I'm Sorry to Throw You Out

Deceiver

...🌸POV RODIE🌸...

"I accept the marriage and marriage of Zoya Allura Devansha bint Almarhum Dion with the dowry above paid in cash."

Rajesh's loud voice in one breath was felt to make this heart happy and torn. Especially when this whole room declares that this marriage is legal.

My smile auto expands along with the breakup of the cry in the heart. I smile for the happiness of the beloved woman in my life who has found her happiness, which has been restored by Rajesh, the man of her dreams all along.

But this heart cannot be told to lie. He still wept and lamented this fate. The cry I hid deep inside and only let God know.

Would it be wrong for me if this heart still loves? Blame this self if this heart remains unable to think of him as just a sister? This selfish heart?

We lived in the house almost a month. Me, Zoya and rajesh. Not to forget my personal doctor, Angie and her husband who certainly did not want to be far from his patients who could have stopped breathing at any time.

My situation is indeed much improved along with a heart that always feels relieved because it is always close to my beloved. I've had a significant increase. My weak legs can slowly move even though I am still unable to support my entire body. But it's been a rapid advance that I'm grateful for given how much Angie gave up on my condition.

But still, the more together I became, the more aware I was about to lose her. Zoya will soon be Rajesh's mistress and it's already happening. With total awareness even I was willing to be a witness of their marriage.

"Thank you for coming with me."

This head nodded as a smile that was always engraved throughout the event. Zoya looks so happy on her wedding day. That's why I don't want to ruin his mood by moping around.

"May this be your last port, Zo. No more separation except death. May soon be brought forth among you. It feels curious to see you fat because the baby in your stomach is enlarged. More curious to see little Zoya. What the hell is it like? Will he be as cute as his mother or as cute as his father?" I said while still unraveling the smile and sparkling happiness in my eyes.

This time I can admit, I'm an imposter.

I was able to deceive everyone with my sweet smile, with the twinkle of my eyes. I was able to convince everyone that I was sincerely happy for the bride and groom when in fact deep down this still holds the word envy even though I still realize that I will not be able to compete.

Forgive this dirty heart, Lord, I really did all this to make my girl no longer doubt. So that he is steady with the destiny of YOU. So that there is no longer an endless story or wait in his life. If I may ask, please take away the sin of my servant for deceiving many of the Lord.

"I know, it's not that easy. But I admit I lost strongly to you, bro." Rajesh patted my shoulder.

"Speak what the hell are you? Remember, this is your happy day. Don't screw. I'm fine and not what you think." I assured him I wasn't crying in my heart.

"Thank you."

Rajesh hugged me tightly as if knowing how much I needed strength to get through all this pain.

"Hey, I've been off me. Will we be considered a homo??" my kekeh tried to melt the atmosphere.

"It could still be funny" he said, releasing himself.

"What do I have to do? Crying?? Wh-wh-what for? You guys are happy, I'm happy. Not even funny if I cry on your happy day? Am I Karin's mom??" I turned this lip towards my former mother-in-law who I had seen before and continued to wipe her happy tears watching for herself that her beloved daughter had also gotten her happy.

"Hehehe,, that's what he said. I told mama Karin ya." threatened Rajesh while chuckling.

"Nor, no."

"Yes, I met the other guests first. It seems there's a lot I haven't seen." said Rajesh.

These eyes,, this chest, it's getting more and more claustrophobic trying to assert itself.

"You're strong." whispered Angie who then came to me.

"Must." I answered steadily.

"Tonight we also returned to Singapore first. There's follow-up action for you. You didn't forget, did you?" Angie reminded me of my therapy schedule.

I nodded immediately. I don't want to bother the newlyweds for a while anyway. They definitely need a more privacy situation right now and the next few days at least. And these disabled people, they don't want to mess up their honeymoon.

Angie is the best. He always knows and knows what is best for me. If this heart had not been blinded by love for Zoya, it might have been Angie I would have married hehehe,,,, that is,,,

"What??? To Singapore? Tonight as well??" Zoya seemed unhappy with the news that I delivered after the invited guests came home.

Their wedding event was not held with a large party according to the initial purpose, because they did not have much time to prepare for such an event. I know it was a lie. They were too busy taking care of me to ignore all their wedding needs.

"Yes Zo, the therapy schedule will be tomorrow morning. So I have to take her to Singapore tonight." Angie, as my personal doctor, I'm sending you to explain to Zoya.

"Then wait a minute. I'll pack up. We'll come along. Is it not mas?" now the gaze of those eyes turned to Rajesh who I was sure would not be able to not agree with the will of the queen of his heart.

"Don't Zo. This time, don't. I am not alone in going there. There's Angie and Daniel with me, too. This time please, be Rajesh's wife." I precede before Rajesh does.

"But,,,"

"Funny husband, especially on your wedding day, is the duty of the wife, Zo. I don't want you to be a bad wife to Rajesh. Especially just because of me." I didn't accept any rebuttal from him.

Zoya fell silent. He no longer refuted even though his face showed displeasure. It seems I managed to convince him not to go to Singapore with us.

"Good right there. Be patient. And thanks for understanding." Rajesh said it after he pushed my wheelchair to help me get into the taxi that would take us to the airport.

"That's sure. Don't fret. Don't think too much of me. Tonight, give her all happiness. He deserves his happiness after your long wait." I said in a hoarse voice.

"I'll do my best" replied Rajesh.

I smiled with envy.It was hard to let him give his crown to Rajesh. Imagining them going through the hallways of the night in a romantic setting made a wave of demons possess me. But I fight as much as I can.

Angie clasped my hand, pouring out positive energy for me. And I'm lucky to have him and Daniel sitting in the front seat with their little daughter who is more attached to her father.

At least in front of them, I don't need to go back to being an imposter. Now I can put out all my hidden cries. They'll understand.

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