Instantaneous Sweetness

Is This a Reply for Me?

My husband has not been home for three days. I don't know where she's going and Mama Karni doesn't know her whereabouts. I asked him, he said he did not give any news to his mother and had been contacted number but not active. I am very worried about my husband. I don't know what's wrong with me until he doesn't want to go home. I don't know what else is going through Andre's mind. Has he really changed? Or is he with the woman who was betrothed by Papa Ardi?

‘’Ndre, where are you anyway? Rafi and I miss you here,’’ lirihku while staring at my baby who is asleep in the lap.

What pity has my son not long felt the affection of a father and now? The paper disappeared somewhere. My baby's age still needs affection from both parents. This is all my fault too. I tasted sweetness that was not in time, shethan instigated and I managed to incite it without thinking about what the consequences of my actions were.

I was blind because of love. Wrong love, love that is not yet in time. It's that easy to give up everything and even take my hood off? How crazy I am. If only I could take care of myself, it wouldn't be like this in the end.

My baby woke up and cried.

‘’Ulala! My mom's son woke up. It must be laper right, dear.’’

I rushed to give ASI, but still he did not want and did not stop crying. Makes my head throb even more. I pinched my forehead slowly.

‘’Ya Allah, Monik. Rafi why else? How come crying keeps her?’’ said auntie out there.

‘’Ndon't know, Bi. Wake up he immediately cry, I want to give ASI. But he did not want to, Bi,’’ answered me who rushed down from the bed carrying my baby.

‘’That's because of your agitated mind, Aunty is sure of it.’’ The door immediately creaked and auntie immediately entered my room.

Aunt has a point too. Indeed my mind is now so calm, drifting out of nowhere. I just stare at my aunt holding my baby.

‘’Now, Monik?’’ re-aunt looked at me.

I just nodded,’’Iya, Bi. end Andre did not go home, how did I not think much of a try. I'm afraid if he turns again out there, Bi.’’ I'm shrinking with dewy eyes. Aunt looked at me with a pity look.

‘’Ya Allah, Monik. Have you tried to contact it?’’

‘’Udah, Bi. Number is inactive.’’

‘’Astaghfirullah. Where is Mas Andre?’’ it was her who nodded in bed.

‘’That's what I worry about, Bi.’’

‘’I am afraid something will happen to Andre and I am afraid if he plays fire out there even though here there is his wife and son who are waiting for his presence.’’ My tears escaped instantly. My breath was tight and I couldn't hold it.

‘’I'm tired like this, Bi.’’ my sobbing is getting tighter making my baby wake up and cry.

‘’Monik, strong and patient yes. Pity you Rafi.’’ Auntie hastened to stroke my back slowly. My baby just kept crying without stopping.

‘’Well what Aunty said, your son also followed the cry tuh.’’ Sure enough, when I got late in sobbing, my baby was also getting firmer.

‘’Sini be the same Aunt.’’

Aunty rushed to take my baby and put it on her lap. Instantly he fell silent. Aunty brought her up and sang sholawat for her. I tried to breathe out a breath so that it felt a little relieved. Then I rubbed tears with the end of the veil.

‘’Rest first, Monik. Later tell again to Auntie let your feelings plong,’’ and soft aunt out of fear of being disturbed Rafi.

I replied with a nod and stepped onto the bed for a short break. I tried to close my eyes, but my eyes refused to shut. Maybe because of a lot of thought. And I kept forcing myself to close my eyes, but there was an aunt who was looking after my baby.

An hour later I woke up. My eyes are difficult to open so tired because Rafi is often fussy and also has a lot of thoughts. I forced him to open his eyes and sit down slowly while collecting lives. My eyes were fixed to my left.

‘’There's my baby. Where to aunt?’’

I was amazed to find my baby sleeping next to me. Because before going to bed Rafi with aunt, the aunt who fondled her. And now I have no aunt. Yes, maybe because of the aunt who was doing a lot of work and because Rafi who had fallen asleep so fast that my aunt dared to leave my baby. I looked at the thing that was coiling on the wall.

‘’AT 13.00? Andre still hasn't come home, where and where did you sleep these three days, Ndre? Go home, your son and your wife are waiting at home,’’ I watered down with tears streaming down. I looked back at my little baby. I teared up tears slowly.

‘’Goddess you, Darling. Ma’af Mama yes, Nak.’’ I kissed her forehead slowly.

Instantly my flat thing rings. There was a sense of happiness appearing in this heart.

‘’For sure it's Andre. Yes, definitely my husband,’’ guess me with a feeling of pleasure. Gegasku. I looked at the phone screen and then I exhaled slowly.

‘’I thought it was my husband, it was Mama.’’

‘’Assalamua’alaikum, Son. How come you haven't heard from me in a few days?’’ Mom's voice is across there.

‘’Wa—wa’alaikumussalam. Ma’af, Ma. Mama's granddaughter fussed these few days. That's why I never again call Mama,’’.

‘’Yes Allah, Rafi is sick, Monik? How did you not say the same Mama.’’ sound mama sound anxious across there.

For a moment I was silent. I can't tell my mother everything, including the problems that are afflicting my household. I tried to think of the reason or the answer I was going to tell my mom. I do not want if mama knows later even become a burden of the same mind and impact on the health of the mother, I do not want mama sad again and why again. Just yesterday I made both my parents sad, disappointed, and hurt with all my behavior.

‘’Monik, you are fine right?’’

‘’Eh, yes, Ma,’’ sahutku.

‘’What's up, Monik? Tell Mama, don't tackle your own problems. Not good, Son.’’

Jem! God, what should I say to my mother. Does your mom have a feeling about me?

‘’E—doesn't, Ma. Thank God I'm fine, just Rafi fussy because not feeling well, Ma. But Alhamdulillah now no longer really,’’ my mouth as soon as I am afraid mama asked again, then even a lot of lies that come out in my mouth, I do not want.

‘’Thank God for that. You do not hesitate to tell the story to Mama yes, if there is something you want to tell me phone Mama directly.’’

‘’Iya, Mama calm down. Oh, yes Papa is cured, right, Ma?’’ I switched my conversation.

‘’Alhamdulillah Your father is now cured, Monik. In fact, it has started to enter the office again.’’ instantly there is a sense of relief and a feeling of pleasure appears in my heart.

‘’Udah Mama says. But your father said he has really recovered and also at home continues, not to mention the office work has been abandoned two weeks,’’ clearly mama at length.

‘’Thank God, Mom. If indeed Papa's condition has really improved, I have been thinking for a few days Papa,’’ lirihku.

‘’Iya, Son. Now Papa is healed, do not think much later Rafi even fuss again. Take care of your health also yes,’’ advice mama across there.

‘’Oh yes, Mama and Papa will move house.’’

Makes me gasp.

‘’Iya? But why, Ma?’’ many wonder.

‘’And you know for yourself what our neighbors are now kayaking and Mama and Papa also want you to visit us occasionally to the house, so we decided to move. Let you visit Mama and Papa if you miss us.’’

‘’Mama also,’’ mumbled.

‘’Iya too, Ma. Thank God, I heard him, Ma. But—’’

‘’You don't hesitate, Son. The house we place later is much bigger and no less good also than before kok.’’ mama directly cut my conversation.

‘’Umm, thank you for that, Ma.’’

‘’And if you want to stay with your husband there is also nothing.’’

O Allah, Andre has not returned home until now and there is no news.

‘’Monik? You have a problem with your husband?’’

‘’Kalo it seems you can not stay there, let's stay with Mama and Papa in our new home later. Mama and Papa will take you back, we don't want if you eat liver.’’

Jem!

‘’Ya Allah, I have to answer what else this is,’’ mumbled in my heart. Without me noticing my tears coming back. I exhale slowly to feel relieved. I slowly wiped the tear with the end of the veil.

‘’Iya, Mom. Thanks though. Thank God I'm okay here. If I wanted to stay with Mama and Papa, I'd say. Mama don't worry yes, in shaya Allah I'm fine here,’’ replied I try to behave as if in a state of good.

‘’Thank God, Mama is relieved to hear it now. Because Mama had your dream last night, you were sitting there crying and it made Mama always think of you. Hope you didn't lie to Mama huh, son.’’

My heart was beating hearing my mother's words.

‘’Ya Allah, ma’af me yes, Ma. I don't want Mama to think anymore, let me pendam myself,’’ muttered in my heart.

‘’Humm, Ma already yes. I want to eat first Aunt already called, say hello to Papa. Take care of your health always. And don't mind much, I don't want Mama for anything. Assalamua’alaikum.’’

I rushed to disconnect the phone because aunt called from the outside and also I did not want to later even keceplosan talk to mama if my household was hit by problems.I do not want it to happen, I do not want it to happen, mama and papa can't think much more, I won't let him be sad and disappointed with me.

Slowly I got up and put a flat object on the nightstand. I opened the door, and it appeared that aunt was standing with a tray that I thought had lunch for me.

‘’Ma’af long ago, Bi.’’ I tucked both palms in the chest.

‘’Nothing, Monik. Yes Aunty brought it in yes.’’ I nodded and smiled then he brought it into my room.

‘’Live eaten yes, Monik.’’ Aunty looked at me while putting a tray filled with food on the nightstand. I slackened with a nod.

‘’Oh yes, ma’afkan Aunty had left Rafi. Aunty remembered not making lunch, so Aunt rushed down.’’

‘’Nothing really, Bi. Aunty has helped to put Rafi to sleep and calm down, even I am very grateful. Thanks a lot, Bi.’’ I nodded at the chair.

‘’Sama-sama, Monik. Yes, Auntie returned to the kitchen first.’’ Aunt smiled specially for her.

I return with a nod. Aunty stepped outside and closed the door quietly. I stared at the tray in front of me that contained food and took it out. There is rice, chicken sambal seasoning, vegetable asem, dragon juice and a glass of water. I don't feel like there's one bit of it, Andre's always been imagined by me. My taste is getting lost.

‘’Yes Allah, is this my reward for my actions that violate Your prohibition O God? I am reminded of the words Ayu.’’

‘’Every deed will be reciprocated by Allah, Monik,’’ he said instantly.

‘’My actions that violate the ban. I was so easy to do the forbidden thing, so easily I was fooled by the cursed shetan. And with my religious knowledge that was very minimal about it, even at that time I did not know what the law of dating was, and until I fell into adultery. A momentary sweetness, bad for me. Until I got pregnant out of wedlock, Andre ran away and did not want responsibility at that time, not to mention Papa hated me and drove me from home to not know where to step foot. And fortunately I still hold the money given to Mama, until I look for a hostel and stay there for a while, but it turned out that the boarding mother was fierce and very upset and until I was finally caught by the residents if I got pregnant outside marriage that all the teachers I met at the stall leaked all my disgrace, in the end I ran away from the boarding through the window and many more tests that hit me, my inner’’ that is imagined all that I have ever experienced.

‘’But God still loves me who has many of these sins, the proof is that I now have a place to live and marry Andre.’’

‘’And now, Andre is changing again as usual. He hasn't been home for three days. I deserve a reply like this, I deserve to be tested by Allah.’’

Yes, the sweetness of the courtship turned out to be just a moment and all the seduction that came out of his mouth only when courting. Rarely will the romantic courtship continue until the marriage. I should have held back my love for Andre and I shouldn't have accepted his love. But I accept, I am blind with love. Until I indulged all my passions and I ended up falling like this.

Regret comes at the end, it's because I don't think in advance what the consequences are for me and because I have very little religious knowledge, so the lack of law hooded at that time I do not know until it is easy to open my veil in front of people who have not been halal to be mine.

‘’Astaghfirullah ‘al adziim.’’ My tears were dripping incessantly.

Prangs!

It made me gasp and look at the source of the sound. I wiped away the tears and hurried over. Oh my God, the picture of me and my husband when we were dating first? Why did it fall like this? What is this, O God? Looks like the glass cracked. This time I felt really bad. What's going on out there with my husband?

Seriate.

Thank you very much for Readers who are still faithful to read the continuation of the novel "Something Sweetness", hopefully you are healthy always and facilitated by the recovery. ❤

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