Dusk And Suffering

14. Big Decisions

The clock has shown at eleven o'clock in the evening. However, Bu Patmi's eyes are reluctant to be closed. Since then he has only changed his sleeping position because of discomfort. The woman who is no longer young and strong is restless because Dusk never goes home.

When he felt a sigh at the end of his head, he heard the door of the room open. Showing the twilight behind that door.

"Grandma's not asleep?" tanya Dusk was surprised to find her grandmother sitting staring at the door.

"Yet, you sit here. Grandma is waiting for you," replied Bu Patmi patting the mattress in front of her.

Bu Patmi's answer made Dusk frown, there are things that want to be said to make his Grandmother not sleep to wait for him.

"What's up, Grandma. Is there a problem?" tanya Dusk sat in front of her Grandma with a curious face.

"Your mother, she returned to act by accepting the proposal of people we do not know. The man came with a friend or who he was Grandma didn't know. But clearly he wants to ask you to be his wife. Grandma felt something wrong with the man. Grandma refused, but your mother gave the man a green light to get to know you more."

Hearing that of course makes Dusk surprised and curious who dares to come to his house and propose himself. If his mother gave him permission, he would be rich. Because only money is the purpose of his mother's life.

One side of Dusk resigned to his fate, but on the other side there was Daren who filled his heart. Makes her much better and happier, a gentleman figure who sincerely loves her for who she is. How could he hurt Daren so deeply by leaving her married to another man. Ah Dusk so felt he was standing on the path to the right left is the abyss, both choosing left and right he will both fall too.

"What are you thinking? Grandma's feelings aren't as good as that guy. You better run away from home. Grandma doesn't want you to marry her. Strange foreign man, just yesterday he saw you at the restaurant where you work, he said he fell in love with you. It's impossible" Mrs Patmi's murmur looked upset.

"Snow? That's not a good choice, Grandma."

"Then what should? Grandma doesn't want you to go back into the pit of suffering. Grandma don't think he's a good man." Patmi's mom is still clingy with her feelings.

"I don't want to leave Grandma."

"Grandmother can take care of herself. Grandma will be sicker if you suffer and sacrifice your life continuously for your Mother. Your mother will never change before God's hand comes down to resuscitate her. Do you love Grandma? Recite with Grandma if you love. You need to get out of here and make your own life choices. Happy you are, yourself determined."

"How am I supposed to escape, Grandma?" Finally the question came from the mouth of the Sun.

"Tomorrow to help Pakde. Grandma told him. Your clothes have been partly loving Grandma to Pakde, so tomorrow you go to work as usual. Let Pakde find you a contract that's safe from your mother's reach."

"Yes, Grandma take care of herself. Grandma wait for me until I get here again, yeah." Dusk hugged his Grandma sadly.

It was not an easy decision for Dusk to leave his Grandmother. Although this big thing he took in a very short time, it does not mean he does not love and care about the song with his Grandmother.

Dropped in his head, Dusk will be a disobedient child if he leaves the house. But if he does not obey his grandmother, then his marriage to a foreign man will definitely happen. If that were the case, he was not the only person who would feel such a deep heartbreak. But also her lover, the affection that Daren gives makes the heart of Dusk feel like to keep his heart as well.

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"You used to be mad at me when I was more concerned with meetings than children. Now you yourself do that. Is it hard to find a child, Mas anyway?" peekik Clara restrained. He spoke in an angry tone but lowered his voice, he did not want Karang to hear his quarrel with the husband. Just this time Clara attach more importance to the feelings of Coral than to her ego.

"I'll join Karang, we'll go on vacation. But not for days. I also have a duty to take care of. I'll take you to Bali tomorrow after that you guys vacation alone. Weekend I went there. It's fitting, right? They're both delicious, right? Why are things this small you making a fuss?"

"Whatever." Clara gave up on the commotion she started herself.

It's been this late and they instead of sleeping soundly under the same blanket, they are arguing about the holiday.

Corals hate this, inexplicably he feels God always shows the quarrel of his Father and Mother. Why does he always know when his parents are showing that they have no affection.

Corals covered from the front of the room of Father and Mother after they felt they had calmed down. With a glass of water, Karang set his foot with a gamang towards his room.

"I should've used to hear them fight. It's been going on since I was a kid, but why the more I get here the more it hurts me to hear screams from them." The coral sat contemplating on the floor leaning against the edge of the bed.

When a child of the age of Karang is feeling the future of adolescence, he has already felt the bitterness of life. Corals do not know what it feels like to be loved wholeheartedly, do not know how to love others and how to treat others with affection. The things he should have gotten from both his parents, the things he learned from both parents he did not get at all.

Should Corals grow into humans like them? Mutual hurt, maintaining their own ego, not being able to love the person closest to them, not respecting their partner. Is that what they want to teach the corals? Because that's all the corals got from them.

"Don't grow like them Corals! You know it's not good for the people around you, right? You don't want people around you to feel what you feel, do you? Grow up to be a loving human being. So that the people around you don't feel the pain you feel."

"Fuck it all Coral! What you learn from people you know, you must apply in your life. You have to have a place to vent the pain you feel. Don't be a weak man!"

"Don't Corals!

" Do!"

"Stop!" yelled Coral fell from his seat.

Coral looked around, apparently he fell asleep on the floor when he thought of his parents who never gave happiness on Coral day.