Dusk And Suffering

1. Early Destruction

"Alley! Here you are, man!" Manda shouted to the child.

The ten-year-old boy came in a hurry. His face was pale and a great sweat drenched his forehead.

"Can you be holy, right? Clothes are still dirty like this, wash them thoroughly! Do not rest if the work is not done. You are not free, yes!" jak Manda is rude.

"It's late afternoon, ma'am. Let me wash it tomorrow, I promise I'll wash it clean." Dusk said with a welt and pleaded.

Manda doesn't like to hear rejection from her son, that's. Without a second thought, Manda groped Dusk violently. He paid no heed to the whimpering of the poor boy he had born ten years ago.

"Tonight you sleep here." Manda picked up the key hanging on the bathroom door. With no feeling he locked Dusk from the outside and left him just like that.

It has become common for Dusk to get this treatment from his own biological mother. Being punched, locked in a bathroom or barn, on a flush, in a kick and other rough treatment is a staple for Dusk.

It is not usual that Dusk is strong, he always cries in the silence of the night. The question in his head never got an answer.

"Mom, why do you always torture me with punches and kicks? Why didn't you ever love me, Grandma? Why do you always tell me that because of me, your future is broken and ruined? What did I do? Where are you going, Grandma? I've always had illegitimate children with our schoolmates and neighbors. Am I a bastard, Grandma?" I don't know how Dusk asked his grandmother that question.

"Senja is not an illegitimate child, Dusk has a father. Later if you grow up, Grandma will tell everything. For now you won't understand, son. Sorry, Mother. He was actually good, only he was often angry. What matters is that Grandma and Pakde love you. Dusk can't think nothing, yeah. Just focus on the same school, let Dusk be a successful person later."

Ambiguous. It's always the ambiguous answer that Ms. Patmi makes. Always divert the conversation when Dusk asks about his mother. Same with Aldi, Patmi's eldest son. As if compact with his mother, he always shifted the topic if Dusk asked about his mother.

"Mother, Grandma, Pakde here is cold, please don't lock me up here. Grandma, sirde please open the door I'm cold" said Dusk limp.

How not? At this time the little boy was feverish, since after school has been told to do homework by his own mother, Manda.

Yes, the thirty-year-old woman hated her child so much. There is no pity or affection that he pours on the child. There was only hatred and anger every time Manda met the little boy.

Ten years ago. An unfortunate incident happened to Manda. Where he had to experience events that made him traumatized and blasphemed by the surrounding residents.

Manda who came home late because he had to do his college work had to lose his crown at a young age. He was raped by someone he didn't know.

"Please don't! Don't let me go!" pinta Manda with a squeeze and a sob.

Manda could do nothing, his legs and hands were tied by the young man. Let alone to fight or give a blow, to move his body only he had difficulty.

"I'm sorry Manda, I have to do it. I had no other choice" said the young man.

"I don't know you, please let me go. Why would you want to do this? Why should I? Unhand me!" Manda still thrashed want to be released.

"I am a man who admires you in silence. I don't want you to belong to anyone, so I have to do this to get you. Calm down, I'll take responsibility if you happen to anything."

I don't know who the young man who claimed that he admired the Manda was. Manda did not know him, but so had the heart to make the future of Manda messy.

The young man rushed away as soon as Manda was unconscious. He gave a kiss on the girl's face, then hurried to leave her. He left Manda along with a book of novels with a blue cover of the sky. When dusk greets you, that's what it says on the cover of the book.

"Please keep this book well. This is the book I wrote for you, there is only one on this earth. Make it a provision to find me later. I have to go away for a long time. I'll be back once we're all grown up, I promise I'll be back for you Manda. I promise I'll marry you later." Once again the young man landed a kiss on Manda's forehead and then really left.

From that moment on, Manda's life and future are ruined. She nearly committed suicide when she found out she was pregnant with a child from a young man she didn't even know.

Fortunately Manda has a Mother and Sister who are always behind her to support her. While everyone is blasphemous, insulting, excommunicating Manda, her Mother and Sister are always there and embrace Manda tightly.

"Who did this, Manda? Tell me who's the guy?" urged Aldi as Manda's biological brother. The only brother he had.

"I don't know, Brother. I don't know who he is. He just left this." Manda thrust out a novel he found beside his head.

Armed with the home address in the book of the novel, the three of them went to the home address of the book owner. They were lashing the torrential rainstorm. The torrential rain that maliciously attacked their bodies mercilessly.

However, it seems that the universe is no longer on their side. The owner sold the house to someone else and they moved abroad. Devastated and extinct were their hopes to ask for responsibility from the young man.

Manda's life no longer has passion, his days are decorated with anger and anger at the young man. He vents everything to the child in his womb. Various ways he did so that the child in the womb shed, but whatever he did just make him tired without any results. The fetus in the womb is too strong to be eliminated.

Until finally born Dusk Kumala. The beautiful name is of course not Manda who gives, but the Mother, Bu Patmi. He took the name Dusk from the title of the novel that the young man left behind, while Kumala named one of the characters in the book.

However, the life of Dusk is not as beautiful as its name. Manda doesn't want to touch the baby at all, let alone touch, just look at him won't. Many times Manda tried to throw away and eliminate his son, but his efforts always failed. The Universe wants Dusk Kumala to live in the world.

"Please, Mom, please get me out. I'm so cold, I beg you." cried twilight which was getting weaker. He sat behind a locked door. He bent his knees and hugged her tightly. He was cold in the bathroom with a fever.

Not long after, there was a scream from Patmi's mother. The old woman was looking for the existence of Dusk but there was no truth.

"Mom, I'm in the bathroom, Grandma. Help me in the keys from the outside." Dusk banged on the bathroom door with the remaining energy.

"Astaghfirullah, Dusk. How can you be in there, son? Which key?" Patmi tried to open the door but it did not open.

"The key was taken by Mom, Grandma."

"But your mother's not home, son. Momentarily call Pakde first, yes."

Bu Patmi immediately ran to the house of his eldest son who was only separated by the road only. In a hurry the old woman told her son to break down the bathroom door.

"Senja, away from the door!" tell Aldi to get ready to break down the door.

With all his strength, it only took twice to kick the door open.

"Silkahoo!" patmi's mom is hysterical.