Instantaneous Sweetness

I'm afraid if I'm pregnant

‘’Oek oek oek!’’ my stomach feels so nauseous. I hurriedly stepped into the bathroom and turned on the water faucet. I face to the glass. Looks so pale.

‘’Several days my stomach feels nauseous. What am I—?’’ I'm afraid I'm actually pregnant. What if it's real?

I hurried back to my room. Yeah, I just locked myself up at home this week and didn't go to school. Because my stomach feels so nauseous. My reasons for going to mom and dad are just not healthy. There's no way I'm going to school with my condition like this, let alone continue to be nauseous. I might even be expelled from school.

‘’Oek oek oek!’’ I ran to the back. It felt like only water had come out of my mouth. What's the matter? Or.. Did I catch a cold? But there's no way a hot day like this gets in the wind. Or a magh? Cannot be. Because I've never been sick before. I went back to the room with shaky steps.

Scroll the watch on the wall, showing 10:00. Mama hasn't come home yet, neither has Papa been in the office. If both my parents were at home, they would have been suspicious of me. I exhaled a rough breath. My stomach still feels nauseous. I tried to stand up slowly to look for eucalyptus oil and I smeared my whole body with that eucalyptus oil. My nausea is gone. I put my body on the bed. And stared at the ceiling of the room with an erratic look.

‘’My world feels dark. What should I do?’’ I messed up my hair in frustration. Still imagined by me what happened a month ago. If only I had decided to go home even with the rain, if I had stayed at my best friend's house and if I had listened to the advice of both parents. Maybe it won't be like this. Why am I blinded by love? Why am I enslaved by love?

‘’KENAPAA?!’’ my yelling.

My phone rings immediately. Definitely her. Yes, she was my lover who took away my chastity. I sat down and grabbed my phone. Justright.

‘’Sayang. You haven't been in in a week. Where are you going?’’ he wrote on the green app. I slammed the phone into bed.

‘’Where to ask you? After you did all that to me. Basic man!’’my emotions are already in the crown. My head was dizzy, my chest was beating and my breathing was puffing.

I don't want to reply to the message, he called me through the green application. My phone rings instantly. I'll leave. Then I returned to my body. Finally, the eyes were closed because of sleepiness and fatigue.

***

Tok tok!

My eyes are still closed I tried to open them. It must be my mom who came home from work. I slowly sat down and walked towards the front door.

‘’Se—sewhile, Ma,’’ lirihku with typical sound wake up.

‘’Assalamua’laikum, Monik!’’

‘’Wa’alaikumussalam, Ma,’’ sahutku clean and open the door. Then I'm not with my mom. Mom's face looked very anxious.

‘’Your lips are pale, Monic,’’ Mama is looking at me.

‘’We go to the doctor only?’’ pinta mama who is still standing in the doorway, wearing her work uniform and carrying plastic, and carrying a bag that she usually wears in the office. And my net was fixed on the plastic that was carried by my mother, I don't know what the contents of the plastic were.

I shook my head,’’No need, Ma. Monik is just a normal fever. Drinking paramex will also heal,’’ refused me and showed me a smile as if I was fine.

‘’Ma—ma’ Monik. Monik is afraid that Monik is pregnant, Ma,’’ my inner self.

‘’You're really okay, son?’’ mama chased me, making my chest feel tight.

I shook my head slowly,’’Iya, Ma. Mama rest!’’ I brought my mom in. And I intend to go back to the room. Yeah, the room is where I've been shutting myself up since I did that indecent thing with my girlfriend.

Instantly my steps stopped,’’Monik!’’ my mother's call made me turn and stop my steps.

‘’I—iya, Ma?’’

‘’Eat first. Here's Mama bring your favorite food. After that just rest!’’ tell mom while showing the plastic bag that was previously held.

Degh's!

‘’Mama is so considerate and dear to me. If Mama knew what I had done, maybe Mama would hate me so much,’’ I look at mama.

‘’Kok even dumb?’’

‘’Monk!’’ call mama back.

‘’E—eh. Yes, Ma?’’

Mama rushed to the living room, as well as I who obeyed her steps.

I nodded at the chair. Mom prepared the food she brought. He put the food on the plate. And suddenly my stomach was stirred.

‘’Ka—kamu why? Windin? Or magh?’’ my mom's face was so worried.

I put up a face as if it were fine,’’Iya. Monik aching magh, Ma,’’ There's no way I'd say that I catch a cold while the air is so hot today. I know, I lied today. But do not rule out the possibility of tomorrow mama and papa will know this behavior of mine.

‘’That's why you're not late to eat. Although fever should be forced,’’ This time mama's face is a little calm. I don't know! I don't know what was on my mom's mind.

‘’Iya, Mom. It's just no taste,’’

‘’Although there is no taste, if you eat with your favorite food at least there is a little food into your stomach. Tell Mama what you want to buy,’’ Mama poured water from the freezer.

Put it on the dining table. It has been arranged two plates hodgepodge and do not forget to be equipped with snacks.

I was just listening to mama talk,’’Ayuk eat! Later maghmu even worse,’’ mama's decree thrust a plate of hodgepodge and a glass of water. So many of these hodgepodge. And somehow just seeing it makes my stomach feel nauseous again.

‘’Kok gado-gado diiatin aja?’’ mama who was bribing hodgepodge back to look at me. And stop his hand from bribing.

‘’I—iya, Ma,’’ lirihku and slowly bribe hodgepodge to mouth.

Justright. Only three mouthfuls of food entered my mouth, my stomach felt stirred and returned nauseous.

‘’Oek oek oek!’’ I shut my mouth.

‘’Ya Allah. What Mama said, you should be taken to the doctor,’’

‘’Ngak, Mom. Later also healed kok,’’ I tried to convince mom.

‘’Ya. Hope you heal quickly. Already a week you do not enter school,’’ Mama again bribe hodgepodge.

Degh's! Mama said ‘’School’’ aja my heart skipped a beat and my sweat started flowing down my face. Instead of eating hodgepodge, even quail. Made my mother look back at me who was drinking a glass of water.

‘’If not exhausted do not force, Monik,’’

‘’Iya, Mom. There's no taste. Then Monik rest first, Ma,’’ I sip water white. Then slowly step.

Mama just nodded and looked at me with a hard look to quantify. What was my mother thinking?

I slowly stepped into the room and laid my body on the bed. Lately my body has been so limp, as if my energy has been drained. My stomach this week feels very nauseous, especially now. What if I'm actually pregnant? I don't know what else to do. Of course my parents will be angry and hate me, what about my school? I will soon be taking the UN exam and will soon be finishing High School. My dream that has been going to continue education will it run aground?

‘’Aaarrghh!!’’ I groaned in frustration and ruffled my hair.

Fortunately, my room was a long way from the dining room. If not, my mom will hear my voice.

My phone rings back. This time I rushed to get it. I saw the name listed,’’My best friend Ayu?’’ Yes, he was my best friend who sent me a message. His name is Ayu Lestari. He didn't approve of my relationship with Andre. And Ayu is very different from the others, for some reason.

(‘’Assalamua’laikum, Monik! You never reply to my messages and never pick up the phone from me? Are you all right? How's it going? You haven't been to school for a week, Monik. Teachers on asking,’’) he wrote at length. What am I supposed to answer?

(‘’Wa’alaikumussalam. Ma’af yes. I asked ma’af to make you anxious. I'm not well enough, Yu,’’) I reply briefly.

(‘’Don't make me anxious again huh. How about I go to your house today?’’) reply quickly. Yeah, maybe because of the break. That's why he got a message from her for me so soon.

(‘’Iya. No, Yu. You are school. I just have a normal fever,’’) reject me. How'this? If Ayu really went home and mom asked Ayu, where did I stay a month ago, how? My mind was so upset and my chest felt tight.

(‘’Ngot nothing, Monik. I can ask permission,’’)

(‘’My best friend has a fever for a week. I'm so damn direct. Yes, I want to otewe first. See you!’’)

Degh's!

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