Dusk And Suffering

75. Should Someone Be Injured?

Seeing the teary eyes of Dusk made the human spirit of Clara slightly touched. Had he known that Karang and Clara themselves had been with Akmal's body only, his heart would have been left behind in his past.

The grip on Clara's hand was getting tighter, the distance between a couple felt closer.

"I know you're not this bad, are you, Cla? I know you have a good heart that won't have the heart to separate a father and a son. What Dusk says is true, we are family. It shouldn't be like this."

"But you've reneged on your own promise, why haven't you been honest with me from the start? Why would there be another lie? You can now speak well with me, why didn't you do it from the beginning? Why do you find it so hard to be honest with me? You cheated me twice."

"No, I didn't mean to make a cheat, Ma. I've been hiding this all this time to take care of your heart. I also feel that you are not ready to know the truth, however happy you are, when I think of Dusk, you always change your mood. You see Dusk too dong, Ma. She was born without me, not accepted by her mother, so mature she was forcefully married to Leo. Mama knows that, right? In the twilight position is not easy, Ma. And now, when me and Dusk were together, he didn't ask me for anything either. He only asked for one hour of my twenty-four hours. You are a girl, your feelings should be more able to feel what if you are in her position. Let everything go how it should."

"I'm cape, Pa. We are both old, from the beginning of our marriage we always fight, rarely get along, until our children are victims. I want my old age to be peaceful, no more problems, burdens, I have suffered enough, heartache continues after marrying you. Dusk does ask you for only one hour, but your heart belongs to him, me and Karang only have your body. We were together before, but I was only with your body. Your heart is somehow floating where. You never loved me with your heart. Then when I need to be loved by someone do I have to sacrifice my feelings too?"

Akmal lowered his head. He advises Manda not to drown in the past, but he does it himself. Drowning in a pit of regret and unable to get out so he sacrificed his own family.

From the chat that Dusk heard, he only realized that his father was also immersed in the past, just like his mother before him. They also sacrificed their closest ones. Manda sacrificed his son and Akmal sacrificed his wife's child.

Dusk let out a deep sigh, all the people closest to him were equally caught up in the past. Innocent people are victims because of them. Now Dusk is in the wrong position. Wanted to keep his wish, but he realized that it hurt his father's wife. However, if he thinks about other people's feelings, his own feelings are hurt somehow for how many times.

"Dad for a while leave it like this first. I'm fine if this is my last meeting with Dad. Let this Father's wife think calmly and with a peaceful heart don't force her now. I will not force my will on anyone else. I don't want that because of my desire many people will get hurt later."

"Where can it be, you and Dad's family this is not an option. Just like mom and dad, you can't choose any of us. Life is a choice, but there are some things you can't choose. Life does not always go our way.  Everything already exists that regulates we only carry out roles. Anyway, until when will we continue to fight like this. We are human beings, social beings, we cannot live alone, we need a family."

It is complicated, everything that happens in the life of Dusk is like a tangled thread that will never decompose. Like a thread that has been rolled original, the more forced to decompose it will be more runyam.

"Auntie, excuse me, yes. Sorry if it's because of me, Aunt's husband is a aunt's nip again. But one thing you need to know, as the son of aunty's husband, I will consider aunty as my own mother. We do not know each other, but I am sure someday our relationship will also be as close as Mother and other children. If I could conquer my own mother who hates me, let alone Aunt, that would be easy for me."

The twilight went from there. The woman's departure was ushered in by the eye-tailed glances of Clara. He did not know how the life of Dusk before the news of Leo's confession circulated. All he knows is that Dusk is wanted by Leo to borrow his uterus, the rest he does not know.

Hearing every word that came out of the lips of Dusk made Clara a little think that the woman's life must not be easy. All the bitter life as he has lived.

"Why does he hate his own mother?" Finally Clara's mouth opened to ask a little about Dusk. I don't know, Clara's true heart was soft-hearted and felt touched by the words of Dusk.

"I know you're a good person, a gentle person, you're forgiving. If you don't have those three traits, you must have left me a long time ago, right? So, once Manda finds out she's pregnant...."

Flowing easily live twilight when himself in the womb until now. Akmal was honest with Clara that he gave a little of his wealth to Dusk and Manda. He knew Clara would be disappointed, but he would no longer hide anything from her. Except for one, he doesn't want to be honest with Clara about his feelings for Manda. Let his love for Manda be carried and kept until he is underground.

"It turns out a lot of people got hurt because of you, Pa. One of your faults that followed the wound of the hearts of many. The one who received the impact of your mistakes is not only Manda."

"Yes, I know that's why I want to fix everything now. I can't go back in time and fix what's gone by, but at least let me fix everything. Maybe there's not much I can do, just treat a little bit of a heart injury that I've been inciting."