Dusk And Suffering

47. Give birth

"Dad. How come Dad's here? If anyone knows how?" Dusk was surprised to see Akmal who was already in front of the reception desk.

"Dad don't calm down if you don't see me. We haven't seen each other in a long time."

"Yes, Dad. I know, but it's not time to let go of the miss. Let me save my kids first, then we'll have a chat."

"Father accompany you."

"Well, what if Leo comes?"

"There are Father's men who take care of. Just be calm. Getting in, isn't it time we don't have much?"

Dusk immediately dragged his father to the doctor's office who treated him during pregnancy. The hijab doctor immediately prepared everything that was needed. Dusk who had told the doctor to immediately perform the operation made the doctor named Wulan was not much to ask anymore.

"Senja, Leo didn't accompany you?" ask Doctor Wulan while preparing equipment for surgery.

"She will follow earlier I had time to call but the number is not active. May I ask for your help, I'd really like to say this from the beginning but Leo didn't give me a chance to check it out for myself."

"What's wrong?" Doctor Wulan stopped his activity for a moment.

"I want to take my son away. I'm actually a victim of Leo's selfishness. She got me pregnant because she wanted to have offspring. Doctor Wulan take it easy, I've prepared a replacement for twins for Leo. So, later if the baby you showed Leo is not the same as the baby I gave birth to, please don't tell him anything. You're a woman and I'm sure you're a mother, too. Can you let me be separated from my son?"

"This one violates the rules of ru..."

"Your job is to be quiet. That's all, I've arranged everything. Now take care of my son," sidelines Akmal who does not want to linger.

"Well I will help you as a fellow woman, not as a doctor and patient" replied Doctor Wulan after a long silence.

Without asking much more the woman started to work. Akmal sat near his son's head, already exactly like a standby husband who was accompanying his wife to give birth.

The man who held the title as the father of Dusk stared fixedly at his son without blinking. After a year passed Akmal still could not believe that Dusk was his son. The little boy she had met once now grew up to be a prettier girl.

I don't feel Akmal's tears welling up. Given the series of events before today, it would be endless if he regretted everything he had done. That won't change things either. He also knows that crying will not change anything, but only by crying his feelings become relieved and his burden is slightly reduced.

"Dad why cry? I'm not sick," asked Dusk as a child.

"Dad kangen with you. Ever since I found out you're Dad's son. I've never apologized, I'm sorry, yeah. I have no intention of leaving you and your mother on purpose. But at that time I had to go to continue my education. After Dad's education is over, Dad comes straight back here and looks for you too Mom. It's been a dozen years I've been looking, but I haven't found where you are. Until I finally thought that your mother was married to another man and lived happily. Then Dad also decided to marry another woman, but really love Dad until now is still the same mother. I've been trying to get rid of and forget about mom, but in fact my efforts have been in vain."

"Dad, I don't want to talk about the past, nor do I live in that time. I want to start all over again, I don't care what my past is like. All I care about is my future. I'll be a mother soon. I can't think of myself, can I? There are already my children to think about, so I beg you, don't talk about anything!" pinta Dusk.

It is true, Dusk does not want to think about what has happened, especially if you have to regret the seconds wasted before today. For him all that was not important, the questions that had lingered in his head when he met his father were no longer there. No matter where it went, it was possible that his questions and curiosity disappeared with time and age.

"Where will you take your child?"

"Dad has everything ready, son. I'll hide them in a safe place away from this town."

"Away?"

"Yes, if you're afraid Leo knows here and there, you have to..." Akmal hangs his words, he is confused to say the word, that in fact he is worried if Clara and Karang find out that he is still in contact with his other biological children. He does not want to happen some time ago again repeated. After all, if he speaks honestly with Dusk he is afraid that Dusk will also stay away from him.

"What should Dad be? Are you afraid that Daddy's wife now knows where I am?"

"Dad's in the wrong position, son. Dad can't have it all. You can't choose you or your family now. But I can't hold you together and openly either. Everything is important to me, everything is my life. So..."

"Dad had to hide one of us and Dad hid me."

"Darling...."

"It's okay, Dad. You don't have to feel guilty. I realized where I was. I know how to behave and I can accept all of that Dad. Trust me, I don't have to worry. You don't have to regret everything, the most important thing is that I met you." Dusk loudly said that, there was no look of sadness at all. That made Akmal go back.

No one wants to be in the position of Dusk or Akmal. Their position is equally difficult.

As a child, actually Dusk also wanted to be considered there and not hidden, but he also could not be selfish thinking about his wishes alone. There are many hearts that he must take care of. By forcing himself to return to sincerely live the line of God, he is willing to be hidden status by the Father.

"Dad, who will take care of my children while I'm still here? I should definitely be treated here a few days, right?"

"Father has provided two baby sitters. You don't have to worry."

"Thank you, Dad. I'm sorry we just met, but I've been troubling you."

"What are you, by the way? Dad's not bothered at all. I'm just happy, you want to consider this Daddy your father. But my mistakes are not forgiven."

"We all have mistakes, Dad. It's over, I want to start my new life with the kids and Dad and Mom. It doesn't matter if we have to separate, the important thing is we can still meet."