You Who I Miss

Disconnecting

Tomorrow. I went to school with Iqbal. As usual I hugged him on the bike while enjoying the cool breeze on a sunny morning, like I felt this.

"Your job is done, right?." I asked.

"It's work with you" he said.

"Haha."

"Such a cake" he said.

"Yes, because I'm the same as you." I said.

"Haha."

"Have you had breakfast?." I asked.

"Not yet" he said.

"Why haven't you had breakfast?." I asked.

"Hurry up" he said.

"Let's stop by the new cafeteria for class" I said.

"You haven't had breakfast yet" he asked.

"Udah." I said

"Why go to the cafeteria" he said.

"Kan, you haven't had breakfast, you'll be sick, who will take care of me" I said.

"Haha."

Arriving at school. Iqbal told me to go to the cafeteria first. He wants to meet his friends first. There is business, he said. I don't know what business he's talking about. I don't want to interfere with his business either. I'd better go to the cafeteria and order some food for my dear boyfriend.

"For the bik." I said to bik Iyah. One of the merchants in the school cafeteria.

"Ehh, neng Rissa, morning is also neng" he said. I smile.

"Tumben early in the morning to the cafeteria" he said.

"Yes, Iqbal hasn't had breakfast" I said.

"Oh, his girlfriend is a big fan of that case, yes" he said. I smile.

"Yes bik." I said.

"What do you want to order?." asked Bik Iyah.

"Sit down." I said.

"1 portion yes neng" he said.

"Hem, 2 years old, Rissa is still a laper, hehe" I said.

"Ok ready to neng, sit down first aja later bibik anterin" he said.

"Ok bik." I said.

While waiting for Iqbal and the rice came. I sit down while playing with my phone. My eyes accidentally saw Dito. He walked towards me while waving his hands at me. I pretended not to see it. I'm not good with him.

After yesterday's incident. All the male contacts on my phone including Dito are blocked with Iqbal. Except Dad's contact, my cousin's Kikky guy, Andi and her contact. If it's like this, what else can I do, other than avoid.

"Ris." said Dito as he stood in front of my desk.

"Huh, Dito." I said pretending not to be aware that he was coming.

"What's wrong?." I asked

"Ris, your number can not be contacted yes, I chat you also do not bales-bales, why?" said Dito. I kept quiet for a while looking for an excuse.

"Hem, yes, my quota is up, I forgot to buy." I said. Dito looked at me in disbelief.

"But other kids can get in touch with you" said Dito. I'm silent.

"Or my number on the block" said Dito.

"I'm going to use the school wifi, this I can just play sosmed." I said.

"Udah ris, don't lie, I know my number on the block" said Dito while sitting on the bench in front of me.

"Sorry dit." I said.

"Iqbal must have blocked my number" said Dito. I'm silent.

"You why the hell is still the same Iqbal, he's been nagging you, jealous, he's not good for you, ris." said Dito. I raised my eyebrows looking at him.

"He also often participates in brawls, likes to make trouble at school, why don't you guys drop out."

"What do you mean?." I asked.

"I'm just saying that Iqbal is not good for you" Dito said.

"Iqbal is good, yes I know Iqbal likes to fight, likes to brawl, but he never made trouble at school if no one bothers him first" I said annoyed.

"Ris, you don't know how he is, he likes to fight, hit people, later you are also the target, I worry about you" said Dito.

"I know what Iqbal looks like, I've known him from me as long as I'm with him, he's never hit me" I said.

"Yes, but for a long time you will be the target object" said Dito.

"Udah deh dito, you why the hell, tell me to break up with Iqbal" I said.

"I just don't want you to get hurt" Dito said.

"Just dito, mending you go, Iqbal come here again" I said.

"I'm just warning you, be careful" Dito said. Then he left.

I can finally breathe. I'm upset with Dito who's vilifying Iqbal. Who is not angry, if his girlfriend in jeleki-jeleki others. Especially if the guy just knew. I know better what Iqbal is. He was my childhood friend. So other people who just knew him have no right to say that Iqbal is evil.

"Sorry old dear." said Iqbal who just came. He sat in front of me.

"No pa-pa" I said.

"I just met Dito, did he find you here." asked Iqbal. I'm nodding.

"Ngapain?." asked Iqbal.

"There's nothing" I said with a smile.

"Eh, that's the food already coming" I said when I saw the bik Iyah came with two dishes of rice sitting.

"Sorry aunt a little long" said bik Iyah.

"Yes bik, no pa-pa, thank you bik." I said.

"Still make." said Iqbal.

"Sama-sama" said bik Iyah.

"Bibik stay first yah." said bik Iyah.

"Yes bik." I said. Bik Iyah also left.

"You said you had breakfast?" asked Iqbal.

"Yes, but it's still laper, hehe" I said. Iqbal smile.

***

During the break. I sat alone in class. All my friends went out. It was just me and my phone accompanying me. Iqbal is out. Where not. Maybe meet with his friends.

I hungry. But, I went to the cafeteria again. Usually I go to the cafeteria with Iqbal, eat meatballs. Unfortunately Iqbal does not exist. I don't want to go to the cafeteria by myself. And meet again with Dito and talk about the no-no about my boyfriend. Dito was my classmate, but in class he didn't have a chance to talk to me because Iqbal was always near me. That's good, so I don't have to hear any nonsense from him.

When I'm cool with the silence in class. Suddenly my friend Novi came in a hurry.

"Why Nov." I said astonished to see it.

"Ris, Iqbal fought with Dito in the field" said Novi. I'm shocked.

"What." I said. I immediately ran towards the field with Novi.

All the kids were watching the fight. Iqbal's friends and some teachers tried to break up Iqbal and Dito who were punching each other. Their clothes are messy. Both of their faces were bleeding. I rushed through the crowd to stop Iqbal.

"Iqbal." I shouted. I pulled and held the arm of Iqbal who still wanted to punch Dito. So did Dito.

"Iqbal has been." I said. Iqbal looked at me for a moment.

"Udah." I said slowly. Iqbal's emotions slowly ransacked.

Simultaneously, Iqbal and Dito were immediately taken to the teacher's room. No one can come in but me. Several children crowded in front of the teacher's room to peek at what was happening inside the teacher's room.

I stood next to Iqbal sitting with my hand held tightly by Iqbal. Dito sat in another chair. Some teachers seem dizzy, with today's events. Including the principal, Mahmud.

"What is this really about?" asked Mahmud.

"Dare to disturb him, I beat him to death!" Iqbal said. Dito bowed his head.

Iqbal said what. I don't know. He's it's me. What I do. Dito bothers what. I'm rattled.

"Why bal." I told Iqbal. Silent IQbal.

"What is this Rissa, can be explained by the father" said Mr Mahmud. I'm silent. What should I explain, I just don't know.

"Don't ask him sir, he doesn't know anything" Iqbal told Mahmud.

"Ask the dog" said Iqbal, staring intently at Dito. Dito was silent.

"Iqbal." I said as I moved my hand. Iqbal looked towards me. I shook my head, hinting him that he should not speak rudely in front of the teacher.

"I want to go home!" said Iqbal, standing up from his seat.

"Come ris." he said. Iqbal then left while continuing to hold my hand.

No one's trying to prevent Iqbal. I don't feel good about teachers with Iqbal's attitude. I don't even know what problem he has with Dito. And why is there me. What my relationship with them is fighting.

"Bal." call me. He stopped and turned to look at me.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"I should have asked that" I said.

"What's up?." I asked.

"I love you Ris" he said.

"Yes bal, I know, but why fight with Dito" I said.

"You don't have to know" he said.

"Why?" I said. Silent IQbal.

"I know you don't like Dito, but you don't have to fight bales" I said.

"I will not hit people, if the person is not looking for because first" he said.

"Don't tell me you hit him with jealousy" I said.

"Yes, it's only natural that I'm jealous, you're my boyfriend" she said.

"We have agreed bal, do not discuss this problem anymore" I said.

"You took him away" he said.

"I don't think she's bal." I said.

"I want to protect you from the macem, you never pay for the ris, everyone knows, I'm jealous, I like to hit people, I love you, I can't do this, that" he said.

"I'm also horrified, people say to you, break up with me" he said.

"Not that bal, how do you talk about it" I said.

"You must think that our relationship is wrong, you want to break up with me, right" he said.

"Kok, you say that" I said with tears in my eyes that soon wanted to come down.

"You really want to break up with me, yes" he said.

"Now, you are free, do what you like" he said.

My tears fell. It was so painful to hear Iqbal say that. I have no intention of breaking up with him the same time.

"You're bad, bal." I said. I'll leave Iqbal soon.

When I left Iqbal didn't call me let alone hold me back from leaving. He really wanted to break up with me. I didn't expect Iqbal to be like this.

Iqbal, though,

Do you realize, these words of yours are much more painful than a blow to my body! Sick bal! Heart hurts!

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