Ustadz Dream

Chapter 16

Joseph immediately went to the room and laid down his body he was quite tired of everything that happened.

''I was really disappointed with Nadia's attitude but it was not Nadia who I knew from the first he never spoke rudely let alone to behave that he should not do, he said, but what's right with all these decisions.''

Yusuf took a rough breath of his chaotic mind he really loved Syifa but he also loved Nadia, Nadia who was always by his side like her own sister he did not want to hurt Nadia. ''but what I have to do is impossible I chose Syifa and disappointed Nadia.''

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Syifa's shadow whimpering in pain continued to ring in Hanif's mind rendering him out of concentration.

''Astagfirullah why do I always think of Syifa, what is it because my sin has touched it? But I really don't intend that I just want to help him.''

Hanif immediately rushed to class because there was a class waiting for him.

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Joseph, who had calmed down a little, went down to the madrassa, but he saw Syifa who might return to his room.

''Shyifa?'' Joseph immediately quickened his pace.

Syifa, who was only looking at Joseph, was so afraid of what happened to him this afternoon.

''What's up?'' Syifa asked with trembling.

''You've improved? You better rest here first, said Yusuf who saw Syifa's condition has not improved he also saw a slap on the cheek of Syifa that is still clearly visible.

''Alhamdulillah Ustadz I'd better go back to the room.'' Syifa replied, who started walking.

''Shyifa?''

Syifa who just stood up she did not turn her head at all and answered not even.

''Syifa why are you avoiding me?''

Syifa was just speechless she ventured to express all her feelings.

''Ustadz, I'm sorry I couldn't accept Ustadz's proposal.''

''Why Syifa? Why can't you accept my proposal Syifa? do you already have another man?'' joseph asked with a sigh.

Joseph's question was so clear in Syifa's ear that he incised a deep wound. ''Why does Ustadz say that when not the slightest bit of this heart gives love to others.'' Lirih Syifa was unable to reveal it.

''I'm not the right woman for Ustadz to make a wife, because there are women who really love Ustadz I apologize.'' Syifa ran out before her tears were completely shed in front of Joseph.

Joseph who realized that he was just breathing long he knew his feelings very well but his heart was very sick when someone he loved was hurt by it.

Syifa immediately ran to his room his heart was very sick but maybe this is better he did not want if he was stamped as a usurper, she locked her room and cried she really missed her father and mother, but she didn't want her father and mother to know this matter maybe her father and mother would be very worried.

''I will never disappoint you, I will be more active in learning father I forgive Syifa.'' Syifa who was not constantly crying made her eyes slightly swollen and she fell asleep.

Joseph who heard clearly what Syifa said was very unexpected even when he expected his love to be avenged.

''Perhaps this is a rebuke from You, O Allah, I hope to Your creatures, truly sinful servants forgive O Allah.''

Hanif who had just come he saw his best friend who was daydreaming he knew because of what Joseph daydreamed.

Hanif came up to him and patted him on the shoulder.

''Just relax, everything will be fine.''

''If I could turn the clock I wouldn't be this reckless.'' Joseph let out a long breath he felt very guilty.

''Everything is our destiny just to live it, you leave everything to our owner insyaaallah everything has its best path.''

Hanif who tried to calm him but in his little heart even though he himself was in a phase that was not much different. Hanif was thinking about how Syifa is now, he did not see Syifa when she was teaching making him think of Syifa.

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Tok....

Arin knocked on the door of the locked room.

''Maybe Syifa is sick?'' Tanya desi who is worried not usually Syifa is sick does not tell them.

''I don't know but he was all right this afternoon.'' Arumi.

''Syifa, open the door! you're inside, right?'' Arin is impatient.

Tok.tok...

Arin knocked on the door of his room.

Syifa who had just woken up from her sleep was shocked because of the knock on the door that was quite hard she immediately ran towards the door.

''Awhile!''

''You guys are home yet? Sorry I overslept, replied Syifa who was about to return to her bed.

''Astagfirullah Syifa.'' Arin shuts his mouth and doesn't believe what he saw.

Syifa who just realized he was trying to turn his face, he forgot the bruise on his face was still not healed.

While Arumi and Desi looked at each other, they could not understand why Syifa's face was blue-blue like a slap that was hard enough.

''I fell, '' answered Syifa who lied he did not want if his friends misjudged Syifa as good as Nadia according to him let it be his own business.

''You lied!'' Arin turned Syifa's body upside down he could not believe the words of his friend.

''You lied Syifa, where there was a mark of fall but the wound on the right and left cheek even the corner of your lip was clearly hurt! who do you think we are? You consider us strangers to you, huh?'' Arin who was disappointed because Syifa seemed to cover his own burden he did not expect if Syifa experienced the bad thing alone.

''Let's calm rin.'' Desi clasped Arin's hand intending to leave the room.

''Let me out! I consider you my own family, I wish you guys were like that too, if it's a small matter, okay I can appreciate that maybe it's your privacy, but I don't want it to be like this.'' Arin was sitting on the floor crying because he felt pain to see his own friend experiencing something that he thought was very terrible.

''I'm sorry rin, I don't mean I was like that, '' Syifa cried she felt guilty for wanting to cover it up but not as Arin alleged.

Arumi approaches Syifa and tries to calm her down.

''If you are not ready to share it is okay Syifa, but you should know we will always be there if you need it, we are family.''

A few minutes passed only the silence that filled the small space that made everyone feel frozen, no conversation, no laughter as usual, now they were silent until Syifa opened her voice.

''I'm sorry to all of you, I didn't mean to cover this up all of you but I thought if I covered it it would be better.''

Arin stared indifferently at Syifa he did not want to listen to what Syifa said.

''If you are not ready to tell a story, we understand, we will try to understand your position.

Syifa felt that there was no point in hiding everything anymore the most important thing now was their friendship.

Syifa also told me everything that Syifa did not cover even when he was in the arms of Ustadz Hanif who helped him but after that he was unconscious and he realized at the house of ummi and even Syifa he also told him about Ustadz Yusuf's proposal.

Syifa fell silent she was unable to say back only tears that represented her feelings.

''We're sorry Syifa, we should be able to understand your situation, we're sorry, they hugged each other to try to calm Syifa.

''It's okay, I'm better now.'' Syifa wiped away her tears.

''Thank God, what will you do now, how will you decide to do with Ustadz Yusuf?''

''I have broken up not to accept his proposal, I do not want my relationship with Ustadz Yusuf will only make the relationship between Ustadz Yusuf and Ustadzah Nadia deteriorate.

''But it is not true Syifa, if indeed you love each other there is no harm if you are together.'' Replied Arin who held back his emotions according to him it was not the right decision.

Syifa was just silent honestly in the bottom of her heart she really loved Ustadz Yusuf but she was very afraid if Ustadzah Nadia did more recklessly.