I Am No King's
Chapter 228 – News of Grief
Huh huh?
I'mawakened. It seemed that the effects of the dope and sleeping pills Yuan had given him had already been exhausted. I was lucky because my body was no longer in pain. However, for some reason, my chest felt so tight.
I looked around the room. There is no one in this place, I am alone. On the right, the table between the sofas is served plenty of food and drinks. I think they're worried I'll starve when I wake up like before. And, yes, I am really hungry. My stomach feels empty, rumbling.
However, despite an empty stomach and rumbling, it even went off, somehow I had no appetite at all.
I got up and headed for the bathroom. Perhaps, after wiping my face with water, I could be fresher and arouse my appetite.
Eh? Why is my cheek moist? Not only was it damp, my eyes looked so red. Though, supposedly, I wasn't the type with total red eyes upon waking up. Besides being red, I also noticed that both eyes were swollen. What's the matter?
"Gin?"
Inanna's voice sounded from the room. I came out of the bathroom to see him.
"What's wrong?"
Inanna was a little snapped even a step back when she saw me. Why is he so surprised? In fact, he didn't even look into my eyes. Inanna turned to the left.
Other than Inanna, I felt the existence of this person outside of this room. However, since only Inanna entered, I will ignore them.
"What's wrong?"
"Ah, um, you must be hungry, right? How about you eat first?"
"Yes, I'm hungry. But.entahlah. I don't have appetite."
"No appetite...? B-but, you have to keep eating. Your father said you had to eat to recover all the depleted stamina. I'm keeping up. Eat huh?"
"Well if you force it,"
I followed and started eating. As she said, Inanna accompanied the meal. However, despite eating together, our eyes never met. Despite meeting, Inanna would instantly turn her eyes away.
After a while, we finished eating.
"Inanna, are you still worried about your appearance?"
"Eh? Why do you think that?"
"You keep avoiding my gaze?
"Ah.hahaha, that's yes. But, not really. I'm not worried about my appearance. Well, actually still a little worried. But I'm trying to push it. And again, I can do facial surgery to remove this scar. So, I guess, I don't have to worry too much."
This woman, supposedly, is far more skilled at lying than the Emir. However, Inanna who kept avoiding my gaze gave an indication she did not want to lie. Then, it was not usual for him to give a long answer to a question that was not related to science or research like just now.
"Is there anything you want to say?"
"That's...."
"Bad news?"
"...."
Inanna. He gave no answer, only lowered his head.
"If you are unable to convey it, it might be better if I ask–"
"No!" Inanna. "Let me say it."
Inanna breathed and straightened her body. Finally, he looked me deeply into my eyes, not dodging anymore.
"Gin, I want you to be patient and steadfast in accepting this news."
I was silent, waiting for the bad news to be delivered by Inanna.
"Gin, Mari was killed last night."
"....Ah, briefly. Did I hear wrong? A moment! Maybe my ears aren't fully functional yet because I just woke up. Just sec....."
I put my finger in my ear and hit him a few times slowly, making sure everything was going normally.
"Well, can you please repeat?"
Inanna took a deep breath, "Gin, Mari was killed last night."
Ah, it seems my ears are still wrong. Well, my ears must still be–
"Gin?"
The whole energy left the body. To keep this body sitting, it feels so heavy and difficult. My body feels so weak
"Come..killed? No. I..no..."
I could only look down, staring at the floor. It seems my body is aware of it. Yeah, right, my body realized it. In fact, maybe, my feelings already know this. So, those puffy eyes and moist cheeks were because I cried while sleeping. This tight feeling in the chest also justifies it.
So, despite my logic of wanting to reject Inanna's remark, unfortunately, this body and this feeling already knew it.
"Sorry, Gin, sorry. But, you have to accept it. Let's.. it's gone."
I can't believe it. I don't really want to believe it. However, I could see Inanna's entire body trembling. Yep. She's shaking....or not? After a while, I realized it was my body that was shaking, giving off the illusion as if Inanna's body was trembling.
Nah! I have to hold him. I can't cry in front of the Agade members. I can't cry in front of the Agade Members. Can't cry.
No. gabe...
No. gabe...
"Gin!"
Without me noticing, Inanna was already sitting next door. He immediately pulled my head and buried it in his chest.
"Cry, Gin. No one will see. No one will blame you."
"But..but...."
"Before becoming a member of the Agade, I was your future wife. I have both the right and the obligation to carry your burdens and sorrows at a time like this. Cry, Gin. Cry."
At that moment, all my moments with Mari flashed. When he first met, he still bears the name Hanna. Mari is a child who seems indifferent. However, in truth, only his face was thin. Mari has a lot of interest. He's just not good at showing it. He restrained himself more often.
After being sold by Bana'an, I found Mari in a black market organization training camp. I still remember her slow, hoarse and almost finished voice, calling out to me. In fact, after that, even though I gave her a way to live a new life, Mari refused. He prefers to train under me, helping me find other children.
Although I think I've been hard enough on Mari, Mulisu and the others say I'm softer and softer when dealing with Mari. According to them, I'm just a little privileged Mari. However, since it was only a little, they did not bother about it.
With Mari, I proceeded to search for information and whereabouts regarding the other orphanage children.
After slaughtering the Cleinhad family and realizing the black market road was deadlocked, I lost my way. Back then, I left Agade, looking for the undiscovered children through a more open path, the path of nobles. When I came back, I thought a little Mari would be angry or even hate me. However, unexpectedly, he accepted me with open arms, even becoming more clingy.
"Come.... Lets....Uwaah........."
It's hard to believe Mari's dead. I don't want to believe. I want to spoil you more. However, what power, destiny says otherwise. I can no longer see the smile behind your face. Yeah, I'll never see her again.
I grabbed Inanna tightly, seeking calmness and warmth from her body, hoping that her embrace could calm me down even if just a little.
"Come..why...why....."
I cried and cried nonstop. As far as I can remember, this was the first time I cried so hard. All this time, despite shedding tears, I never cried so loudly like this.
I kept crying and kept crying. Unbeknownst to me, I've fallen asleep in Inanna's arms.
Seriate
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