Dusk And Suffering

93. Distrusting

"Leo is too much, but I can tell you my story. I was born from rape, of course my presence is not wanted by anyone, including Mother. Mom tried to get rid of me, but God wanted me to live. Then I was born, I didn't get the affection of the person who was supposed to love me from my unborn. I don't hate him, I take his love my way. I did that for twenty-one years. At the age of twenty, I was forced to lend my womb to someone. No one wants to be in a position like that, right? I was forced in his way. If I continue to resist, I will lose the people I love. I wasn't a bear, so I couldn't do anything. At last, I met the father I had been looking for. The figure of a man who destroys the future of Mother and makes Mother had depression. I don't hate him, I'm just disappointed why he never came into our lives. Once I know the reason, I'm honored to forgive him." Dusk paused for a moment to look at the Coral's expression. The young man's face looked very attentive to his story.

"Finally with his help, I was able to take away my son who should have been taken care of by the man who had robbed me of my happiness. For twenty-one years, Coral. During that time I struggled to get affection from a mother that I should not have sought. I should have gotten it without asking. I thirst for affection from my little one. But that doesn't make me believe in love."

"Bak Dusk why don't you hate Mom?"

"He's my mother, how can I hate him. Whether it be accepted or not, wanted or not, she sacrificed her life to give birth to me. I loved her. That's why I'm trying to get affection from him in any way. Now I ask first, why do you not believe in the same love of someone? You can't have never seen it, you just don't realize it's love."

"Yes for me love doesn't exist, Ma'am."

Flowing the Coral story. When he was a child, he sat with him. I don't know, Dusk seems to have managed to make himself comfortable because Karang did not hesitate to tell his life story. Even Karang also said he hated his stepbrother.

The Heart of Dusk was sliced when he heard the story of hatred that was indirectly actually thrown for him. Though previously he had heard the word of hatred from the mouth of Clara and Akmal, but somehow if he heard the Korang speech directly, his heart was very hurt.

Dusk does not blame the coral or anyone. Everyone will be different in responding to anything. It is not easy being a coral. I have parents but feel alone. However, the way to express the disappointment he received in the wrong way will make the situation even more complicated.

"If you switch positions with your brother, what will you do? He was born to be the son of your father nor was he the one who asked. Nor did he ask to be born without a father figure."

"But I'm sure his life wasn't as bad as mine. It wasn't her asking, but her presence in our lives really made me feel unnecessary. Papa focused too much on the firstborn, but the other son he ignored."

"Where do you know her life better? Papa you ever tell me about your brother's life?"

"Did you know? It could be that you and your mom are also painful things for her."

"Can't you?"

"He lost his rights as a child because he preferred you. Corals, not everything must go according to our wishes. We cannot force something to be what we want. I'm sure your papa's not easy. He would want everything to be peaceful, his children, his wife. They've been separated for decades, it's not fair if you demand that your father forget his past. Learn to be at peace with the past. Because that's all you need now. I am one of those people who enjoy the fruits of peace and sincerity with my past. And look at me now, people won't believe that I told my past that I had to bleed just to get someone's love."

Silent coral. Peace with the past? Of course it's not an easy thing. The glances of the past turned back in his head. Where almost every day he heard a fight from his parents about Akmal who was caught having children from other women. Even worse, Akmal was once injured for the sake of his eldest son. One thing Karang never got from Akmal. Let alone Akmal sacrificing himself, sacrificing his time he never.

"You happy with who you are now? Being a bad boy, taking the motorcycle genk, I still remember our first meeting. It may be normal for you, but it hurts others. Are you happy with your life now?"

"If you say happy, no. But it's freer."

"Do you like freedom? Then free yourself from the shackles of hatred. Now imagine that you can be at peace with the past. You can meet your brother, can accept his presence, back to the Coral that I know for sure Coral which is now not the original character of you. Try only shadows. You have now felt the change from Papa, right? Have you felt his affection? Imagine you also get the same affection from one more person. Namely your brother, is life like that you do not want? If your mom can do it, why can't you?"

"Where do you know that you are at peace with your past? I didn't mention that."

"And you said, lately they have never made a fuss about your brother. Especially if it is not peaceful? Ask your mom."

Mangosteen coral. It looks beautiful if what is said by Dusk can become reality. But apparently the shethan who still have the same task as already-have made Karang think twice to do what Dusk uttered. Wasn't it not necessarily her brother who wanted to be at peace with her? Not necessarily also his brother was willing to love himself as Dusk said.