You Who I Miss

Still Care

My head hurts when I open my eyes. I saw the wall clock showing at seven in the morning. I was finally able to sleep, after Kikky came at dawn to my room. She accompanied me while telling me about a funny thing until I fell asleep. Although I slept for only three hours, it was enough for these eyes, thoughts and feelings to rest for a while.

I saw that Dea was no longer next to me. Maybe he went for breakfast. Slowly I wake up. But my head hurts. I'll go to the dinner table for breakfast.

There's Dad, Mom, Dea, Kikky, Andi and Iqbal.

"I woke up" said my mother. I smiled, then I sat down next to Andi. Just now, I'm sitting down. Iqbal suddenly stood up.

"I'm done with auntie" she told Mom.

"Yes." said Mother. Then Iqbal left. I'm silent.

It pains my heart with the uncaring attitude of Iqbal. I don't want Iqbal to keep being that cold to me. But, how, I got Iqbal's sorry back. Iqbal doesn't even want to see me. Not even smiling. I don't think I'm strong there. I want to cry.

"Dad, too, I have a job in the office here" said Dad.

"Dad go first" said Dad.

"Yes, dad." said Mom, kissing the back of Dad's hand. Then Dad kissed my head as it passed me.

"Dad go to work first son." Dad told me.

"Yes." I said.

"Be careful" said Andi.

"Yes." Yeah."

Then dad left.

***

Around 1pm. I sat on the porch, aloof while enjoying this silence and feeling of the heart. I didn't have a chance to talk to Iqbal. He always dodged me. My hope collapsed immediately, as Iqbal closed the door to his room in front of me. He seems to not care about me anymore. Dea and Kikky tried to help, but nothing came of it.

Andi then came and sat down next to me. I don't know if Andi knows anything yet about my problem. But, I think Dea and Kikky told him everything.

"Rissa." call Andi. I'm silent.

"You're not pa-pa ris." asked Andi. I shook my head.

"Kikky and Dea have a ris story" said Andi.

"In my opinion, you no longer need to relate to Iqbal, and Dicky you also have to forget him, because of them you can not sleep last night, right, grim crying" said Andi.

"What do I do?" I said.

"There I am, there is Kikky too, we can take care of you, for you to be cool." said Andi.

"Until when?." I asked.

"Hmm, see you later" Andi said. I'm just smiling.

"From just sitting like this, we play yuk" said Andi.

"Main what?" I said.

"The chase." said Andi.

"Don't want to, again males, I want to sit down." I said.

"Where, we eat meatballs" said Andi. I shook my head.

"My head hurts" I said.

"Sick, rest there" Andi said. I shut up while leaning my head on Andi's shoulder.

"I'm evil, same as Iqbal" I said. Andi silence.

"He was disappointed with me" I said again.

"Udah, don't think about it anymore, he said he had a headache" said Andi.

Then I saw Iqbal leaving. I don't know where to go.

"Iqbal, where are you going?" I said. Silent IQbal. Then he left.

"You come along" I said. I also followed him.

"Rissa." call Andi. But, I did not pay attention to it. Fortunately Andi did not follow me.

I continued to follow Iqbal while calling out his name. But, Iqbal seemed deaf to call me. As if I didn't exist. He kept walking regardless of me behind him. I'm sad.

My eyes became blurred, because of my tears. I think my head is getting sick. Even so, I continued to walk after Iqbal. I have to get on with him. I don't want to be far from Iqbal.

"Iqbal, stop." I said. Iqbal kept going.

"Go home ris" he said.

"Follow." I said.

I stopped my steps, when the pain in my head was very painful. I don't think I can walk anymore. Iqbal did not expect to stop. He turned and looked at me.

"I want to come." I said slowly. Iqbal silently looked at me.

Honestly, I can't stand anymore. My feet are trembling. I also dropped my body. I'm sitting limp on the asphalt road.

"Rissa" said he anxiously. Iqbal came straight to me. Her cold hands checked my temperature.

"You still care, I'm happy" I said. Silent IQbal. With a smile I touched his face. He hugged me tightly too.

"Sorry" he said. My tears fell immediately.

"I'm sorry." I said too. Iqbal smiled as he rubbed my face.

"We go home" he said. I shook my head.

"You take a walk." I said.

"Tomorrow" he said. I'm silent.

"Tomorrow, we go for a walk, we go home first, rest" he said. I also nodded.

"Come." he said.

Iqbal helped me stand up. Then he led me slowly towards the house.

***

Arriving home. I saw Dea, Andi and Kikky sitting on the floor. They were worried to see me limp like this. Then they rushed to me.

"Why rissa?." asked Dea. Iqbal just kept quiet.

"Rissa, you're not pa-pa, you're pale" said Kikky worriedly.

Then, suddenly Andi carried me bridal style. Directly take me to my room.

"Ndi, I'm not pa-pa" I said. Andi doesn't mind me.

"Tante tiya, rissa is sick." cried Andi before entering the room.

I heard my mother's voice coming from the kitchen, but I'm not sure what she said. I think Mom's worried about my situation.

Andi laid my body on the bed. He took off my flat shoes. Dea, Kikky and Iqbal also went to the room. Then my mother came. Anxiously, Mom checked my temperature with her hands.

"Rissa why." asked Andi my mother.

"His head is dizzy" said Andi.

"Dizziness?" said my mother to me. I'm nodding.

Mom took the eucalyptus oil on the table next to my bed. Mom also gently rubbed my head.

"Mom get a headache medicine ya." said Mother.

"No ma'am, Rissa wants to sleep" I said. Mother breathed.

"Yes, now Rissa rest" said Mother. I'm nodding.

Mom confirmed the position of my head. Then covers.

"Please buddyin Rissa ya." said Mother to all.

"Yes aunty." answered Kikky. Then my mother left.

Iqbal wants to get close to me. However, Andi pulls Iqbal and takes him away from the room. I was worried, afraid they both fought. But, Kikky and Dea prevented me.

"Don't ris." said Kikky.

"Later they fight." I said.

"Will not." said Kikky. I'm silent.

"Believe me, let's go to sleep, rest" said Kikky, confirming my blanket.

Then Kikky came out. While Dea climbed onto the bed, she lay down while hugging me. Accompanying me with my anxious thoughts with them.

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