You Who I Miss

Iqbal's sick

After yesterday. I thought Iqbal wouldn't show himself in my house. But when I'm ready to go to school. I saw Iqbal with his motorcycle in front of my house from behind the window. He's waiting for me.

I really want to go to school with him. I want to hug her again. I miss him as much as he does. I also kept thinking about Iqbal's situation. Honestly, I won't be able to just forget about it and erase the best moments I had with Iqbal.

It made me depressed, feeling so helpless, feeling restless, confused, and always wondering if I would ever go back with Iqbal?. I know, I'm not dating her anymore. But, I still hope that at least I can still continue being with him just as a friend. And maybe that's what Iqbal is doing. Wish I could be my friend.

Iqbal, though,

Sorry, I don't want to see you, I just need time for all this.

I took my shoes and then I went to Andi's room. Fortunately, the door to his room was not locked. I'm going straight in. I saw Andi still sleeping on his stomach. I sat on the edge of his bed.

"Andi." I said, shaking his body.

"And wake up." I said. Andi stays with her position. I hugged Andi who was still asleep.

"Andi." I said right in his ear.

"Hem" said.

"Anterin me to school" I said.

"It's not that you were ushered in with your father" Andi said with closed eyes.

"Yes, but outside Iqbal, I don't want to see him" I said. Andi silence.

"Andi." I said. Andi just kept quiet. Feeling Andi sleeping again, I cried.

"Ck, yes yes." Andi said.

"Awas, wake up ris, heavy" said Andi. I lifted my body and Andi slowly woke up. He sat facing me.

"Go with your father, yes, I'm still sleepy" said Andi wanted to sleep again.

"Aahh, come on." I said whining while pulling his hand. Andi grunted in annoyance.

"Ck, yes wait a moment, I wash my face first." said Andi as he moved away.

***

After Andi gets ready. We went to the kitchen for permission before going to school. There are already fathers, mothers, grandmothers, Aunt Yuli and Om Adam, Aunt Maya and Om Arman, Dea, Anggun, Lia, and Kikky, who again have breakfast.

"For all." said Andi.

"Tumben you wake up early" said om Arman.

"Yes pa, Rissa wants anterin to go to school" Andi said as she took the bread from her kikky hand and ate it.

"It's my turn to ask for anterin school, you never want to" Dea said.

"You're waking up I don't use the show hit me with a pillow while screaming everything, not nothing has made people sprained, if rissa is not." said Andi.

"Pick for me." said Dea.

"Nobody is picky" Andi said as she ruffled Dea's hair.

"Ihh." said Dea annoyed.

"You never change" said Grandma.

"Haha."

"Let's go Andi, later." I said.

"Yes, come on." said Andi.

"But through the back." I said.

"Why?." asked Mom.

"There's an Iqbal in front, I don't want to see him" I said.

"Your class must also meet." said Anggun.

"Find me first ris, pity." said Dea. I'm silent.

"Udah, justin." said Dad.

"Hem, the problem of love is difficult to face" said Om Adam.

"Haha."

"Come andi." I said.

"But my bike is in front" Andi said.

"Nih." said Kikky while putting the motor key on the table.

"Pake my bike, my bike's on the side." said Kikky.

"What do you wear to school?" asked Lia.

"Nih, don't forget the gasoline" said Andi threw the key to Kikky. Kikky caught him.

"Ck, yes." said Kikky.

"Let's go." said Andi while taking the key to Kikky's motorcycle on the table.

"Mother Rissa left first yes, father." I said while kissing the hands of Father and mother.

"Yes dear." said Mother. I also kissed the hands of grandma, Aunt Yuli and Om Adam, Aunt Maya and Om Arman. So did Andi.

"Be careful" said Grandma.

"Yes nek." said me and Andi. We both left.

"Don't speed andi." cried Aunt Maya.

"Ok mah." said Andi.

In my heart, I actually don't have the heart with Iqbal. He must have been waiting for me a long time. But, I avoided it instead and preferred to go to school with Andi.

I feel guilty for leaving him. He didn't even know I was going to school. I kept thinking about Iqbal all the way. Until I didn't even realize I was at the school gate.

"Such a prick." I said as I got off the bike.

"Yes, I pulled it out." said Andi.

"Go home, right" I said.

"Yes, I want to sleep again, still sleepy" said Andi.

"Haha."

"Bah ris." said Andi.

"Bah." I said. Andi passed away on his bike.

When I want to walk in. Suddenly someone held my hand and pulled my hand against it. My eyes caught the figure of the person who had been in my mind. She smiled at me.

"Iqbal." I said. I have to how now the man is in front of me.

"Ris, who are you at school with?" he said.

"It's none of your business" I said as I let go of my hand. I walked in immediately too. However, Iqbal blocked my path.

"Wait for ris" he said.

"What else is it?" I said.

"I just want to tell you, today there is a school attribute check" he said.

"I know." I said.

"Where is your tie?" he asked.

Well, I forgot again. I left my chest in Andi's room. I'm definitely punished this time.

"Wear mine" he said, releasing the tie he was wearing.

"No need" I said. However, Iqbal paid no heed to me, he put that tie on me.

"You'll be punished if you don't wear a tie" I said.

"No pa-pa, the important thing is not you" he said. I'm silent.

"Come on, come on in." she said with a smile.

I really feel guilty about Iqbal. With my attitude towards him, he still cares about me. I'm the bad one with him. With bad feelings for him. I walked in and passed the teacher who was doing the school attribute examination. While Iqbal was detained by the teacher and told to stand joined by children who did not wear full attributes.

***

In class. I can't calm down. My thoughts continued to Iqbal who had not yet entered the classroom. I can't focus on studying at all. I asked the teacher for permission to go to the toilet. You guys know, I lied. I don't go to the toilet. But, I went to the ceremonial court to see Iqbal.

From far away I saw Iqbal standing respectfully in front of the flagpole with the other children. Weather today in the heat. I know, Iqbal often gets this kind of punishment. It's normal for him. But, this time, Iqbal looks different. He's not like he used to be. Lips pale. Iqbal seems to be less healthy. I'm worried, it's because of me. Sometimes Iqbal wiped the sweat off his forehead.

Iqbal accidentally saw me. He smiled at me. I just kept quiet and walked away from there. For a moment I put my foot up. Suddenly I heard the children calling Iqbal's name. I'm turning. I was shocked to see Iqbal had fallen.

"Iqbal." I said worriedly.

Really, my guilt is so great on him. I didn't even have the courage to approach him back then. Besides being silent in my place while looking at her that the children brought to the UKS.

After my courage is gathered. During the break, I met Iqbal with my lunch box. I want to give it to Iqbal as an apology. And maybe my guilt will decrease.

Slowly I opened the door of the UKS. I saw Iqbal again sitting leaning back. Again he smiled at me. For some reason, every time I saw him smile my heart ached, felt tight. I was so mean in front of him.

"Ris, let's go inside" he said with a smile.

"Yes." I said. I walked slowly closer to him.

"You." I said doubtfully.

"Eh, you" I said.

"I'm not pa-pa ris" he said with a smile.

"Let's sit here" he said, telling me to sit on the bed. I just nodded and obeyed.

Iqbal kept smiling at me. Meanwhile, I just kept quiet while looking at him guiltily. I feel like crying right now. I really wasn't strong in front of him.

"So, just be quiet" he said.

"What did you bring?" he asked.

"Bread filled with chocolate, the mother who made it." I said as I opened my lunch box.

"Wow, it's a good one" he said.

"You want to?." I asked.

"You want, you're a bribe" he said.

I just nodded. With my trembling hands. I took some bread and fed it to Iqbal.

"I went to your house this morning" he said. I kept quiet while feeding Iqbal the bread.

"The plan anyway, want to take you to go together to school, but you already left" he said. I was silent while holding back my tears that were about to come out.

"Say your father, you go in between, you go through where, I don't see, when early in the morning I'm at your house" he said.

"YOU CAN BE SILENT." I said. Iqbal. I cried while looking down in front of him.

"Sorry." I said. Silent IQbal.

"I'm sorry bal." I said.

"Why sorry, I was wrong to say yes, I'm sorry I'm sorry" he said. I shook my head.

"Son, I'm wrong, I'm evil with you" I said with a cry.

"Kalo tie I do not miss at home, you will not be punished kayak earlier, because I also you become sick like this, I am evil as you bal." said I with a cry. Iqbal hugged me tightly.

This hug, I miss him so much. Hugely. I was glad to be able to hug her again. So happy that I don't want it to end. I don't care about the cctv in the UKS room. I don't care either, if suddenly a teacher comes and catches us. I just care about this warm hug I won't let go.

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