Instantaneous Sweetness

May You Calm Down There

Today was the first day I performed the service, after my blood stopped. Long before the Azan reverberated I was awake first. I stared at my son just as I was sleeping. I grabbed a towel and stepped into the bathroom. So cold this dawn pierced the bone of the marrow, in contrast to the previous dawn. Or because I take a shower at dawn? I don't know! But it's so different to feel the cold at dawn, it's so piercing.

Not a few minutes later I had finished the mandatory bath, before of course I had read a book about the explanation of the mandatory bath of a woman who finished the wiladah.

Duh! The cold is incredible. But, in fact, the morning shower is very good for health. A moment later, I was done wearing clothes. It feels so fresh this body, but it can make me shiver too. I hurried up to the bed and I slowly grabbed the blanket and covered my body. However, my cold never subsided.

How'this? I really want to pray Sunnah first. Ah, yes. Didn't you buy a ginger drink yesterday. I opened the blanket and slowly got out of bed. Then step into the dining room. I'm looking for a ginger drink that Mama bought yesterday. Thankfully there, it was located in the storefront. I immediately made the ginger drink with hot water.

‘’Hem, very fragrant. Just this time I want to try a ginger drink,’’ mumbled me while inhaling the aroma of ginger from a drink that I brew.

Because I deliberately mix it with cold water, so the drink is not too hot so it can be drunk directly. Sure enough, my coldness disappeared instantly. Replaced with a warm taste. Because the body already feels warm, I rushed berwudhu’

I pray sunnah repent first. Ask forgiveness from the Creator for all the sins I have committed.

Very long I mingled with tears of regret until the sound of mic musholla that circled people reading the Qur’an. I wiped away the tears that had not stopped dripping. I better do the sunnah prayer before dawn first two rakaat. Finished the second greeting reading, the dawn azan also reverberated melodiously. It feels so peaceful.

‘’Alhamdulillah Ya Allah,’’ muttered me while wiping my face with both palms.

Immediately I rushed the prayer of the two rakaat. Finished the prayer, I immediately took Al-Qur’an small granting aunty Sisi. Although the reading of the Qur’anku not smooth, but I will try to learn and learn. Immediately I chant the holy verse of the Qur’an.

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My advanced thing immediately rang. My eyes turned to look at the thing located on the nightstand.

‘’Who did this morning call? What is Ayu or Mama Karni?’’ I hurried up and grabbed a sophisticated thing. New number?

‘’Hallo! Assalamua’laikum.’’

‘’Good morning, Mba. We're from the hospital. Want to tell you that Andre just breathed his last and his mother is now unconscious.’’

I shut my mouth and was shocked, it felt like my knees were so limp.

‘’I—innalillahi wa innailaihi roji’un.’’ I was sitting limp on the floor.

‘’Why are you so soon gone, Ndre?’’ Dissociation tears wet the cheeks. Until the sophisticated object spontaneously fell from my hand onto the floor.

‘’Hallo, Mba. Mba heard my voice right?’’ Made me wake up and stare at the sophisticated object lying on the floor and I grabbed it immediately.

‘’De—listen, I'll be right to the hospital.’’ Without saying anything, I hurried to shut off the unilateral connection.

I got up and looked at Rafi who was sleeping. Today also the label of orphans has been embedded in my son. Oh God, have pity on you, son. Just the age you were left dead by the father. I slowly approached Rafi who was still asleep.

‘’One-time Pity Dedek, Son. Do’ Papa ya so that he is calm in nature there,’’ said I with a vibrating voice while wiping my baby's forehead. He woke up and cried loudly. I hugged and kissed her.

‘’Honey, there's Mama here, Nak.’’ I'm sure the hunch has come to my baby because they're blood related. I stood there holding her, but she still cried.

‘’Monik? Si Dedek why?’’ My mom's voice was out there and she entered my room. I glanced for a moment at my mom.

‘’A—Andre died just now, Ma,’’ said with throat choked.

‘’A—what? Who reported you?’’

‘’Hospital side, Ma. I just got word. I'm sure because that's why Dedek cried.’’ I stroked her tiny head that started to sweat as it continued to cry.

I glanced for a moment at my mother, for a long time she was pensive while shedding tears.

‘’Let Mama persuade the Dedek yes. You get ready now. Let Mama take care of Dedek at home. You go to the hospital. Mama Karni will need you, son,’’ said mama and immediately took over Rafi in my sling. I agreed with my mother and immediately got ready to go to the hospital.

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‘’Sus, did the patient on behalf of Andre actually die?’’ I hurried over to the woman in uniform.

‘’True, Mba. Just died and has been taken to the morgue.’’ Makes me pensive with that woman's answer.

‘’Still yes, Sus.’’ I immediately rushed to the ICU room once occupied by Andre, no longer knowing where to look for Mama Karni. I'm afraid something happened to Andre's mother.

‘’Mba Monik? Mas Andre's body has been moved,’’ said Sister Aila who for a week took care and looked after Andre. It made me look and stop my steps.

‘’Kalo Bu Karni where, Sus?’’

I hurried to follow Sister Aila's steps. I resigned my intention to enter the room. I don't think I can see Karni's mom. I decided to stand in the doorway.

‘’ANDREEE!!’’ shouted Mama, who seemed to rush to sit down, but because her body felt helpless made her lie back.

‘’Bu, relax first yes.’’ The woman in uniform approached Mama Karni.

‘’Sa—I have to meet my son, Sus,’’ he said softly with a vibrating voice.

My ex-in-law rushed to try to sit back, but still could not be possible because her body felt helpless.

‘’My son Andre is fine right?’’ The middle-aged woman held the hand of Sister Aila, yet she was only speechless a thousand languages.

‘’Ma?’’ I hurried into the room.

‘’Monik? Where is Andre? He's fine, right?’’ Her net Keda was in tears, she looked at me softly.

‘’A—Andre has left us, Ma.’’ The words that were difficult for me to say finally came out spontaneously.

‘’Ma, I also did not expect that Andre left us this soon.’’ I hugged my mom tightly.

‘’We must be strong yes, Ma. So that Andre is calm in nature there, so that he does not be sad.

Especially see Mama like this.’’ I let go of my arms and held my arms up and wiped the tears of the woman I thought was my parents.

‘’Mama has no one else, Monik,’’ he said in between sobs.

‘’Mama still has me. I promise I will always be there for Mama.’’

‘’Kalo there is no you. Mama does not know anymore—‘’ Mama Karni cried so badly and then poured into my arms.

‘’Ya Allah why did you take my son so soon?’’

In the ambulance, Mama Karni hugged her son's body with tears. Makes my heart feel sad, spontaneously tears come back. My hand raised stroked the back of Mama Karni.

‘’Ma, I know how Mama feels. But, it is also not good if we cry over the departure of Andre,’’ I said softly. The woman with my eyes was looking at me.

‘’Mama like a dream, Monik. Mama never thought that she would leave Mama for good,’’, said the mother who was barely heard by me, because of the sound of the ambulance so loud.

‘’It was because of someone who harmed Andre. If not, Andre will still be able to recover!’’ Makes me gasp and stare directly at Mama Karni.

‘’Means Mama? Who harmed Andre?’’

‘’Mama also don't know, Monik. Because she's disguised as a nurse. At first Mama thought she was Sister Aila, it wasn't. Maybe because Mama's eyes feel sleepy and just woke—‘’

‘’Ya Allah, Ma.’’ I was shocked to hear my mother's explanation. Instantly I remembered the threat of Nina's mother.

‘’What does this have to do with Mama Nina?’’

I shook my head quickly and tried to shake off that prejudice. Before the evidence, I can't just accuse you.

‘’We focus first on Andre yes, Ma. After Andre is buried, we'll check the hospital's CCTV. We'll investigate who's behind all this.’’ I clasped the middle-aged woman's fingers again.

I took Andre's body covered in a white cloth.

‘’May you calm down there yes, Ndre. You will not feel pain again.’’

Not long ago, the ambulance had entered an elite luxury house. It seems the people have gathered. I rushed down while helping Mama Karni step outside. People helped to lift Andre's body.

‘’Laa ilahaillallah, laa ilahaillallah.’’ People brought him into the house.

‘’Astaghfirullah, Ma!’’ I shouted because Mama Karni fainted, fortunately I quickly moved to welcome her body.

‘’To—please help Ms. Karni, Sir,’’ I said to security mama Karni who rarely saw her presence in the hospital. I immediately followed the steps of the man who was carrying the body of Mama Karni towards his room.

Seriate.