village.” Dennis looked up, recalling the times they spent in Bandung.
“If it used to be .. I still gave up because you were pregnant with Vienna. If now ...”
“I missed those times, Mas. I miss Mom. It was my hardest time, but there I understood myself. What I feel, what I want. I try to feel my feelings. Repeating all the things I passed before,” cut Naina.
“Mas Wira my first love. I used to feel that way. He came into my life and taught me what love is. I was not even 17 at the time. Don't understand anything. He taught me everything until we got married. In my next life there is only Mas Wira. I who already have no one, just depend on her life.”
Dennis.
“After parting, I reorganized my life. At this stage, I began to be able to explore my feelings in an adult way. Different when together with Mas Wira. I found a different world. The reality is much different from my life when I was married to Mas Wira. I can't be like I used to be, making decisions easily without thinking. Accepting all with the emotions I felt for a moment. Moreover, there is Vienna that is my consideration. I'm not a kid anymore, Mom. I'm not the little boy I was when I decided to accept Mas Wira's proposal. Who jumped for joy as Mas Wira knelt down and proposed to me. At that time I just thought, I would be happy with Mas Wira. Spend time together. Kissing, cuddling without anyone protesting and banning.”
*“And I found my love tethered to you as time went on. I didn't even notice. It took me a while to make sure that what I felt was really love. Even to this day, I still explore.” *Naina.
Naina glanced at his wrist. Time has shown the office clock back.
“You have to work again?” ask Dennis.
“Ya, Mas.”
“Good. I brought something for Vienna in the car.” Dennis stood up and called the waiter to make the payment.
“Mas, let me treat you this time. Think of it as celebrating my new job,” pinta Naina.
Dennis tergelak. “Terserah padamu. Aku bahagia adik kecilku memaafkanku dan sudah kembali seperti dulu lagi. Itu sudah cukup untukku, Nai.
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Tbc
