Instantaneous Sweetness

My baby's finicky

My baby was fussy. Dikasih ASI do not want, carried also do not want, have polished also with eucalyptus oil stomach, and checked the bedong not wet in the slightest. I was so anxious to look at my baby who kept crying incessantly from now on. I don't know what he wants either.

‘’Honey, diem yes, Son. Mama does not know what you want, already Mama love ASI but you still cry,’’ lirihku carrying it while standing carrying it down from the bed.

But still my baby can't keep quiet. Or because my mind is raging and drifting thinking of her papa?

‘’Monik, why does Rafi cry continuously?’’ a familiar voice to me was heard from out there.

‘’No idea, Bi. I already love ASI and carried too, but still cry,’’, I said that still carrying my baby.

The door creaked and opened.

‘’Ma’af Aunty directly in, Aunty worried with Rafi.’’ He rushed to me.

‘’Nnothing, Bi.’’

‘’Ulaala! Honey, diem yes Nak,’’.

‘’Udah given eucalyptus oil his stomach, Monik? Who knows he's in angina.’’

‘’Udah, Bi. I even gave it three times.’’

‘’Try here Fat aunty.’’ I gave my baby to my aunt.

Aunt instant wonder,’’Well, here she can be silent. Monik many mind times.’’ Auntie stared. In my heart I also confirmed the aunt's words.

I nodded,’’Iya, Bi,’’ I said briefly and lowered my head.

‘’The little boy knew what his mother felt, if his mother thought a lot she would cry,’’ he explained who was still holding my baby.

Aunty looks back at me,’’What's the matter, Monik? Andre did it again?’’

I nodded as soon as possible,’’He changed again, Bi. Often snapped at me and until now also have not come home even though the day has been so late, usually he always comes home quickly,’’, I said with a vibrating tone.

‘’Ya Allah, Mas Andre why is it like that. You guys had a fight?’’ Aunt nodded and asked back.

‘’Ndon't know, Bi. He was angry not clear, at first I just wanted to buy skincare. I don't think I'm going to believe it, I want to dare to ask to be bought because I see he's turned out well, Bi. But it turns out like this,’’ obviously I'm long at length. My chest felt very tight and my crying broke instantly.

‘’Astaghfirullah, Monik. You are patient yes, do’a always Mas Andre to be a good person again. Auntie feels what you feel. But can't be too thought out.’’ Aunt gave me a big smile.

‘’Look at Rafi, does Monik not pity her? If you continue to think things will have an impact on Rafi.’’ Aunt showed me my sleeping baby, then continued to look at me with a sad look.

‘’Iya. Aunt was right. Thank you very much yes, Bi.’’ I wipe my tears over and over violently. I exhaled slowly.

‘’Sama-sama, Monik. If so let Rafi put to sleep in Aunt's room, calm yourself first. Coincidentally Bibi has finished work.’’

Without thinking again I immediately nodded,’’Once again thank you very much, Bi.’’ I approached aunt and grabbed the back of her hand for reverence, the woman replied by stroking my back slowly.

‘’Monik must be strong, Aunty sure you are a strong woman.’’ Aunt gave me strength that was fragile. I feel a little relief in this heart hearing the word reinforcement from him.

‘’Ta—but, is it okay, Bi?’’

Aunty shook her head and smiled,‘’Neither, later if Bu Karni comes home so Auntie says.’’ Instantly I felt relief. Then nod.

‘’Ya already, Aunty take Rafi to the room first yes. Don't worry, Aunty take good care of my own Aunt.’’ Aunt smiled at me.

‘’You calm yourself first yes and do not forget always istighfar, remember Allah so that your heart is calm,’’ added aunty later. I returned with a nod. He stepped out of the room while carrying my baby. I nodded back in bed.

‘’A real aunt, maybe because my erratic thoughts make my baby fussy,’’ lirihku.

I got back up to the frenzeer and grabbed a glass of water. Gulp slowly. And put the empty glass back in its place. I stepped slowly towards the sofa and nodded there.

‘’How do I not think of trying, from morning Andre came out until now do not return home,’’ mumbled I wirih.

I saw a circular object on the wall showing at 17:00, usually Andre always comes home and meets me first no matter how busy he is, now? His illness again. I don't know what Andre's thinking. I put my body down for a moment on the sofa. Maybe my body needs to rest for a while, especially since this morning my baby is fussy. I slept too.

The sound of knocking on the door out there made me open my eyes which felt hard to open.

‘’Abibi, sign in. The door I did not lock,’’ I said with a typical sound of waking up and still lying on the sofa.

The door immediately creaked.

‘’Monik, how? Is his mind calm? This is Rafi I think thirsty deh,’’ said aunt approached me.

Slowly I sat down,’’Alhamdulillah already. Thanks a lot yes, Bi.’’

‘’Thank God, equally. Aunty is happy to play with Rafi,’’ said with a smile.

‘’Ya already, here, Bi.’’ I took my baby from the sling of the middle-aged woman.

‘’Kalo there is nothing, or Monik need help call Aunty aja yes. If lazy down, right Bibi's mobile number is the same as you, just press it directly connected deh,’’ he said chuckling. I'm nodding.

‘’Aibi go down first and don't mind much anymore huh, Monik. Poor Rafinya,’’ he added back who rose, I returned to reply with a nod. Aunty walked out of my room and closed the door. I looked at that little red face and I peeked at her forehead.

‘’Mama love Rafi,’’ lirihku.

I rushed to give ASI to him.

A few hours later, my baby fell asleep again. I just paced around and looked at the circular thing on the wall with every turn of the needle.

‘’Andre, where are you anyway? Why don't you go home, it's 20:00. At least you tell me if you're working late.’’ I was still pacing back and forth in the room room while continuing to look at the circular thing.

Yeah, at least Andre told me that he really had to work late at the office tonight, so I wouldn't worry about him like this. But did he really change back?

‘’Or lest she ever have an affair with that actress?’’ I went back to stern on the sofa. This time my mind was not calm. My anger is really in the crown. I want to let go of all this anger.

‘’I have to be calm, I don't want to impact my baby anymore. Poor him.’’ I reminded myself again. I exhale slowly so that a little relief and lost the feeling of anger in the chest.

‘’Oh yes, Mama where are you? There was no Mama all day, usually Mama always went to my room to play with my baby. Where'd Mama go? Tumben long ago.’’

Usually Mama always showed me her nose, always approached her granddaughter to my room.

‘’Or don't-do?’’ I hurried to reach for the flat object and dialed the aunt's contact number.

Rang

‘’Ease Aunty hasn't slept,’’ lirihku quietly.

‘’Assalamua’alaikum. Monik, haven't you slept yet?’’

‘’Wa’alaikumussalam, I have not been able to sleep aja, Bi.’’

‘’For sure you have a lot of thoughts yes. Can't do that, pity the baby.’’

‘’There are needs Aunty help?’’

‘’Oh, Bu Karni was gone this morning he said there was a need, Monik. Maybe already home this time, the clock is not home yet.’’

‘’There are needs?’’

‘’Iya, Monik. So said Mrs Karni, breakfast is not so busy hunting.’’

“’Ya Allah, Mama where are you? I was afraid that Mama would meet Papa, especially Papa, his behavior was so crazy,’’ I murmured with anxiety.

‘’Monk?’’

‘’Eh, Yes, Bi. No, I'm asking you to check Ms. Karni's whereabouts to her room. I'm really worried, Bi,’’.

‘’Siap, Monik. Aunty check first yes.’’

‘’Iya, Bi.’’ instantly aunty directly hangs up the phone. I put the flat thing back.

“May Mama be in her room and in good condition,’’ lirihku slowly and back in silence in bed waiting for the next news from aunt. I tried to shake off all the prejudices that haunted my mind.

Not long ago. The flat thing came back ringing. Kuraih and turned out to be aunty.

‘’Gimana, Bi?’’

‘’There is, Monik. Auntie knocked on the door, apparently not sleeping. Bu Karni just came home he said.’’

‘’Hah? Just home? Where's Mama from?’’ muttered.

‘’Ta—but, Bu Karni is fine, Bi?’’

‘’Alhamdulillah, he is in good condition. Aunty who saw for herself, Monik do not worry ya.’’

‘’Alhamdulillah, if so, Bi,’’ say I breathe a sigh of relief.

‘’Iya, Monik. Rest, you already know the situation of Miss Karni. Later Rafi woke up even you can not sleep anymore.’’

I just fell silent. Aunt's right. But now the fruit of thought by me is Andre, from this morning out until now never returned home. I was so worried about him.

‘’Monk?’’

‘’Mas Andre has come home right?’’

‘’That's what I've been thinking since, Bi.’’

‘’Ya Allah, may Mas Andre be fine and come home soon tonight. Do’akan Mas Andre yes, Monik. Do not think too much, later Rafi even fussy again.’’

‘’Aamiin. Yes, Bi. Thanks much. Aunt rest. Assalamua’alaikum.’’ I rushed to reconnect the phone.

Put that flat thing back. I stared at the circular object on the wall at 21:20. It turned out that just this afternoon I was bribing rice just like my stomach was rumbling. I feel lazy to put my feet down. Do you ask aunty for help, right? I rushed back to grab a flat object.

‘’Iya, Monik?’’

‘’Ya Allah, ma’af really yes, Bi. I'm bothering Aunt again.’’

‘’Nnothin', did Aunty already say if need anything immediately contact Aunty.’’

‘’Iya, Bi. My stomach is suddenly a laper. I'm asking you to please eat up yes, Bi.’’

‘’Siap, Monik. The menu was not exchanged? So you don't bosen.’’

For a moment I thought.

‘’Fried rice, Bi. Eggs are omelette but don't have to be too stuffy. And the juice is up to Aunty aja.’’

‘’OK, ready. Aunt bikini first yes, not long kok.’’

‘’OK, thanks, Bi.’’

I put the flat thing back. And I looked at the sleeping baby. His face looks a lot like Andre. Will my son lose his papa's affection? My son should be the same age as he needs the affection of both his parents. Kuelus his tiny head and looked at me.

‘’Mama will educate you well, even though Mama was not a good person,’’.

Moments later..

‘’Monik!"

‘’Iya, Bi. Direct entry only, the door has not been locked kok.’’ The door creaked and opened. Looks like my middle aunt brought a tray that I thought contained food for me.

‘’Nasi goreng a la Bibi already ready to eat nih.’’ Aunty laughed softly and put on the nightstand.

‘’Still a lot huh, Bi. I'd like to be bothered.’’

‘’Sama-sama, it is the duty of Aunty,’’ smile.

‘’Ya already, Aunty down first yes. Directly eat ya Monik, ntar if it's cold not good loh.’’ I'm nodding.

Aunty hurriedly stepped back and closed the door quietly. I got up and forced to eat fried rice, even though there was no taste. Yes, it's for my baby. If I don't eat one bit then the breast milk will be reduced, pity my baby. I forced him to bribe the fried rice and swallow it with water. A moment later, the fried rice was finally unceremonious toilet. I cleared for a moment. And back to bed. I looked at the thing that was coiling on that wall.

‘’AT 22.00? But until now my husband has not come home.’’

I'm worried about him, what's wrong with him calling me first. This is not, from this morning he came out of the house not a single message I received from him. Did he really change back? Why was her mouth so sweet, her words of seduction and gloating were spoken by her lips every time I was with her being an illegitimate lover. I'm really tired of all this. So many tests came to me.

‘’Ya Allah, I want to return to your path.’’

What if I just call you? I hurried to reach for the flat object and pressed Andre's contact number, but nil. The number is off. I really don't think, where exactly is he? I threw a flat object into the bed and ruffled my hair in frustration.

‘’Ndre, where are you really? Why not go home.’’

My eyes felt sleepy, but my mind drifted out of nowhere. How can I sleep like this? How can my eyes be closed under these circumstances? But I have to rest, my baby's still asleep, so it's a great opportunity for me to rest. Later he even woke up to make me no longer able to rest and surely I will stay up late to accompany my baby. Yeah, my body and my mind need rest, I don't want it to drop because I don't have time to rest. I had to force myself, hurry I lay my body on the bed and force my eyes to shut.

I woke up again. Kuraba's bed next to me.

‘’Ya Allah, my husband has not yet returned?’’

I opened my eyes to check her whereabouts. It turns out, there was only my baby who was sleeping. God, why hasn't he come home yet? What's wrong with her? Is he okay there? Or is he with another woman? I stared at the circular object on the wall. The shock made me aghast. My heart is getting worse. What's the matter? Why does my heart feel this way? What happened to my husband out there? O God, help me this many sinful servant of You.

‘’AT 00.08? Did I see wrong because I just woke up?’’ I gently rubbed my eyeballs and continued to look at the circular object, but still the clock did not change in the slightest.

‘’Why don't you go home, Ndre. Your son and I are waiting here. Please give me your news,’’ I said with a trembling voice, a circle of tears instantly dripping.

Seriate.

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