A FOOL! WHEN ARE WE GONNA MEET?

Prologues

📝I am a teenage girl who has so many dreams, one by one of which sometimes almost reachable dreams, but always detached from my hands. I live with a very unstable and selfish nature, sometimes I live a motivated life and sometimes I also live a stressful life. I was born into a very simple family, which made it difficult for me to understand what happiness and sadness were.

I'm 20 years old now, the age I just had the courage to speak out to the world, that I wanted to feel like people. All this time the world looks black and white from the retina of my eyes, which always stare lethargic at the outside life. Just call me Ruka, the name my parents gave me, after I managed to stare at the outside world with all the senses I had in my body.

I was born as normal as a child in general, but somehow I always felt that this life was not meaningful at all. Every moment I remember dying and instilling in my mind if this life is just a moment. If asked if I am bored with this life? I would be confused as to what to answer! Because I also think of my family who should be happy because of my effort and hard work.

I am the middle child of 9 brothers, all siblings of the same father and mother. He said the middle child was the most delicious of his life and said the middle child was the most miserable of his life! But that's just a word from people's mouths, not that it's a fact. It's my life and it's yours, our path has been different from one person to another. Everyone wants happiness in their lives, and so do I.

But the more I came here, I didn't really want happiness anymore, because I realized that if I wanted to be happy I just thought enough if I was happy, and vice versa. Right now I'm in a black and white phase that doesn't want to be touched by any color nor does it want to be black and white forever. I'm just confused about my life, so how can you possibly understand what kind of life I want.

Many people who claim to understand how and what life is like I want. Prrtt... I just don't know what I want and want to do in this life. For you humans, who care about the lives of others... I suggest not to be too lax with other people's lives. I remind you only as a human who does not like if there are people who want to find out about my personal life.📝

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"Didn't you say?" Ask Goddess! people I consider to be just ordinary friends, but claim to be my best friend

"Again waiting for a mate!!" I said as I closed the book I just scratched with my heart

"Gue Aminin let makbul spit!! that's Lo writing what?" The goddess glanced at the book that was on my lap

"Write the names of the guys I like!" I smiled wryly at him

"This is where I see..." The goddess took the book in my lap

"..." I silently looked at his serious face flipping through the pages of the book

"Well..what's the name of all the guys that Lo wrote?" The goddess turned her gaze to me with her blusukan smile

"Well.it's up to me dong! who knows if one of them will be my soul mate..." I snatched the book back from his hand with a wry smile again

"Lo Queence..." The goddess hit me on the shoulder softly with her ngikikik laughter

After replying to the Goddess's blow I immediately ran towards the yellow tent that was among the crush of other colorful tents. The goddess cursed at me, because she said I hit her with power. Yes the name is also hit, must use energy, just breath I have to use energy.

Today is the first day of the campus nature lovers group to reach the top of Halau-halau mountain. He said the mountain is above the clouds, yes because the peak is very high so that when looking anywhere there are only white clumps that are said to be clouds. South Kalimantan is full of natural wealth, so do not be surprised if there are places that are not famous but have very beautiful scenery.

"Wrounds..." Call Rama the romantic guy who has a crush on the Goddess

"Lo want?" Bargain to me

"Hehe.. don't! I don't want to offer it either!" I said and snatched the snack

"That's Lo... Oh yea! where's Dewi?" Rama was wailing in search of the whereabouts of the woman he was appraising

"Noh.. in. under the tree again talking to Jali his bluff!" I said pointing to the Goddess who was engrossed in talking to Jali with a crisp and timid laugh

"The asshole Jali.. already know I have a crush on the Goddess! still in deketin." said Rama annoyed and stuffed Snack into his mouth at once.

"Elo tuh the jerk..alah also know Dewi does not like Lo deketin still just flirting to him!!" I said and immediately passed to the tent to get some drinking water

"Basar Mak dampir." said Rama mocking me.

I just smiled wryly at him and soon passed again leaving him towards the rock where I was sitting just now. Soon sunset, I don't want to miss this beautiful moment again for the second time. Several other people started taking out their phones to capture this moment. Unlike me who just want to capture this moment in my mind and heart. It feels better, but I like it.

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Without me knowing there is a senior guy who likes to secretly take photos of me from all sides. Like this time the senior was back to capture the moment I was waiting for the presence of the sunset. His name is Ari, a faculty with me, he's a little bit of a whimper for girls on campus. Usually he put on a cold and serious face, but the person is friendly and kind if you already know very well.

"Dad!!" I waved at him with his hands focused on the camera

"..." - ".Ari turned with a slightly pouted face

"Please photoin.." I said while posing cutely.

Ari aimed her camera at me, and smiled smugly looking at the results of her shots. I walked up to him to see how my face looked there.

"Beautiful.. I like it! sendin' ya!" my door without taking my eyes off the small screen that showed my face

"send what app?" he said and made me look at his face

"Wear it simple!" I pulled out the phone in my jacket pocket

after exchanging wa numbers, Ari immediately sent it to my phone and in that minute too, I made a photo wallpaper in front of the phone. After thanking me I immediately went after the Goddess who called me. The goddess was busy cooking noodles for both of us, I who was not really hungry even became hungry when the smell of noodles came out through my life.