Look at Me, My Husband
S2 Mother of my son 42
“We're just friends, Mas.” Naina stood up and welcomed the hand of the Hero, smiling flatly.
Deg —'s
The hero stared at the pitch-black bead in Naina's eyes. The man searches for the truth in the eyeballs that are always honest. The net is shady, there is no emotion or anger. No revenge and no future. Naina has been resigned to all the tragedies that have happened to her so far and chose to live alone. Is there any other love, which he harbors for others and does not want to express. What was clear inside those clear eyes was that there was no love for her anymore.
“Nai, is there any love left for me in your heart?” ask the hero, still hoping.
“I don't know, Mas. It's just that me and Vienna have been living without you for three years.” Naina answered quietly, trying to hide her deepest feelings. He was used to acting, even for himself. Life teaches him to be willing to feel for the sake of no one being hurt.
“Not thought of being together again? For Vienna?” ask Wira.
“No,” firmly Naina quickly.
The hero squeezes his hair. From the beginning he did not want to offer a relationship to Naina, because he was not ready with a painful rejection. That could break his spirit to fight.
“Is there another man who stole my place, Nai?” tanya Wira tries to act ordinary.
Naina shook her head slowly.
“Pieter?” todong Wira's. His emotions start to get hooked when he sees Naina's tough attitude. He's been trying to be patient and give up all this time.
Naina nodded back.
“Didn't you guys live together for a year. Do you like that guy?” ask Wira.
“No, Mas. I work with Mr. Pieter. There's nothing to do with him. I have to get back to work, Mom. If indeed nothing matters, we continue the conversation at home.” Naina intends to stop, after staring at the clock on the wall almost shows at 14:00 Wib.
“I think we should straighten it out now, Nai. I still wish we could be together for Vienna.” The hero held Naina's wrist.
“Are we not now together for Vienna, Mas,” Naina said with her rest.
“No bonding ...” There was the sound of a floating spirit.
Naina nodded. “I decided not to bind myself to anyone, Mas,” firmly Naina again.
“This is unfair to Vienna, Nai. Can't you throw away your stubbornness and selfishness for the sake of our daughter? You know everything, Nai. I have never betrayed you until this moment. Is this fair to me? Fair to Vienna?” The woman threw her body back on the chair, rubbing the rough messy face after hearing Naina's rejection with full decisiveness.
“This is also unfair to me, Mas. I fell in love again. Falling in love for the second time, but I have to sacrifice my feelings for you and Vienna.” Naina said in her heart, her eyes glazed over.
“I'm sorry, Mas.” Naina down.
“Good. Let's just say I didn't say anything, Nai. I don't want us to fight over this. I'm ready to start over. Please give me a chance, Nai. I'll fight for Vienna. If you still have feelings, please fight for our daughter. You know what it's like to live without an intact parent, you should also understand what Vienna will feel when he starts to understand many things,” said Wira, patting Naina's shoulder gently and walking out of the room.
“I'm waiting for you at home.” The hero said while swinging the doorknob.
***
“I'm sorry, Mas.” Naina's body squeezed, slumped down to the floor after the Hero actually left. All this time he tried to hide many things from the world, even from himself. He struggles to get out of his feelings. He also did not want to hurt everyone, but God punished him painfully.
Dennis Joseph, the handsome man who had secretly filled his life the last few years, had stolen a part of the place in his heart. Naina wants to reject that, but God really makes her slump by presenting a second love in her life after Wira.
In the past, he struggled to forget his love for Dennis in order to not be hurt again because of love. If so, he has more reasons. It is impossible to follow his feelings. Dennis and Wira were born from the same woman's womb. It is impossible to hurt both. As much as possible Naina will keep the feelings to herself.
Especially when he found out about Dennis' past, it felt unfair to Wira. It's just that, a matter of the heart, no one can control it. Like him who tried to remain loyal to the Hero, but his heart betrayed. He fell in love with another man. And he was unlucky, that man was the one who destroyed his household.
“I don't want to love and be loved, I just want to live with Vienna alone, grow old with my daughter. Am I wrong?” naina said slowly. Her tears flowed profusely while squeezing her claustrophobic chest.
“Is it fair for me .. I even chose not to live together with the man I love. Why force me to live with a man I don't love. Mas Wira of my past, which is left of us only sweet memories and Vienna.”
Naina got up and sat down. Grab the phone on the table and wipe it slowly. Tucked some photos of Dennis in his cell phone gallery, among hundreds of photos of Vienna.
“Mas, why should I love you. Of the many men in the world, why should you. After knowing everything, I felt God was punishing me. It's like karma that I have to accept for hurting Mas Wira,” Naina while crying.
He realizes his feelings for Dennis right after waking up from a coma. Dennis' shadow appeared in his faint vision. The man was holding the Viennese baby with his left hand, standing at the side and holding his hand. During her pregnancy and childbirth struggles, Dennis never left her. Every time he needed Dennis, he would meet him, even if he had to cross the ocean, across the continent.
“Yes Lord .. If this is my punishment, I accept it, but please don't make me have to hurt Mas Wira again. I hope he finds a woman who deserves him better. That could make her happy, and it wasn't me. I just spread the wound for him.”
***
That afternoon, cloudy clouds swung spoiled in the sky of Jakarta. Before long, the drizzle greeted the earth without excuse. The water speck accompanied the steps of the woman in a brown bag, running towards the stop to wait for public transport.
“Nai, come with me! I'll take you home,” cried Pieter as she passed Naina at the gate of RD Group.
“No need, Sir. I take public transport only,” reject Naina.
“The rain is heavy, Nai. Your clothes are all wet. The rain will be long. Come, log in!” yell Pieter again. The man's eyes narrowed as he was hit by rainwater attacks mixed with gusts of strong wind coming in from the car window.
“It's okay, Sir. Thank you,” reject Naina while running hard towards the stop to avoid the increasingly rain.
“Always stubborn!” grunts Pieter.
A pair of eyes were watching the scene at the gate of the RD Group. Yes, he is a hero. The man was sitting waiting for Stella behind the wheel of her black Tesla lined up among the other employees' cars. Bara asks for his help to take Stella to the hospital.
“Mas, sorry long wait.” Stella suddenly appears, opening the car door with the wet top exposed to rain water.
“No, I just got there. New bara informs me.” The hero answered casually, the man's gaze was fixed on Naina who was waiting for the transport in the rain.
“Sorry troublesome. Actually I can just go by taxi. Mas Bara is too much,” said Stella, while horrifying her wet hair with a handkerchief.
“We leave now?” ask the hero, trying to smile. Mind fucked. She was worried about Naina. It was raining so hard, it was dark and Naina was waiting alone. Honestly, the feeling is not good. Like something's gonna happen.
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