You Who I Miss

Possessiveness

Tomorrow. As usual, every Sunday, I have an English course schedule. I went to the course place in between by Dad. There I have a friend who is quite familiar, his name is Arya. He is handsome and also good at English. Sometimes I ask him for help when I have trouble pronouncing English vocabulary. Iqbal knew about Arya, I told him the same story, so he didn't misunderstand our friendship at the course.

After the course, I waited for Iqbal to pick me up. I waited for him in the parking lot as usual. I don't know why Iqbal came that day. I called him, he said he was on the road. But, fifteen minutes I waited, he wasn't there yet either. I'm worried, maybe Iqbal's in trouble. When I was busy calling Iqbal. Arya suddenly came towards me.

"Not picked up his girlfriend yet." said Arya. I smile.

"Yes, it's still on the road" I said.

"Oh, you want to be with me." said Arya.

"Don't pa-pa thank you, Iqbal dateng again really." I said.

"Oh ok." said Arya.

"I'll keep you company until your girlfriend comes, yeah" he said.

"That you don't have a show." I asked.

"Nothing" he said.

"But later I'll be happy, you go home, I don't pa-pa here" I said.

"Just relax Ris, I'm just your nemenin" he said. I smile.

"Yes" I said.

While waiting for Iqbal, I talked a lot with Arya, not important. But, enough to cheer me up. Chat with Arya feel time is rolling quickly. I didn't even know Iqbal had come with his motorcycle.

"Tuh, his girlfriend has come." said Arya. I smile.

"Yes, I'm gone." said Arya.

"Well" I said before Arya left.

I'm approaching Iqbal right away. I smiled at Iqbal. But he didn't return my smile. He just silently looked at me with a difficult look to interpret.

"Why is he the same?" he asked a second after I was in front of him.

"She's just me." I said.

"Yes, why do you have to be with him, your other friends will be there" he said.

"No bales, they're home" I said.

"You're why." I said.

"Next week you don't need another course" he said. I'm shocked.

"You're so bal." I said.

"Yes why, he should not be the one who nemenin you earlier" he said firmly.

"Bal, I told you that Arya is just a friend" I said.

"That's you, what if he doesn't, he's definitely nagging you more than you, I never liked him" he said.

"You why the hell, I'm the same, you don't believe me." I said.

"Not that ris, I just don't want to see you with her" he said. I'm silent.

"Ok." said Iqbal, calming himself down.

"Sorry Ris, I don't mean it like that" she said. I'm silent.

"I'm sorry" he said, holding my hand.

"Yes." I said slowly.

"We go home" he said. I just nodded.

That is Iqbal's attitude which is more pronounced possessive than jealousy. If you are aware, Iqbal's possessive attitude has been since SD. All the boys in my class didn't dare approach me, even if it was just to ask about homework. Including Kelvin who at that time liked me. He never showed up in front of me again, let alone bother me. And Riko, what a mistake he made, he just waved to me and Iqbal's response was exaggerated.

When Junior High was the same, I had no other guy than him. Even to gather the same friends of me who are girls, must be cemented with him. I think it's natural, I'm his girlfriend. Who wouldn't be jealous if he saw his girlfriend again with someone else. There is no.

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After the course. I took Iqbal to his house. In my heart, I don't want to go anywhere anymore. My mood just disappeared after Iqbal said nothing about Arya. I think I'd like to go home if I don't remember any schoolwork to collect tomorrow. I had to go to Iqbal's house to do schoolwork with him. Actually, if he wants, he can tell me to do his schoolwork. But, she didn't want to, she'd rather ask me to teach her to do her schoolwork.

"Ehhh there is Rissa" said the aunt Goddess when she saw me coming. I smile.

"Assalamualaikum aunt." I said, kissing her hand. Iqbal.

"Walaikumsalam" said aunt Dewi.

"Yes aunty." I said.

"Yes mama siapi snack for you" said aunt Dewi. I smiled before the Aunt Goddess left.

"Let's ris, we learn it in my room" he said. I'm nodding.

Her room. Me and Iqbal again work on the task while sitting on the floor accompanied by cakes, chips and orange syrup made by Aunt Dewi. While Iqbal and I were busy looking for answers to our duties. My phone is ringing. That's a chat notification from my classmate. He asked me about schoolwork. As a good friend, I responded.

"For who's the same chating" he said.

"Dito, it's a task." I said.

"It's a task, at most he's a mode, let's get along with you" he said.

"Bal, he's our classmate, you know he is." I said.

"This is your phone" he said.

"What do you want?" I said.

"here" he said.

"No." I insisted.

"This is not your phone" he said.

"Don't want bal." I said.

"RISSA." snapped. I'm silent. Iqbal took the cell phone out of my hand.

"Bal, what do you want." I said. He didn't answer. He checked the contents of all the chats on my phone.

"There's no bal in my phone" I said. Iqbal did not answer.

I was upset, I immediately wanted to snatch the phone from his hand. Yeah, his name's Iqbal too, he won't give it. The action to seize the mobile phone also occurred.

"This is not" I said while trying to take the phone from Iqbal's hand.

"No." he said.

"Siniin bal." I said.

"Stop ris, don't make me sick to you" he said.

"Keep you want me how." I said. I cry instantly. I no longer know how to deal with Iqbal's possessiveness.

"Kok nangis" he said.

"You have been angry since I continue" I said while crying. Iqbal sighed and then he hugged me. He tried to calm me down.

"Sit here" he said, sitting me by the bed. Iqbal knelt in front of me while holding my hand. I just kept staring at him while crying.

"I'm telling you this so you're not disturbed by the guy who wants to hurt you, I love you" he said.

"Yes, I know, but this is no way." I said.

"You're too possessive of me." I said again.

"I'm sorry" he said. I'm silent.

"I'm sorry I'm ris." he said.

"Sorry" he said again.

"Yes." I said slowly. He smiled and hugged me again. I returned his embrace.

"Don't think about bales anymore, I don't like them" I said in her arms.

"Yes ris." he said.

"Don't cry anymore" he said, wiping away my tears.

"Sun" said. I smiled as I closed my eyes as Iqbal's lips touched mine.

"Haha."

"That's dong, this is Rissa" he said, pinching my nose.

More than anything else, his attitude is the same as mine. Iqbal isn't evil, he's got a good girlfriend for me. Angry at him, he would never abuse me. Especially if I cry in front of him. He's gonna try to make me laugh.

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