A FOOL! WHEN ARE WE GONNA MEET?

THIS TASTE REPEATED AGAIN

After I finished changing my clothes immediately came out, Tian also stopped nagging him. I took my head out to look at the conditions outside, I saw Tian again drinking maybe because of his frustration already to the crown. I walked slowly over to Tian who still had not finished his drink.

"Darling...!" I screamed in his ear and gave him a hug from behind

"..." - ".Tian just remained silent not giving any response

"Darling! Excuse me... I'm sorry... The shrimp are angry!" I rubbed my head on his wide back

"..." - ".He's still quiet

"Darling!!! I'm sorry! How to still in diemin gini!" My whine

"..." - ".Still holding in silence

"..." - ".I also kept quiet and tightened my arms

"!!!" Tian let go of my embrace

"...." - ".Suddenly my heart felt like it was being stabbed with a knife

"..." - ".Tian walked away from me

"..." - ".I didn't know what to say and could only look at my hand that was holding her just now with a blank look

"..." - ".Even Tian still did not speak

"..." - ".My tears are falling again because of Tian's silence

"..." - ".I saw Tian clenching his hands, maybe if I was a stranger I would not be breathing for him

"..." - ".I remember, this is the pain I felt when Ain left

"R! You've changed a lot!" Tian said softly which made my heart seem to have stopped

"..." - ".I couldn't say anything more than running out of the room and confining myself to the escape

In the room that had been decorated with baby furniture I cried in silence. I felt a heartache that I never imagined would be this painful. My attitude changed only because I wanted to show my husband Tian, if I could also be warm and spoiled to him. But is Tia. To regard my change of attitude as forbidden and non-existent.

Is it wrong if I learn to love her with my present attitude, if wrong I apologize. I shouldn't have to open my heart to the warmth it gave me first and a few hours ago. I should have learned from the past that loving someone would hurt like this, but do I love my husband now?

Nah! I don't love him yet, I'm trying to open my heart to give him a place in my emptiness. But it seems like his words just made me back determined to never open this heart to be filled by him. Jokingly or seriously, the sentence that showed dislike made the bright spot in the darkness of my soul again tightly shut.

Maybe because it was too emotional, my stomach also hurt, for the good of my prospective children. I have to put aside the inner problems that are now tormenting me, it has been enough I cried for the past few days. I am again determined to be a woman and a wife who will not trust anyone anymore, I will return to my rigid and indifferent self with life.

"It's really ridiculous..."

Not wanting to drag on in this excruciating sadness, I decided to take the sleeping pills that were inside the drawer of the bedside table. Finally I returned to using the medicine I had used before, because it was always difficult to sleep in this residence. I want to sleep in peace and quiet, just let me sleep for the night with a sleeping pill.

***

The next morning when I opened my eyes, I was shocked because Tian was sleeping on the sofa in his sitting position. Usually if I see Tian's sleeping face I will automatically smile and have a tickling feeling to tease him. But this morning was different, for some reason when I saw his calm face I felt anger and hatred, even I was bluffing my teeth with anger.

"Sorry!!" He said before a kiss landed on my forehead

"..." - ".I want to scream in front of his face

(Sorry you're late jerk!!)

"I shouldn't have been so angry last night... I'm wrong! I'm sorry!" Tian clasped my hand tightly

"..." - ".I opened my eyes and found him immersing his face in the blanket with his body shaking, probably crying

"Sorry..." Watered again

"..." - ".I subconsciously let go of his grasp and turned back to him and covered my entire body with a blanket

"Darling! Pardon me! I'm disturbing your sleep, right?"

"..." - ".I was silent when his hand touched my shoulder

"Darling! I'm sorry... Yes, I was wrong! I'm sorry, huh? Darling..."

"I'm sorry! You can get out now!" My mouth is cold under the blanket

"Darling!" Sounded a surprised tone

"..." - ".I just went back to being quiet

"Judah I'm out now! Sorry I disturbed your sleep... I'll take your breakfast to your room later..." Tian kissed my head gently and passed away

Whatever he wants, obviously if I am angry, my anger will not subside only with stale seduction. After Tian came out I also moved from the mattress to clean myself, because of the effect of sleeping pills, so I woke up a bit bad luck for dawn prayers. Before the time passed, I immediately prayed Fajr quietly, feeling back to the initial setup.

After I finished praying as usual I was lazy to take off my face, so I chose to sit quietly on the prayer mat with a blank look staring out the window. My hands are moving around caressing my stomach, which I like very much lately from everything.

"Darling!" Tian entered with a tray filled with breakfast

"..." - ".I let go of the mukena and put it back to the starting place with a blank look

"Here I bring breakfast!"

"..." - ".I smiled in greeting his good intentions

"No one wants you to eat, you say... I must be buyingin!"

"Thank you..." I welcome the gift tray

"I'm the bribe! Open your mouth... Aaaa...."

"..." - ".I don't know, I'm following his whim but my heart is still so angry with him that I can only smile at him

I deliberately did not finish the porridge, in order for Tian to quickly leave this room before he further irritated me. As expected, Tian came out after asking me to return for a comfortable rest. After Tian came out I immediately locked the door and blocked him with a chair so that it was not easy to open from the outside, I was upset and did not want to be disturbed.