Dusk And Suffering

41. Hugs For Dusk

"Continue watching! I don't want to lose track of Dusk."

Akmal did nothing, it doesn't mean he let his son go. Taking off Dusk with that savage man, he never really wanted to.

He had wanted to report this to the authorities, but as if he understood Akmal's intentions, Leo acted with almost harming the Coral. The same goes for Aldi. His eldest son was also almost wretched because he was still trying to find the existence of Dusk.

"Now, you've done enough in the past year, yeah. Papa sent you not for this. If you're disappointed, Papa, you shouldn't be venting on your school, this has nothing to do with it."

"It was a year ago, why do you keep going, Pa?" Clara's protest was upset.

Yes, one year ago Karang who was caught skipping school for weeks made his parents called to school and forced Karang not to go to class because of his actions. Of course, it makes Akmal rampage. The man was angry to give a few punches on the boy's body.

"Hit me, Pa. beat me until I'm satisfied. I never wanted you guys to hate you. You guys never cared about me since you were kids, so Mama cared about me. I know Papa has another daughter. Papa says this has nothing to do with my school? Papa knows because of the famous news Papa I was so blasphemed one class, I became insulted, I became mocked with other children, other children, even those who know me also ridicule me. They said I had a bad Papa. Everyone's talking about papa, I'm Papa's son obviously it's influential in my life."

That's a long sentence that Karang said as a form of protest his father's disgrace in the past.

Akmal who is aware of his mistake and his thirst has tried to apologize to Karang repeatedly and every day he always apologizes. But the boy's heart was dead. At just four years old, he was cold to everyone, even his parents. No more smiles on the lips. There was only a form of protection to his parents that he showed in silence.

"I leave first, I don't need to be picked up I can be alone. No need to worry or fear that I'm truant again, I will not skip, I will accept the ravings and insults of everyone. I know I'm a shame because I didn't go to class because I did it myself, I'll take responsibility for that. This is my difference with Papa. We're both stubborn, we're both emotional, but I have one trait that Papa doesn't have that's responsibility."

Akmal could only sigh deeply. His life is so complicated now. Unstable economy, his daughter who is still in the hands of bad men, and Now Coral hates him. He no longer even knew the reason he was living in this world. Everything seems so evil to him.

***

Mystic fate is now drawing Manda. A few months ago he was diagnosed with kidney failure and had to do dialysis once a week twice. The money from Leo was used up to finance the dialysis that he recently did.

There's been something different about Manda since he got sick. He often saw Dusk in his dreams. He often saw Dusk whether it was laughing, smiling, sad but Dusk could not see himself who was nearby.

In silence Manda looked at the photo he had never seen. Photo given by Little Twilight a few years ago. He did not want to keep it but Dusk forced him to keep the photo in his mother's drawer. This is the first time he has seen this photo.

Behind the photo is a folded piece of paper. The writing looks a little bad but can still be read.

I love mom. On my birthday, I can only give this. Maybe someday I'll give a big gift to Mom, this is a photo of my time at school for my diploma when I graduate school in a few months. I have a lot, Mom, I keep one. Don't be lost let Mom have memories of my childhood, even though Mom doesn't love me now but I'm sure one day you'll love me. Happy birthday, Mum."

Manda didn't know why he had read the letter for so long. To live word for word the little boy who hurt his heart. Suddenly, Manda's eyes fell out. He did not know what the cause was, whether the words were so heartbreaking or Manda was lamenting the fate of living alone.

When he was sick like this, he realized that he needed a friend. His only life partner has left him for good. He still had one friend but he sold him to the rich.

Manda is so lonely. At home alone , wash your own blood, do nothing yourself, take care of your own pain, really live the prey of Manda.

"Why are you crying?" ask Aldi who just came. He saw Dusk on the terrace daydreaming.

"It's okay I just feel alone."

"That's a letter? where is the writing so ugly." Aldi snatched the paper that was in the lap of the manda.

Aldi read the row of letters and he realized that the writing was small twilight handwriting.

"Because of this you're crying?"

"I don't know. I just feel like my life is alone now. I don't know if I was alone before, but I just feel the sadness now. There used to be a Twilight saying birthday every date I was born. When everyone forgets my birthday, Dusk is the only person on earth to wish you a happy birthday. But I never thought it existed." Manda.

"You're sorry?"

"I didn't know I was still in peace with myself. I hated myself from decades ago, but when I was given pain I felt sad, I didn't want to be sick. Death was the thing I wanted the most in the past but now I'm so afraid of it. I myself do not understand what I want, I am confused with myself, Brother."

"It seems like you're starting to realize your mistake. If you could go back in time what would you fix?"

"I faced reality twenty-one years ago."

"Why?"

"Let's not hate me, Mother left in a state that is still angry with me, Brother. I didn't grant her wish."

"What do you want?"

"Gulfing the twilight."