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So busy chasing dreams and restoring health, Alifa forgot to share time with Alim after quarrels made by men with sharp noses with brown eyes like the color of his skin. Until many say that Alifa and Alim are like coffee and milk. However, love is not about skin color, but about safety and comfort at heart.

Alim had no longer studied at the same campus as Alifa since the fourth semester because of economic problems. Alim is a smart child, but the economic situation and various conflicts in his life— makes him have to lose golden times in pursuing dreams. Already got a scholarship at STAN, but his mother did not want his eldest son to study outside Lampung. This is also due to the divorce of both Alim's parents and his mother had failed to marry twice. From his mother and father, Alim was only an only child. That's why, when Alifa heard the story of the second man who managed to melt his heart, making Alifa want to together treat each other's wounds by way of establishing a relationship more than just friends. However, the more lived, the nature of Alim really makes Alifa tired. He is saturated with repeated quarrels, it-it continues to be discussed.

One afternoon, after days of pondering her worries, Alifa could no longer hold back her feelings. He wanted to talk to Alim about his anxiety over their deteriorating relationship. All that is desired is a more positive change and mutual understanding in their relationship.

Alifa slowly approached Alim who was sitting in a cafe; they had already made a pact to meet. Alifa tried to smile and show her kindness to start the conversation well. After sitting near Alim, he gently started the conversation.

"Alim, there's something I want to tell you. I've been worried about our relationship lately" said Alifa, trying to stay calm.

Alim looked over with a somewhat astonished look. "Kok suddenly talk like this?" he said in a slightly cold voice.

"I feel we need to talk about the problems that arise between us. I want us to be more supportive and understanding of each other" said Alifa in hopes that Alim would listen and understand.

However, instead of responding with empathy or love, Alim responded defensively. "I don't know what you're talking about. Everything's fine. Don't look around for problems where there aren't," he replied in a cynical tone.

Alifa felt her heart saddened to hear Alim's cold reaction. He tried to explain further, "I just want us to be able to talk to each other about our feelings. I feel like sometimes we can't really understand each other."

Alim continued to refuse to listen to what Alifa said. Instead, he began to blame Alifa for his dissatisfaction, "Your problem is that you are too sensitive and irritable. I'm tired of always having to deal with your unstable emotions."

Alifa felt increasingly hurt hearing Alim's words. He had tried to kindly convey his feelings, but Alim even replied with an attack. His feelings of disappointment deepened as Alim seemed unwilling to admit to any problems or attempt to repair their relationship.

"Maybe I'm sensitive, but I believe that we can try to better understand each other. It's part of a healthy relationship" Alifa said willingly to improve the situation.

Alim shook his head, "I don't feel like there's anything to fix. You have to change and stop looking for faults in me."

When Alifa realized that Alim was not in the mood to hear or try to understand her, her heart broke. He had tried kindly to open the lines of communication and improve the relationship, but Alim closed the door and blamed Alifa.

"When all this time who likes to look for mistakes is him, but not his name Alim if you never reverse the facts. He even indirectly, often accused me of cheating. Though who has been caught cheating, chatting and walking with other girls is himself! However, I don't know what my heart is made of, so always forgive it." Alifa. Wanted to cry, but was dammed. Trying to stay strong, even though his eyes are already glazed.

Silently, Alifa pondered this situation. He realized that to have a healthy and happy relationship, two-way communication and understanding from both parties is very important. Though it feels difficult, Alifa knows that she must decide whether to stay in an unhealthy relationship or find a better solution for herself.

Eventually, they returned home with unfinished problems. So it continues to be lived. However, Alifa was already used to facing problems by involving God, so even though her heart was hurting, she could still stand up straight until this far and continue to pursue her dreams.

He also remained focused on learning, because for him, education is more important than having to waste time thinking about relationships that will not necessarily eventually lead to marriage. Especially with Alim's attitude that really makes Alifa saturated, this becomes the fundamental reason for her to think again, whether Alim deserves to be her husband or not.

Alifa also decided to discuss the issue of his heart's restlessness with Allah, because He is the best confiding friend.

After discussing with Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala in a third of the night, Alifa became increasingly convinced that she had to make a difficult decision. Alifa realized that she needed to take care of her own health and happiness, even if she had to end her relationship with Alim.

With a heavy heart, Alifa decided to end the relationship with Alim. Although it was difficult, he felt that it was the right decision for himself. Alifa wanted to find someone who truly loved and appreciated her without having to feel constrained or doubt herself.

After parting ways, Alifa gives herself time to heal herself and evaluate what she wants in a healthy relationship. Although the breakup was painful, but he decided to focus and find happiness in his own life.

A few months later, Alifa found peace and happiness in her. He learns to accept himself completely and no longer doubts his worth. Real love is about supporting each other, respecting, and growing together.

In the course of her life, Alifa meets someone who truly values her and gives her true love. They build healthy relationships based on mutual understanding, open communication, and the freedom to be yourself.

Alifa learned from her bad experience with Alim and used it as a learning to choose a better relationship in the future. He is grateful to have had the courage to end an unhealthy relationship and can now move forward with confidence towards a better future.

Finding happiness in a relationship is not always easy. Sometimes, we have to get past the hurdles and take difficult decisions to take care of our emotional and mental health. More than that, we can show that it is important to have confidence in ourselves and self-values, so we do not need to doubt whether someone deserves to be a part of our lives or not.

We should not be afraid to introspect ourselves and speak honestly with God about our feelings and anxieties. Conversations with Him can give us strength and guidance in dealing with life's problems.

Do not let the problem of love hinder us in pursuing dreams. We just need to get away from unhealthy relationships, because there is still someone out there who deserves to be loved and appreciated to the fullest. By staying confident in yourself and choosing a healthy relationship, you can find true and happy love with the right partner.

May the story of Alifa be an inspiration for many people to face the problems of living with resilience, believing in themselves, and choosing relationships that bring happiness and peace in life.

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