I'm Sorry to Throw You Out

Just Me And You

🌸Pov Zoya🌸

"Zo,,,"

Just a short call yet was able to make my heart beat even faster. Even louder than usual. Don't know why? Though the eyes of the owner of the voice that called me felt so shady as usual. I don't know why today feels different.

"Haloooo,,,"

Now I'm distracted with his hands back and forth in front of my eyes.

"What the hell?" grumbling.

"Your body is called instead of answered and daydreamed. What the hell by the way?? I'm already in sight, no need to daydream that time ah," Rodie said with a tone as usual.

"You know, can it not be a day, just not tempt me??" sukutku pura annoyed as usual as well.

"Cannot. Because all my life I'll never get tired of being like this as long as the woman is you."

Deg,, again my heart and heart feel not because of hearing it. And again those eyes,,, shone with sincerity.

Rodie Arieanta, the young man with a burning spirit I met a few years ago. Young business people who have successfully pioneered several companies engaged in the field of services. He I know from Brother Del who seems to introduce us intentionally.

He's kind, sweet, warm and persistent. That I admit. But it was not enough to make me free from the support of status as the wife of Rajesh mas. I still faithfully waited for the man with the title of my husband to come and finish everything and clarify our status.

But my wish never materialized until finally today I decided to move forward to finish everything. He is happy with Alyssa and their son. What else am I waiting for??

Back to Rodie,,,

Many times and it feels like every day, it could be three times a day even he said his love sentence to me. It was like taking a doctor's medicine. He's never tired. I never get bored, even if I don't give him any answers.

It occurred to me that he was just obsessed with me. Later if I do, then his feelings for me will change. There are many such men in this world. Gebu buggy when trying to get his woman, over acting, close sweet promises and so can,, out of his true nature.

But back again considering that Rodie was introduced by Del's brother, it made me throw away my prejudice against him. Do you know yourself, Del? Before introducing him to me, Rodie must have been strictly selected by him.

"That's daydreaming again."

"Eh," this time I can't dodge it anymore if I'm really thinking.

"No need to answer today. There is still tomorrow. Calm. Relaxed. This heart is still very strong and has a lot of time waiting for you." he said casually kayaking on the beach.

I really didn't think I was with him.

"The most important thing right now is you" he said again.

"Me?" eyes rounded.

"Yes, you. Find your happiness first. Finish everything that's still stuck in your heart." a sweet smile and warm attitude reappeared.

"Why?" my question is short even though it demands a lot of answers.

"Because only by finding your own happiness, then you can be happy for others. I'm always here waiting for you. Waiting until you're really ready to be my wife. Never fear that I turn my heart away no matter how long it takes you to find your happiness. I'll also stay with you and help you."

"Room,,,"

I can't say any more words. I don't know why today I feel so bad about him. To him who just and keep thinking about my happiness. To him who is willing to ignore his own happiness. What did I do that to her?? For Rajesh mas who apparently didn't think of me at all??

God, why do I feel like the dumbest woman this time? I wasted a lot of time and took a lot of happiness out of Rodie's life for a man who had even found his own happiness without me.

"Sorry." That's all these lips can say right now.

"What exactly is special about me?" lirihku while bowed.

I feel like there's nothing. Only weak women live in the past. A young woman who always closes her heart to any man. Then Rodie, a handsome man with a million charms could have with his finger pointed at which girl he wanted.

"All about you, special. Don't ask me to spell it out one by one. Enough you know that you were the first woman to come to my heart after my late mother. You,, your life story, are all able to remind me of mama and I don't want to lose it a second time." she said without the stench of lies at all.

That's how Rodie is, every day and still is.

"Are you signing it?" the question then and it was enough to make me understand what he was talking about.

I'm nodding.

"Are you sure?" ask again.

"Inshaallah."

I heard a sigh of relief from him. Even though those eyes still seem to doubt me. Rodie tried to smile.

"May the decision you make be your happy first step. Hopefully after this the look of love from these two eyeballs will only be on me." Rodie said it while staring at my bead of eyes.

"I swear I'm jealous of Zo, watching you look at her lovingly. These past few years I have never seen you look at any man with such a gaze. Even to me who every day expresses my deepest feelings to you. But yesterday, in front of him, I saw love in your eyes. To him. Just for her."

Rodie turned his face away. It seemed like he wanted to hide his sad face just to not make me sad.

"Rodie,, me,,,"

"No why. Don't feel burdened by my presence let alone my jealous feelings. Already,, don't discuss it again. I came here to see you happy, not to see you feel guilty for me. Come on, where's your smile??"

These lips though stiff but smiling as well. Rodie is the best at turning my feelings around. A little guilty, then suddenly become relieved.

"Wait a minute Rodie."

Rodie was stunned to hear me say that. His world stopped turning. He did not react for a moment as if he could not believe what he had just heard.

"Zo, take me to the ENT doctor" she asked, then made my forehead wrinkle.

"It seems my ears have followed. I'm so crazy about you, my ears must go crazy and be misheard." he said, making me unable to help laughing.

"What you just heard wasn't wrong. Absolutely not wrong." I said later.

"I dream, don't I, Zo?? Pinch me Zo, slap me let me wake up from this beautiful dream. You gave me Zo's answer?? It's dream!!! Dream!!!" Rodie was even confused to find a signal from me.

"It's surreal. Not dreams. I'm asking you to wait a little while. I don't want to be in a relationship with you before it's all gone. Therefore, be patient in a moment. After that, it was just me and you. Not himself anymore."

I stopped her hand that kept slapping her own face. And I saw those two eyes wet with tears.

"Thank you Zo."

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