A FOOL! WHEN ARE WE GONNA MEET?

EPILOGUES

This kind of family harmony is what I have dreamed of in this life. There were only happy laughs and jokes all over this residence. My entire extended family, the Tian extended family and our entire extended family are both blending in happily. The twins bring happiness, thank God. Because it has given a gift that is so beautiful and charming like the twins.

During these 2 days, this large house that sometimes feels lonely and cold now feels warm and full of happiness. I wanted to cry seeing the laughter and smiles on the faces of everyone who was surrounding the twins who were asleep in the crib. Tian's annoyed face was faint, perhaps he was annoyed that too many people were surrounding his son.

For the thanksgiving and aqiqah of the twins, the grandfather had ordered 4 camels, 4 cows and 4 goats. Even the thanksgiving plan that will be held he said will be done on a large scale. My family was shocked when they heard all the fancy plans, because the event was as big and lively as they had never imagined.

Since then I have only watched the happiness that is in the middle room of the 2nd floor of this house. There was no desire at all to join in the jokes of all of them, it felt like I was very satisfied with my position standing now.

"Darling..." I was shocked when the gentle whispers and warm hugs from behind disturbed my composure

"Yes Allah... I'm shocked! When are you in the back?"

"Since a few minutes ago... What are you thinking about again?"

"I didn't think of anything... Just bengong bentar doang..."

"Darling..." Call her softly and stare into my eyeballs straight away

"I didn't think of anything!" I stroked her face that looked tired

"Judah, don't want to tell a story..." Tian

"Don't really think anything... Ish, you don't act cute gini dong... Make me gemes!" I said while pinching her cheek

"Aaaa.... Sick baby..." The whimper was in pain because my pinching was hard enough

"Darling... You look tired!" I muttered caressing her faintly discernible eyes

"What a surprise?"

"Not really... Yehudah, because the last few days you can't sleep well... Now I'm gonna fuck you..."

"No... The time I sleep in these times is like this..." He said he was staring at the crowded central room

"Darling... You also need to rest! Especially after the twins were born, your rest time is reduced a lot... I don't want you to get sick!"

"But it's not good..."

"Darling! Just take a nap for a while!"

I immediately pulled Tian into the room and asked him to lie comfortably on the bed. The last few nights of Tian's sleep were seized by the twins, who were supposed to be my responsibility, as a mother. But, every night Tian always looks after the twins just in case it's fussy in the middle of the night. Even when I woke up in the middle of the night I found Tian still awake beside the twins' bed.

I've forbidden him from doing the task that should be mine like that, but his stubbornness is very difficult to handle. Not only was his love for me too sincere, but his love for the twins was also very sincere and holy. Are all the husbands in this world really like Tian?

"I want to sleep, as long as you're a pillow..." Tian pulled me who was about to stand back up sitting on the bed

"Jude yes..." At first I thought he was going to use my thigh as his pillow, but it turned out

"So roll it up, it's better..."

"Sa.honey..."

"I want! When I wake up, you're still in my arms..."

I smiled to find his powerful nature that had not appeared like this for a long time. I also stroked her soft hair hoping that she would fall asleep quickly. Until not long after, his face became calm and regular breathing made me unceasingly smile at his face. His figure while sleeping really makes my eyes can not be separated from admiring this handsome and charming face.

Strange, even though Tian's figure was so perfect like this but why did he choose me as his life partner. He was handsome, very rich, a loyal figure, very loving and indulging his wife excessively. Very far from being just an ordinary woman with a mediocre face, a simple family setting, having a dark past and most importantly not being able to understand what love is.

Even now I am still confused, have I really loved Tian or not? Although I was determined to learn to love Tian, but somehow always stuck in the feeling of affection. The person I love in this world is myself and the two children I gave birth to a few days ago. Because every time I see the twins, I always have the ambition to protect them and look after them, like I did to myself.

Being feeling for Tian, I felt mediocre and too ordinary instead. I never minded if Tian was close to another woman, even I thought that it was only natural for Tian to have a mistress out there. It feels like I really don't care much about Tian's life, whether or not it drags me along. What is clear is that I do not care about anything he does, whether it harms me or not.

"Tookk..." The sound of the door on the knock

"Just..."  I got down from the bed after releasing Tian's deep embrace in his sleep

"I'm bothering you, brother?"

"No! What's up?"

"That's... Kak Nur and the others, shopping... Brother want to come?"

"Hmmm... I guess I can't! You see Tian is also sleeping!"

"Ohh... So brother-in-law is sleeping? I thought..." He looked at me with a perverted look

"Ih... You don't think about dirty things anymore, do you? Remember age..." I was pissed at her cheek

"Aawws... It hurts! I'm a big one too..."

"Where's the big one? I have no KTP yet..."

"It will be another year and you will also have a ID!"

"That's... How did you become a pervert? It must have been a mistake..."

"Auk... First, brother..." He ran away avoiding my nagging

I could only shake my head, feeling that Soraya with myself in the past was not much different. I was upset when I knew that my past was too vulgar, even though only through the mass media. Forget the shameful past to remember, for now I will only focus on the present and the future. Let it all be the real past of my life.

I drove them all out, because everyone went shopping, except for Mama and Abah. All the cars in the garage come out all, in the garage of this house there are at least 5 types of cars that we usually use when traveling out, used alternately dong of course. Happy to see them as they are now, all my brothers no longer need to fuss about transportation or money.

"Sister! I'm nitip brown!"

"Is that all?"

"Yes..."

"What kind of mama is Abah nitip?"

"That you want nothing..."

"You guys be careful on the road, huh? Remember to wear your seat belt!"

"Yes! Aye! Mah!"

"We're leaving! Assalamualaikum..."

"Wa'alaikum...." My husband and who live together

After asking my parents for a break, I took the twins to the room to help my mother carry the Chrysanthemum. After kissing her twin granddaughter, she came out, following Abah in the room where she had first rested. Tian was still sleeping quietly on the bed, his face was as stark as the sleeping twins. Since there was nothing I could do because the three of them were taking naps, I opened up again sheet by sheet photo albums.

There are 7 photo albums that are almost full of my sweet memories with Tian. Even one of the albums made Tian an album that was only dedicated to my photos of various expressions, but mostly just dumb expressions. It felt like flipping through the pages of this photo album made me feel foreign to the expression I was showing.

I really did not expect if it turns out that all this time I sometimes look like a lonely figure. I did feel lonely, but I also did not expect if it turns out that all this time I showed a sad face mulu. I felt like throwing away this photo album out of anger after knowing the figure of myself that was always visible in front of Tian.

I should have really done a massive overhaul on myself. At least I have to throw away the habit of daydreaming or dumbstruck. From now on I have to show a face that will only be filled with happiness when together or not with Tian, at least for the sake of the children and Tian. I hope this happiness will last a long time, at least until I realize that I love Tian.

"Then do you remember Ain?"

It felt as if the shadow of Ain had re-emerged within my head that was too great to imagine. Indeed Ain was the first person who made me feel worried at the end of our togetherness. But now I have Tian as my husband and the twins as a complement to our lives. I am content with the present life, even so satisfied that I am willing to be picked up now by the angel of death.

But, the execution can be delayed some know in again right? You see, I still want to give birth to a child for Tian. Let the house get crowded and full of fun, like my childhood home. Pokonya I have to have a lot of children, with as much treasure as now I do not need to bother thinking about the future of my children later.

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