Instantaneous Sweetness

I'm Not The One I Used to Be

‘’Assalamua’laikum, Monik. Have you heard from Ms Karni? Andre accident and until now has not been conscious, he is now in the hospital Medina.’’

I gasped at the incoming message from my best friend. Rushing I brought the advanced object to sit down and decided to contact Ayu directly.

Rang..

‘’Assalamua’laikum, Monik.’'

‘’Wa’alaikumussalam, Yu. So Andre still hasn't realized until now? Yes Allah.’’

‘’Iya, Monik. I was shocked to hear the news. Though I caught sight of him before the accident happened, he was with the Nina on the road.’’

‘’I also saw Andre on the road when I brought the Dedek marathon.’’

‘’Trus she saw you also not?’’

I shook my head quickly,’’No, Yu.’’

‘’But you from where know this news?’’ my continue.

‘’Dion who told me. He was the one who witnessed when Andre was in the accident and he was also the one who took Andre to the hospital. As soon as he said it to me,’’ was clearly at length across there.

‘’But until now Andre has not been aware. The disappointment is so severe said Dion,’’ he continued that made me stunned.

‘’Ya Allah, Yu. I really want to go to the hospital to see how he is. In any case he is my son Papa,’’ I said softly.

‘’Ya Allah! Made from the grace of your heart, Monik.’’

‘’I'm just trying to accept all this, Yu. And I want to make peace with my past,’’ said me while smiling blandly, although Ayu did not see this smile of mine.

‘’MaashaaAllah, Monik. You're correct. It is time to make peace with the past. I'm sure you can get through all this.’’

‘’This is all because of your support and guidance, Yu. Thanks a lot yes, keep guiding and supporting me.’’

Instantly squealing my sophisticated objects is a sign of a lobat battery. I was just squeezing last night until now I haven't been washing up. Because the sophisticated object is not so important to me, only to see the study on youtube if my eyes are reluctant to be closed at night.

‘’Yu, already yes. Lobet battery. Assalamua’laikum.’’

I hurried to end the conversation without waiting for an answer from Ayu. I directly grabbed the cas located on the nightstand. I better get back to laying down. I let the sophisticated thing be stamped and stepped onto the bed to lay down the body.

***

‘’Nak, eat first gih.’’ It felt to me the soft touch of mama's hand along with her soft voice. Makes me squirm.

‘’Later aja, Ma.’’ My eyes are reluctant to open, wanting to continue napping. However, my stomach also felt rumbling.

‘’No can be so dong, Monik. You will be sick again. Pity the Dedek, especially you also fill right?’’ Mom's words can make me open my eyes.

‘’Iya, Ma.’’

‘’Ya already, wash your face there. After that, we just had lunch. Mumpung si Dedek still sleeping.’’ I struggled with a slow nod.

My woman hurried to step outside the room. I am still sitting and collecting my life. Three minutes later, I stepped into the bathroom

***

I stuck myself in the mirror. The waist-length hair that was still disheveled and my face that described my current thoughts. So messy. It seems better if I wear a veil at home. Especially papa's friends sometimes play here.

According to the study I heard on youtube, that Muslim women are required to stick her veil to the chest and should not show her aura to men who are not mahram. Although I am a great sinner and although I have very little religious knowledge, but at least I try to be better and at least I practice the knowledge that I already know.

I hurried to reach for the hair tie located in the closet, then tied it to my hair neatly. I took the veil given by Aunt Sisi a month ago. The hood is not short and can cover the chest. Yes, while I was staying at Sisi's aunt's house, he gave me a veil to wear at home. Because I was carrying only two veils. It was only to be used out of the house, a rectangular veil.

And he said, even though we have no negative intention to play outside, but the minds of others we do not know. So, let others be innocent because of us, better at home. I was amazed at him, his mind was always positive and did not want others to sin because of it. The veil never came off in the head, diligently doing mandatory worship and sunnah, and he was also good at sewing clothes. Aunty hand process never fails, it must produce clothes that are so beautiful to be seen by the eye.

‘’I'm not the one I was,’’ I'm clean after installing the veil. I just kept turning myself into the mirror.

But, do I deserve a hood like this at home? The great sinful woman. Instantly I remembered Ayu's words, making me shake slowly. Yes, this is my first step to getting better. Now I'm starting to feel confident about how I look like this. Brown long sleeves, wide pants in deep black, and equipped with a plain brown hood. Instantly the sound of my stomach was able to resuscitate daydreams. It was like swearing, because I had not filled it at all.

‘’Monk! Let's hunt down a meal first, son,’’ call mama in the next room.

‘’Iya, Ma.’’ I hurried out of the room to the dining room.

***

Mom's eyes immediately round at me. I smiled and sat down next to my mother, who had an empty chair.

‘’Ma? Something wrong with my appearance?’’ I asked while waving my hand at my mother, as she stared unblinkingly.

‘’Ah, not at all, Nak.’’

‘’You're different now. Add beautiful kayak to it,’’ mama lirih. I smiled and took a slow breath.

‘’Do’ me yes, Ma. So I can be better.’’

Mama seemed to nod,’’Mama will always do’akan you, son. Mama will always support you,’’ he said as he patted my arm slowly.

‘’Still a lot, Ma.’’ Mama replied with a nod and then smiled, making me more excited just to live life. Especially if my woman gives me a reassuring smile.

‘’Ya already, we have lunch first yes. Mumpung si Dedek still sleeping.’’

Mom's hand seemed to grab the plate and thrust at me. I just realized the dish at the table. Beautifully arranged rendang meat, tempeh, omelet and there are moringa vegetables. Makes me think of aunt and mama Karni who always prepare moringa vegetables for me.

‘’I'm so lucky to know you guys,’’ I muttered in my heart.

‘’Monik? Wh why? You do not like this moringa vegetable?’’ Mom knew what I was staring at. I shook my head quickly.

‘’It is not so, Ma. I like it anyway. Ta—tapi.’’

‘’I remember when I was at Mama Karni's house. Every day I always made moringa vegetables without me asking. The aunt who bikini made me,’’ said I was looking down and looking at the moringa vegetables arranged beautifully on the table.

‘’Ma’af Mama yes, Son. Mama can't take care of you during pregnancy.’’ Makes me gasp and shake quickly.

‘’We ate it directly yes, Ma. My stomach has been singing from earlier,’’ said I deliberately ended the conversation with my mother.

If you talk about the past will never end later and the wounds of my heart that have begun to dry will even get wet again. Mama nodded and a smile rose on her lips.

‘’I take rice for Mama yes.’’ I hurried to reach for the plate in front of my mom and sprinkle some rice, then filled it with meat rendang and tempeh.

‘’This, Ma. Want to add more sambalnya?’’ I thrust it to my mom. He chuckled for a moment.

‘’It's mah mostly, son. Later Mama even overweight.’’ Makes me laugh a little. As if there were no burdens I was carrying. I don't know why the woman I called my mom could make my days brighter and more colorful.

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