Ustadz Dream

Chapter 153

This afternoon is not as usual. Syifa, who used to keep herself busy at home, now lives in the garden as she always does in the cottage. Tiredness is now starting to approach him somehow his soul seems very fragile when he hopes to get happiness but now he must accept the reality if the opposite he must feel.

The feeling of tightness that always squeezes his chest as if he never stops the wound that has not been dry because the loss of a baby is not perfect lost at that moment he must be patient to face the reality is very bitter. It is not an easy thing to sincerely live as someone else in front of the most valuable person in his life as impossible.

Syifa is now crying in silence just tears that keep falling in her silence even though occasionally she continues to wipe away the trail of tears hoping that she will be strong to live this life.

Since Syifa was silent in the garden was a pair of eyes full of questions he always noticed her. The same thing he always did as well when he felt he had no spirit.

Slowly Hanif stepped his feet closer to the woman who is still sad until he is now standing behind the woman.

It was very clear that the woman was very deep wounds even her body to the point of shaking.

''Can I sit here?'' asked Hanif to open his voice.

Actually Hanif did not really know the obvious reason why the woman in front of him continued to be patient with her but when he heard Lita's words this morning he became confused himself as if fate said if indeed he lost his memory but why until now he has not been able to know the important things in his life.

Flashbacks.

Early in the morning when Hanif was about to leave he looked so rushed that ummi felt astonished.

''This afternoon we go to the hospital.'' Said Ummi because now his self-control schedule. For two weeks there has been no good news from his son to make the ummi more anxious let alone the attitude of Hanif reluctant close to Syifa even received a greeting mas course Hanif refused his make ummi not bear.

''I'm sorry ummi but there's something important that I have to finish immediately.'' Said Hanif while scooping food into his mouth.

Hanif wants to immediately meet Lita especially now that he has healed his arm he can move back to make Hanif can not delay his intention to propose to Lita.

Hanif immediately left after he finished eating and said goodbye to his parents.

During the trip he could not stop smiling until Hanif reached the hospital where Lita worked.

''Lita?'' Said Hanif when he saw a glimpse of Lita who was walking over to him with a look of surprise because Lita who he saw differently now she was pregnant.

Lita who felt called to him turned her head and smiled towards Hanif.

''Hai han, how are you?'' tanya Lita makes Hanif even more shocked because he asked about the news of things he never did because they always met.

''Are you pregnant?'' hanif asked with tightness in his chest which he now felt how not the woman he remembered as his future wife was now in a big pregnancy.

Lita frowned as she felt astonished but she also thought if Hanif forgot her who was pregnant because the last time she met her stomach was not as distended now.

''Yes han, I am pregnant now I am nine months pregnant.''

Hanif was increasingly shocked to hear the words of the woman in his presence he returned dizzy and even felt very sick to hear Lita's speech.

''Aahhh.'' Hanif said he was holding his head that was getting sicker.

A few seconds later, he collapsed and did not remember anything.

Syifa actually followed where her husband went she was very curious where Hanif would go so early even though in her heart she was disappointed but could not deny she was very fond of the man who now forgot her.

Hanif who was self-conscious now he woke up and sat down occasionally he held his head because he was still dizzy.

Lita smiled at Hanif as the man came to his senses. It appears that Lita is being accompanied by a male doctor there.

''Han, I already know everything from your wife, she followed you and now she is sitting outside. Han I'm just your past even we've been almost five years apart. I'm married and this is Rian, Rian is my husband.'' Say it softly.

Hanif looked at Rian by listening to all the words that came out of Lita's mouth he tried to recall but unfortunately not a single memory appeared.

''Han believes that I am the woman who is with you now she is your wife, the woman you love so much that you can take me off that's the reality of her han and need you to know I love Rian so much he's a good husband as you always say. Thank you for giving me a way to be happy.'' Lita quickly exits Hanif's room with Rian giving Hanif thought of her life.

Hanif who was calmer he came out but when he came out he found Syifa who was anxious with his circumstances without wanting to ask Hanif directly walked away from Syifa and returned home.

A few hours have passed he continues to remember Lita with his words make Hanif more dizzy he intends to go to the park to win himself but without thinking he saw Syifa who is now being grieve.

Flashback.

''Can I sit here?''

Syifa simply nodded with her one hand immediately wiping away the trail of tears that drenched her cheeks.

''I don't know why I'm stuck in a situation like this, especially I haven't remembered who you are yet.'' Hanif opened his voice.

Syifa is still silent her heart still hurts over Hanif's treatment that is always cold to her especially after this morning she followed where her husband went to make Syifa even sadder how not a husband we love so much come near her ex-lover.

''I'm only sorry to you if I hurt you so much but please don't cry anymore.'' Hanif said very quietly.

He did not know who Syifa was but when Syifa cried like before his heart seemed to be pinched somehow he did not know.

Syifa was still silent no word came out of her mouth making Hanif think if this woman still wanted to be alone until finally he decided to get up from his seat to immediately go to the mosque.

Syifa was just staring at Hanif's departure. Not one bit he said his tears spilled back with all his abilities he could not prevent her from stopping crying.

''Just take it out, son, '' Ummi rubbed Syifa's back which continued to tremble due to her cries.

''Ummi.'' Syifa hugged the body of her mother-in-law. Even more sobbing makes Ummi not able to see it.

''You have to be patient and you have to be strong.'' Ummi said as he rubbed Syifa's back.

Syifa took off her arms again and wiped away the tears that had not dried up.

''Syifa cannot be ummi, Syifa is not strong Syifa can not be like this ummi.'' Lirih Syifa with her teardrops.

''You must be strong, dear, ummi is sure you can pass this test,''

But Syifa shook her head she was really very fragile how she could survive whereas Hanif himself just kept away from her.

''There is no test that God gives to his servant beyond the limits of the ability of his servant Syifa, of course you know that, ummi can do nothing but there is not always hope, son, our prayers are not always heard.''

Syifa was silent is indeed true what ummi said although it is true she was desperate but her great hope for Hanif to remember her back.

''Yes ummi,''

Ummi smiled and hugged Syifa again he was very happy to see Syifa sincerely waiting for Hanif with his hopes.

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