I'm Sorry to Throw You Out

Doing It Consciously

...🌸POV RODIE🌸...

Either be thankful just for yourself or grieve for my best friend Angie, too. The end of this somehow this heart feels worried.

Three months had Daniel and Angie's daughter left us. Almost every day of the first month I saw only clouding and weeping sorrow adorned the face of my best friend, Angie. I don't blame him for being so bad at the time. It was only natural considering that fate had taken the two hearts of his heart.

But that sorrow has passed. Replacing with the time of rising from adversity. Angie woman strong. There was a time when he was crying but he quickly understood that he had to get up. And the laughter was re-created,, something feels different,, something else,, something, something feels very different in this heart.

Giving him this shoulder and arm every day for him makes this heart pound more and more strange. I don't know why I feel such a strong urge for myself.

I have to be strong and heal for her, she needs a companion and protector, and all I know is, she's just counting on me.

My doctor looked different in my eyes. Our closeness all this time made me realize that my best friend had a sweet smile with both dimples. He also always had a thousand ways to help me accept the truth about Zoya.

Hey,, it feels like I haven't even missed her in a month or been obsessed with her. Has this love faded for her? Or has his heart given him happiness with Rajesh? Or is there another charm that makes me start to break concentration??

"Hey, hey, just daydream!! Wagging me huh??" a soft pat on my shoulder felt and there was no need to look around as well I knew who the owner of the voice was.

"Indeed, loe is that pretty until it makes me dream??" I take Angie's true accusation.

"Beauty also me rather than the ono." his smile began to mischievously by insinuating me.

That ono is a new name for Zoya. I asked him not to mention the name of the man's wife. I'm afraid I can't turn away from him. I fear the devil in me is powerful and makes me act like one.

But it turns out, no longer mention his name makes this heart slowly able to accept everything. Since the accident that claimed the lives of Daniel and Angie's daughter, we both decided to stay in Singapore on the grounds that we could not be far from the tomb of both. Zoya initially objected, but she could not ask for or forbid much. Coupled with the limitations of Rajesh who can not leave his job in Indonesia. It makes the distance between us created and slowly erodes all flavors.

"Drink medicine. Don't get sick again. Remember, yes, you are all I have. I don't want to lose you either." said Angie again disperse my daydream.

"Yes. Don't bring. I am healthy soon too. Will be able to carry loe if you want." I grinned the horse.

Living alone with Angie, creates warmth in this heart. But the heart is getting more sensitive. Angie's words, which I used to only take as a joke, now I put my heart in. I often baper it. Like that one just now. He said he didn't want to lose me either. Is that a sign that Angie,,, has a heart for me, too??

"Rather than just carrying on the road or at home, all of you carry me to the penghulu. Loe marry me all, let me not keep widowing. I'm sure that you're married to me and Daniel and my son agree." he chanted again as he poured out some tablets of medicine that I should drink.

No, Angie is starting again!! Don't know what this heart is getting bigger??? hmmm,,, uh,,,

"Why bengong?? I'm not as pretty as an ono, am I??" tanyanya saw me just speechless.

"What the hell is Loe Angie?? Here's the cure." My face flushed.

"That's what cheek is a boiled crab?? It's so red." she said.

"Like the temptation I'm loe now huh!! What if I really like kegoda trus?? Do you want responsibility??" my daughter, when I was afraid to hear her answer.

"Eh, it's funny that we get married. I'm the same loe,,, the cement of the baby continuing to marry. How did I become ngakak first ya shadowinnya." Angie's laughter was released the next second.

Angie looked over with a probing look. Makes me quickly duck and take my medicine pretending as if there is no strange purpose and purpose in my sentence earlier.

"Couldn't God deliberately take Daniel so we can get married??" his murmuring softly made me auto cough.

"Ohuk,,,"

"Slow down napa." scolded her while giving a glass of water for me to gulp it out.

"Well, the end of loe makes me choking." murmur me though I'm happy if he starts to have such thoughts.

Angie was silent again with her serious face. He slowly got up and sat down next to me. His head is resting on my left shoulder. His hand was also wrapped around my left arm. Angie breathed a heavy sigh.

"Why??" askaku.

"Loe knows Rodie, from High School I have a crush on Loe. But it was Loenya who never responded to my feelings. You never take me seriously until finally I'm tired of chasing you and I give up. Now I think again,,, you're chasing after the ono, you end up losing him too. She was happy with her husband and their baby."

Angie paused for a moment. Makes me remember the good news about Zoya's pregnancy a month ago. I consider it good news because I'm really happy for him. There is no more jealousy in my heart.

"To me, same Daniel. Breaking up, getting pregnant out of wedlock, and finally getting married and raising our child. Death picked them up first. Leave me the same here. We are both equally stranded by fate and destiny. Then if all our partners are happy in their respective places, do we who are left not deserve to be happy too??" Angie raised her head to look at me.

"Mm,, mom, you mean??" suddenly I was nervous to be stared at by him this close.

Both eyeballs are so beautiful apparently when viewed well. That face is beautiful too. I wonder why I have been so blind all this time. Angie used to confess her love to me a long time ago but I always didn't respond because I just always made her a best friend. But this time,,, why is this heart jumping??

Angie brought her face closer. Makes me nervous but not trying to get away. We were getting so close that I could feel his breathing. Without us being able to avoid it or stop it,, the next second I felt was just the warmth and tenderness of Angie's lips.

We did it for a long time and enjoyed each other. We used our hearts and feelings at that time. Cuddling and hugging each other. Spilling all the flavors. Until we both felt the oxygen in our lungs was depleted and we stopped it.

"We're married yuk." take Angie after we've defused the debate long enough.

"Loe sure??" my many.

Angie no longer answered but she again repeated the scene we just finished. If it all just happened, this time we did it consciously.

My lovely friend, I didn't think your lips were so sweet and warm.

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...With love,...

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