Instantaneous Sweetness

POV Mom Monik

‘’What's the matter with me, Ma? Out of accident?’’

‘’A—what do you mean, Monik? Is he pretending?’’ my inner. Who felt there was a strange thing in my child just that way.

‘’You gave birth, Son,’’ I said slowly. I tried to hold back the tears that were about to fall.

‘’A—what? This is impossible, Ma. I'm not married yet, why give birth like this. Nggaakk!’’

‘’Ya Allah, instead of this all your own consequences, huh?’’ I pointed at him with my left index finger with trembling hands.

My emotions really can't be held back. It's good that he said that. This is the result of his actions. Now he's pretending he doesn't remember everything. Because it made me ashamed of my neighbor, who even gossiped every day to me and my husband. It's been nine months that my husband and I have left her alone out there.

Her father kicked her out when he found out that she was carrying a baby that was not in time. I can't forbid her papa from throwing her out of the house. I'll let it go, because it's worth having a kid like him. What should be his age is to focus on education. My husband and I are really disappointed with this. Moreover, Monik is the only child we have.

To be honest, I actually still feel disappointed with my son. Even when Ayu picks me up at home, I intend not to see her and will not take care of her again.

‘’Tante won't take care of him anymore, Yu! So please do not force Aunt to meet him,’’ I said by emphasizing the word ‘’tolong’’ when Ayu picked me up at home. But, in the end Ayu still persuaded me with tears she asked me to meet her best friend.

‘’Tan, Ayu knows it! Ayu understands what it's like to be aunty, how it feels to be in the position of Aunt.’’

‘’But, rice is already porridge. And in any case, Monik is the son of Aunty, he needs do’a and support from his mother,’’. Ayu's words were now ringing in my ears. I rubbed my face rough.

‘’Bu! Come with us to the room there is something we have to talk about with Mom,’’ said the woman in white uniform trying to calm me.

I let out a heavy sigh, then nodded weakly and followed after him. While the Monik still lay weak with medical devices that are still faithfully accompanied him. I got up from my seat and followed the white uniformed woman into her room.

‘’Please sit down first, Mom!’’ abugn. I just nodded and hurried to sit opposite him.

‘’Mum should be a lot patient facing Mba Monik, huh? Until he is completely healed,’’ his advice is friendly and calm.

I sighed heavily,’’How can I calm down, Doc. Whereas—‘’

‘’Ya, I know how Mom.’’ feeling I haven't finished talking, the beautiful doctor rushed to cut my talk.

‘’Kalo Mom keeps yelling and scolding him, there he will be more frustrating, Bu.’’

‘’Actually what happened to my son, Doc?’’

‘’Looks like she's in a deep depression, her name is Postpartum psychosis, Mom. This happens because he is stressed excessively, especially if the Monik Mba problem is very large. She fears that she might hurt herself and the baby.’’

‘’Depression, Doc?’’ I closed my mouth so shocked. And my tears just flow. Yes, although I don't know much about what the doctor said, but as far as I know depression is a psychiatric disorder.

‘’A—what can he recover approx, Doc?’’ I looked at it with a trembling voice.

‘’In shaa Allah can, Mom. The important thing is that Mom always supports Mba Monik and I recommend consulting a Psychiatrist after getting out of here. If left will be dangerous and difficult to recover later.’’

‘’What he said, don't argue yes, Mom. Must be patient with it.’’

‘’Arrgghh!’’ I heard screaming and crying.

His voice was no stranger to me. Yeah, my son just way. My heart felt like it had been stabbed by a bullet many times. Oh God, why is my son like this? I rubbed my face rough.

‘’Looks Mba Monik, Mom. We'll talk about it again.’’

‘’I will give her a temporary sedative.’’ she looks rushed up and stepped into the medicine cabinet.

His hand grabbed a few medicinal pills. His facial features described panic and stepping out of his room perhaps into my son's ward, I followed behind.

‘’Relax, Mba. Istighfar.’’

‘’I didn't give birth! No!’’ he just kept screaming while crying. My tears kept falling and my heart was so sore.

‘’The baby hasn't wanted to be on them since, Doc. Does he want milk?’'

So my granddaughter can't be quiet? Why did I not know and did not hear his cries from earlier, so unguided was my mind. What am I supposed to do? Especially with her mother like this. Never mind to breastfeed, just carry him does not want.

‘’He's thirsty maybe, Sus. Just make SGM milk first yes, we can not force it to love ASI to the baby,’’, said the doctor who was entering the Monik nursery room.

‘’Why did I fail to be a mother? Why?’’

Now I regret always being busy with my office work every day. After my office there was little time for my son. Oh God! Forgive me for not educating my son. I'm more concerned with my work.

It turns out that communication via cell phone is not so listened to my advice by him. He often said he was outside because he studied with his classmates. Ah, I still remember the time Monik asked for group study permission with his friends. And it was late at night he did not come home, because of a heavy rainy day so he could not go home.

Was he really with that jerk? Why am I so stupid to be a parent? And I don't know if they've been dating all this time either. My husband and I strongly forbid dating. Yeah, even though I don't have much time with him. Even though I don't always give him advice and even though I don't have time to take him to just tell stories.

‘’Why are you here? Huh huh? After everything was done with your son to my son, now you dare to show your face!’’ I hurried up and pushed the woman's body.

‘’A—I want to meet my grandson.’’

‘’Go you! And don't ever come here again! Same daughter same mother!’’ I violently tried to push the wide-hooded woman's body back. I don't know what he had in mind to make him still dare to show his nose here.

‘’Every child is educated!’’

‘’What is this? Don't make a fuss here!’’ the uniformed man came immediately.

‘’Pak, this girl has made my son so depressed! Now he dared to show his face here. I am not angry try. Try Mr who is in my position!’’ ketusku with a high tone and pointed at the woman with my left index finger.

‘’De—depression?’’ reworked.

‘’Iya, you are satisfied right?!’’ I rubbed my tears violently and smiled sinisterly at the pain of my heart.

‘’Already! Already!’’

‘’Please, don't make a fuss here. Other patients will be disturbed because of your actions.’’

‘’And Mom, please go from here!’’ the point is that it leads to the woman who made me ride the apoplexy since.

‘’Ngak, Sir. I want to meet my grandson,’’ he said softly with tears. I'm sure it's just his acting.

‘’Pak, please take this woman from here. Before my son knew and he would go berserk again,’’ I said softly with a vibrating voice. I was so disgusted to see that woman's face.

‘’Sa—I asked ma’af on behalf of Andre. Same with me.’’

‘’Arrrgghh!’’ his cries and screams made me look.

Sure enough what I said just now, when hearing the name of the jerk man made the Monik rampage again. Slowly I stepped up and saw from the door only the state of my child. He kept screaming with tears. Makes my heart grow stingier.

‘’Mba, relax first yes.’’

‘’I why? Why with me?!’’ she screamed hysterically. And Monik tried to release the infusion that was still beautifully attached to his hand. However, it was prevented by the nurse.

‘’Suster Andini call Doctor Atika yes,’’ he said with a decapitated breath. The woman seemed to nod and run outside. It turned out that the Atika doctor who was going to be called, had already stepped first in a hurry to the Monik nursery.

‘’Mba istighfar yes.’’

‘’Sus, please this injection as a tranquilizer yes,’’ pinta woman in white uniform who just entered the room, she thrust the syringe on the nurse. With a swift nun grabbed and hurriedly injected the needle into the Monik.

‘’Ya Allah!’’ I sat back down with tears.

It feels so sore. Seeing my child is my only unguided way of thinking. Moreover, after giving birth to a baby that I never expected his presence.

Seriate.

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