Dusk And Suffering

51. Memories

"Let me hold you for a second."

"For what?"

"Greetings goodbye."

Dusk looked at Leo for a moment, I don't know, Dusk saw the man differently today. Not as bad and bad as usual.

"Yes. Not from two minutes."

Without answering, Leo just hit the body of Dusk with his body. I don't know why he was so close to the woman he always thought was weak. Closing their eyes for a moment, enjoying touch after touch of their clashing skin.

"Again thanks, thank you for changing this despicable human being for the better. Thank you for giving up your time just to change my status."

"Alhamdulillah, it's good that you've realized your mistake. Change little by little to get better, you can lead Rida and the kids later."

Leo loosened his embrace. Cupping both sides of the Dusk cheek with his right and left hands. Their distance is so close. So close their faces feel cool because of the breath of the two.

"Maybe I'll miss you someday."

"You can spill all your race onto the kids later. It will reach my heart too."

"I'm sorry."

"Of course, I've accepted everything. I am sincere and I have made peace with my past. I've been cured. Its alright. Go!"

Leo reached into his shirt pocket. Take the paper from there and give it to Dusk.

"I know you don't need this, but take this as a payment for your wasted time. Please don't refuse."

For the first time Dusk smiled for Leo. "No, I don't want to. Take it, for the future of the children. Come on, don't value anything with money. You can learn from now on."

"I guessed it. But it's okay. I have another gift for you. Not expensive, anyway. But I'm sure you'll appreciate this more than money." Leo reached back into his shirt pocket and pulled out a bracelet.

Bracelets are ordinary, black rubber bands are coated with several colorful flowers, but there is a small board that says the name of Dusk there.

"You still remember I once had an interest in Bali, right? I bought this right there. Not expensive, hopefully you like."

"I'll take this one, thank you." Dusk received the bracelet with pleasure.

I finally saw that smile for me too.

"I think I should get out of here. I'm saying goodbye, yeah. Thanks and sorry for everything."

"Either. Go!"

"Later you go home-"

"Dad. I'll tell Dad later. You take it easy."

Leo nodded, then quickly turned his body with wide steps out of the room. Means in front of the door for a moment while closing your eyes and regulating your breath. For some reason, the day he was waiting the most actually made him feel lost he did not know what was wrong with him.

After feeling calm Leo walked back to the place where Rida was. It turns out that she is not alone, the woman is already with two sisters who will take care of her twins. And in the two sisters' arms there was a baby.

" you don't want to see twilight. At least say thank you."

"You said that, right?"

"Yes, you're enough, right? I don't want to talk about him anymore. Can we go home now?"

"Yes." Yeah."

***

Manda was still sitting quietly near the baby box containing two twins who looked back. I don't know, he felt happy and calm when he looked at the little babies.

His memory then returned at the moment a dozen years ago. Where he himself also has a baby that is actually funny, but he really hates the baby.

Manda felt something was different from her. After a few months ago he let Dusk embrace him, from that time on slowly Manda began to think about her daughter.

"Sleeping, why do you think so?" Akmal walked towards the bed that was in the room, then sat down next to the woman who was currently still enthroned in his heart.

There was no reply from Manda's mouth, only a long breath was heard.

"Funny, yes they are. Fortunately, no one looked like Leo. Yes, although there are some similar body parts, anyway, like eyebrow eyes, but the other body parts look like our child, right?" Akmal followed Manda's view.

Manda was silent.

"When do you want to hate me? There is no harm if you are at peace with the past. Does anything change if you keep the same with me, the same as Dusk? Let me see what changes it takes."

"Nothing is."

"Well, that's you know why? Why do you keep doing this?"

"You wish I was how? Do you expect me to be happy, happy, laughing, excited when I, you come?"

"You know why I'm missing. I also explained that I-."

"Not to be explained over and over again I'm tired of hearing it. What are you doing here?" Manda asked in a tight tone.

"I don't want our relationship to continue this way."

"Then you want?"

"Yes, we're ordinary, we're like friends. We're the one who tied up Manda, our only child. Moreover, we now have grandchildren, time is not ashamed if we continue in front of Dusk."

"I have no shame. Whatever I have you've taken from the past. Why are you asking unimportant things now?"

"not important? Among us there is Dusk, if our relationship like that continues, we will not set a good example for him. At least in the remnants of this second life, we give good memories, we show that our relationship has begun to improve. Have you been lacking for twenty years torturing her physically and inwardly? And now he is in his new life.You want to watch our relationship like this? Come on, Dusk suffered before he met me. Then after meeting me, will he still suffer so? With the addition of two children without a father figure, he had to work slamming bones later. You don't want to make a happiness story for him?"

"What do you know about life?"

"Manda, missing me doesn't mean my life is happy. I'm also sad, I'm also frustrated looking for you. I did marry another woman, but my life was not at all happy. My mind, my heart, my focus, my life, everything I spend thinking about you." Akmal raised his hand and then held onto both of Manda's shoulders. "Actually we're the same, Manda. We both suffer. It's just that we suffer in different places and different things."

Manda's eyes could not see Akmal's eyes. The man's setting was so painful for her.