Instantaneous Sweetness

The accident?

Somehow after the marathon, my son just fussed. Dikasih ASI do not want, swung not want. Even though his body was not hot and my mind was fine, not drifting anywhere. But what makes him cranky?

‘’Monik, si Dedek why? How do you not stop crying?’’ Mama who had just returned home came straight to me into the room.

‘’Ndon't know, Ma. He has not even wanted to be dem since. I love ASI and I tried to persuade her. But still can not be diem the Dedeknya,’’ my sahut who still holds my baby, he cried hysterically. Makes me dizzy.

‘’Or maybe her stomach hurts?’’ Mama rushed to grab the eucalyptus oil located on the nightstand.

‘’Let the Dedek same Mom aja.’’

Without thinking anymore I rushed to give Rafi to her grandmother, because my hands also felt very tired because they carried her too long. Mana knows her crying stops if it's in my mom's arms. He rushed to put her to bed and apply eucalyptus oil on her stomach, back, and body. However, it turned out that she still did not stop crying.

‘’How is it, Ma?’’ I asked with a trembling voice, I was getting dizzy.

I don't know what my baby is feeling. Mama seemed to bring him up and carry him out of the room. I was pensive in the room, the sound of a cell phone able to break my daydreams.

I rushed to get that sophisticated thing. On the screen is the name of a person's contact.

Mama Karni's?

Without thinking, I lifted up.

‘’Mo—Monik, Papanya Rafi...’’ Mama Karni directly talk without saying hello. The sound of crying by me made me feel worried.

‘’A—Andre why, Ma?’’

‘’A—Andre accident, Nak.’’

Jem! Athaghfirullah! I shut my mouth. Something collapsed this time.

‘’Ya Allah, Ma!’’

I was sitting limp on the floor, subconsciously my sophisticated object slipped out of my hands just like that. I was shocked to hear the news I just heard from my ex-in-law. Yeah, honestly I used to hate that guy who made my life fall apart like this. But as time went on I began to learn to accept all of this sincerely and however the man was my son's real father, Rafi. Ah, I just remembered.

Wasn't this morning when I was in a marathon I saw his figure riding a motor sport with a woman dressed as her knees while tightly embracing Andre's waist. When was it time for her to crash? Or when you were with that woman?

‘’Yes Allah, Ndre! You are indeed the man who once scratched a wound in my heart. But, after all, you are the biological father of my baby. There is no such thing as an ex-Dad,’’ lirihku in between sobs of tears. I rubbed my face many times.

‘’Nak? You why?’’

Mama's voice was able to make me wake up from the long daydream. My eyes were on the woman who gave birth to me nineteen years ago. I quickly wiped away the round of tears that were still wetting my cheeks.

‘’Monik? Don't think too much, Nak.’’ Mama seemed to step towards me and sit beside me.

‘’Rafi Alhamdulillah has slept in Mama's room.’’ Instantly there was a slight sense of relief in the heart, but this time I thought of his papa. How's he doing now? Why is Mama Karni hysterical?

‘’Alhamdulillah,’’ lirihku, but tears back dripping on the cheeks. Make your mama's hand lift wiping my tears.

‘’Nak, you why cry again? What do you think?’’ My mom looked at me deeper. I can't feel like I'm covering this up from my mom. I took a slow breath to get rid of the feeling that was so tight in the chest.

‘’Pa—Her father Rafi, Ma,’’ lirihku with great vibrating voice.

‘’Andre? Why her?’’

‘’You know from where?’’

‘’Mama Karni just contacted me. Ma, I want to know how Andre.’’ is

‘’You still care about that guy? He has ruined your life, son!’’ Mama's voice was heard rising and in the look of her eyes there was like there was a hatred there.

Yes, in my heart I also confirmed my mother's words. But on the other hand, however, the man is still the father of my baby. Although he left a deep wound in my heart, but now I think that I should learn to accept all of this. I had to learn to be sincere and remove the hate that was in me. I have to learn to be a person who pema’af.

Is not Allah the All-Pema’af? While I who only His creation is not easy for me to mema’af. I am ashamed of the Creator, for I have not easily’. Moreover, the sins in my past are so great. Athaghfirullah!

‘’Ma, he is indeed the man who ruined my life. But isn't this also my own fault? If only I could take care of myself, maybe not like gini finally.’’

‘’The wounds in my heart are so deep, Ma. But, after I thought. I have to make peace with myself. I must be able to heal this wound, by learning to shepherd all that is happening in my life and including mema’a man who once etched a wound in my heart. Even so difficult, Ma,’’ continued me while reaching for my mother's fingers.

‘’Please permit me to see the state of my son Papa, Ma. It's for Rafi's sake. I beg you,’’ I said because my mother who did not speak a word said.

Only her tears are speaking. I know, it's really hurt that mommy's heart because that guy had his son's life ruined. I hurried to my knees at my mother's feet with tears constantly flooding my cheeks.

‘’Oke, Mama will permit you. This is for Mama's grandson.’’ The woman who had given birth to me rushed to help me get up.

I breathed with relief. I shed my tears that had fallen since. Netra mama then turned to the phone still lying on the floor, she grabbed it and put it on my bed.

‘’But, Mama will meet you. Let's wait for your dad to come home from the office first huh. Let Rafi take care.’’ Mama was right too. Rafi there's no way I'm taking her to the hospital. Let papa take care of my son.

‘’Still a lot huh, Ma. But Papa will return home kesorean.’’

‘’Honey, you calm down first huh. We have no choice but to wait for your father. There's no way we're staying with Rafi alone, right? It is not possible to take him to the hospital.’’

‘’How about I go alone to the hospital, Ma? Can yes,’’ I said with a face that was clear.

‘’Ngak can. You're not fully recovered, son. Mama doesn't want you to do anything.’’

‘’You rest now. Then Dedek fell asleep again. Mama also wants to rest,’’ continued mama who I said with a nod. The woman rushed over and closed the door of the room instantly. I breathe out slowly. I don't know why my heart is so unsettled right now, before I confirm the condition of my son's father.

‘’Hopefully Papa gave permission to see Andre to the hospital. Because I know very well how Papa. Especially now that my status is no longer as his wife,’’ mumbled me softly while biting the lower lip.

My son was asleep in his bedroom. How about I take a break. My body and mind need rest. I hurried to put my body to bed, and I tried to close my eyes, which were so reluctant to shut. Instantly a flat object sounded.

‘’Assalamua’alaikum, Monik. Have you heard from Ms Karni? Andre accident and until now has not been conscious, he is now in the hospital Medina.’’

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