Dusk And Suffering

50. The Other Side of Leo

"How Mas? Can we get them home now?"

"What can you not do with Leo? Later in the afternoon tell our chosen nurse to come here, yes. We can only bring it later this afternoon."

"Yes. You feel like something's weird, don't you?"

"Any? What's?"

"Senja gave birth while I was asleep? And I just this time it's not noon yet, but it's very sleepy and want to sleep unbearably. Do you feel what I feel? It's all planned."

"Why should I think about it, anyway? No need to think about it, the important thing is that our desires have been fulfilled. We already have a pair of twin boys and girls. We have reached our goal, do not have to think about how the process. I went to Dusk first, yeah. You're here. Wait for our sister to come, you call now. It's three o'clock."

Leo stepped away, but his steps stopped because his hand was strangled by Rida.

"Why can't I come?"

"Udah, your mind is not that no longer. I don't want you to make a fuss in that room. I just want to say thank you, all give money for the cost of going home. You wait here, as soon as the nurse comes, we go home. You want to get out of here fast, right? You want to leave the country immediately, right? I'd have to obey me if you wanted us to leave quickly."

"Yes already."

Yes, they and their families will leave their country of birth to start a new life with their children. The couple, rather Rida deliberately did that so that someday Dusk and her children would never meet. Rida doesn't want to take any chances for her two children's future. Rida is worried that if they find out that her mother is not Rida, they will look for her mother and instead choose to live with Dusk.

"Senja, are you really sleeping? Wake up for a minute, I want to talk."

Dusk does not budge.

Leo looked at Dusk who seemed to be completely asleep. Her face is so auspicious even without the slightest make up. Slowly but surely Leo's hand is raised to touch the top of the head of Dusk. Gagged it quietly, like when he stroked Rida's head. I don't know, there's a sense that Leo can't explain. He felt the vibrations and also the subtle pulsations in his heart.

"Thank you Dusk."

Thank me? I don't know since when Leo became a little frequent say that word. However, only one thing Leo realized, he had changed a lot since living one roof with Dusk. The girl brought a lot of change, whether you realize it or not, Leo became a little better human than before.

Feeling something touching his head twitching. His hands were raised to touch the owner of the hand that was still perched at the top of the head.

Like a man's hand what's this Dad's hand?

Cup.

Without opening your eyes wide at twilight, bring your hand towards your mouth and kiss it briefly.

"Dad to here?" tanya twilight opened her eyes.

Both of his eyes were bulging as soon as he saw whose hands he was holding.

"You? What are you here for?" The surprised twilight reflex throws Leo's hand.

The girl forgot that she had just had surgery and wanted to sit down.

"You forgot you had the operation? Don't move yet."

Dusk no matter what Leo said, right now his stomach really hurts. He didn't even care that long ago Leo touched him. If usually he will rebel or pull out his ketus, this time he is more concerned with the pain of the stitches that he accidentally almost made sitting.

"That's okay? I'll call the doctor for a minute, yeah." Leo panicked as if Dusk was his favorite wife.

"No need. I don't want to. Okay, it's okay. I'll just take a break."

"What are you doing, anyway? I'm not the animal that makes someone unclean when it touches me. Why are you throwing my hand? The new operation had forgotten. You can't move much yet. Even to sit down" said Leo.

Leo's nag this time makes dusk feel sad. He was reminded of his girlfriend, Daren. His lover also often nagged while doing something that endangers him. Not feeling suddenly his vision blurred, both pelupuk filled with water.

Leo who saw it even more confused.

"What's up, sick? His stomach still hurts."

"No" replied Dusk. "What are you doing here again? Our business is done, right? I've kept my word, I've given you children and I don't demand to see them. What else do you want from me?"

"Can't you talk to me well? I'm just here to say thank you for everything, your wasted time of more than a year, your energy, your body, your teenage years into adulthood you've spent on me. As you have always said that I am a heartless human being, I deserve to be called a criminal. Maybe I am, you only know my dark side without you knowing how I survive in that darkness. But, since knowing you I realized many changes and you managed to get me to see the world from a different side. After this I may not turn into a good human like other humans, but at least I learned a lot from you. How I look at someone and how I value someone is a lesson I learned over the course of a year."

"Good then." It was only the twilight answer from Leo's long words.

"I'm sorry I couldn't bring you up with our son. I'm doing this for my wife, you know how Rida's staying with me and you also know my reasons for desperately doing whatever she wants. I don't think I need to do it again, do I?"

"No, I understand that a human being like you loves another human being more than your love for God. There are many people like that now. Hopefully one day, you and Rida can find the right way, I mean can seek guidance from God, don't wait for guidance to come."

"You're sincere I'm taking our kids out of the country?"

"Why are you asking now?"

Dusk saw a tinge of regret on Leo's face. I don't know what Leo regretted he didn't know, because there were too many mistakes he made. Either with him or with someone else. From the people around him his guilt is already very big and fatal and maybe, there will be some people who will not forgive his mistakes. Somehow the fate of the man someday, thought Dusk.

"As I said earlier. I just realized that I can see the world from a different side."

"Nobody is sincere a mother let her child go far with anyone, even with her own father. But you take it easy, I've been trying to make things happen. Because I believe the future of my children will be good in your hands later. But the truth is, I still doubt how you'll educate her later. I hope the children I give birth to will be good humans."

"I will do my best to educate them to be good human beings. I realize I'm not exemplary by them."

I don't know why getting here the chatter of Dusk and Leo makes the woman sensitive. He felt Leo's change in this second. He felt moved by the word for word that came out of the man's mouth.

"Senja, can I ask you something more? Just one last time I saw you. After this we will never meet again. I'll never come back here."

"What?"

"Let me hold you for a second."