A FOOL! WHEN ARE WE GONNA MEET?

Ain Cemetery

Ain's funeral took place solemnly, I just found out if the Ain family was very rich and respected by the higher-ups of the country. There were several ministers and also representatives along with some of the mayor's staff, attending Ain's funeral at this time. Since Ain was about to be put into a burrow, I deliberately moved away from the crowd, standing silently under the beautiful flowering ylang tree.

Everyone was saddened by Ain's departure because his father's influence in politics and the business world was very influential. Call it, his fate with Ain like Heaven and earth is a distance, so it can be said that we are not a match. I used to really want a husband who came from a wealthy family, but now I realize that the comparison between wealth and poverty in the public eye is very far away.

Since this morning my eyes seemed to not want to cry anymore, because it had felt enough with the cry that was issued last night. Come to think of it now I felt ashamed of myself for his unrestrained behavior last night, especially when I hugged and kissed Ain's face like crazy. I wanted to hide my face now into the hole, so that no one would see me.

"R! You are sincere." said Lisa encouraging me by embracing my strong shoulders.

"Bismillah!" I said with a bitter smile

"Maybe God is preparing someone who is good again for you." he said still encouraging me.

"Thank you for the prayer, Lis! I did not think so. Our separation will end with destiny like this. as if God is making a joke, which is bitter.heh!" My heart felt a pain again in my chest

"Lo is strong!" Lisa said and hugged me gently

I was silent in Lisa's arms staring at the crowd that was starting to leave from the funeral, because the late Ain was properly fed and recited prayers that would accompany him in the coffin confinement in the land. Lisa let go of her embrace and invited me to go home to the apartment immediately, but I refused to go home immediately. Ain's family had also moved one by one from the funeral, and invited me to leave immediately for a rest, but once again I shook my head in refusing the invitation. Right now I am looking forward to gazing at Ain's resting place quietly and peacefully.

"It's like that.tante with the others first!" He said with a bitter smile and hugged me

" ...." I returned his embrace with a bitter smile

"Mom! The strong yes." said Dina as she hugged me.

"You must also be strong." I chuckled amusedly hearing my late sister encouraging me like this.

I asked Lisa to wait for me in the car, because right now I want to be alone with Ain who has been down there. I stepped forward towards Ain's tomb, which still smelled of fresh soil with a limping path, because my legs were swollen from sprains at that time. I sat on my knees beside Ain's grave, looking at his gravestone that looked beautiful because it was engraved there.

"I didn't know you were leaving so soon! And I'd rather not know if in my life I had a destiny like this, even though I didn't love you... But I have considered you as my own brother, so you understand me yes, if I am too much sad when you go kayak gini! I'm sorry if I had anything wrong with you.. I must have been your troubling act, right? I'm sorry." I said back to feeling tight so deep that my tears came down again

Since then the sky looks cloudy, as if to be saddened by the sudden departure of Ain like this. I grinned bitterly at the new tomb a few blocks away from Ain's tomb now, it was equally new to Ain's tomb. The drizzle started to fall gradually and eventually became a heavy rain that immediately drenched my body immediately. I still daydreamed about the wonderful and silly memories of being with Ain for the past year. Until suddenly I was jolted by the rain cash that seemed to stop wetting me, when I looked up I found a black umbrella was becoming my shade.

"..." I lowered my head again when I saw the warm smile of the umbrella holder

"Bismillah.I am sincere!" I said and showed a bitter smile to Aji who looked at me with a full look

"..." - ".Aji smiled and stroked my wet hijab

"..." I fell silent in silence because I remembered Ain's habit of petting my hijab

"R! We go home now! You will be sick!" He said he was taking me home

"..." I just kept quiet and looked back blankly at the tomb Ain began to color his white robe with the color of the red soil

Lisa also came up to me and immediately ate me to stand up, constantly strengthening me through her attentive words. Aji covered us both and left her body in the rain to protect us both from the raindrops that were still very heavy. While staying a few steps away from the car I took a deep breath and threw a heavy load along with the breath, then developed a cheerful smile full of bitterness.

Lisa immediately asked me to get into her car when I sneezed, she did not care about my dirty body due to the red soil of Ain's funeral. She nagged me like an older sister who cared so much for her sister, Dina who was sitting next to me also helped me to smile cheerfully again with her funny behavior that cleaned up the sparks on my face, while grumbling like his mother.

I chuckled amusedly at the attention of these two people, for some reason I felt a warmth running through my mind touched by their concern. Although the words they said sounded spicy and tart, yet I did not feel any pain in my heart. Unlike the nagging of my siblings and my parents, which made me feel worse and smaller.

Arriving at the apartment the two of them were still busy giving scolding, who asked me not to get too swept away in grief. I just showed myself a little bit that people who know me even feel that I am depressed. Even before Ain's departure I had been like this every day while alone in the apartment, probably because the mask of my part was too protruding from my grief-stricken face. I grinned bitterly considering that, there are still people who care about me in this competitive life.

"Thank you ... I've taken me to the apartment!" I said while opening the door

"Everything... But you want us to go back tonight?" Lisa said offer warmth later tonight

"No need. I want to be alone first." I said and immediately went inside.

"If there's anything call me.." cried Lisa as the door closed.

I immediately stepped into the bathroom and took off all the clothes, letting the warm water that came out through the shower wet my tired body. From now on I should be able to learn to control my emotions as a result of Ain's shocking departure. I wish I could wake up feeling more free tomorrow, to get back to work as usual.

When I came out of the bathroom, I saw the charter and certificate of appreciation from the central police station, the, for my services that helped in the arrest of the murderer for the Fitri case that was killed in his apartment room a few days ago. I sat in front of the mirror at the dresser, looking at my pretty face but had a life story that was too complicated and winding, so I myself did not understand where the path would be anchored later on. May my day be better in the future, or I will also be willing if I am picked up now by the angel of death.:v