Ustadz Dream

Chapter 154

The night was getting late, but the eyes that he had closed had not gone to sleep until Hanif decided to leave his room.

He breathed the night air over the balcony of his room. Hanif circulated his gaze until now his gaze was fixed on the garden he saw the figure of a woman who was now sitting in the dark of the night.

Hanif was a little surprised he immediately went to his room and went down to the bottom of his step faster considering the woman was silent on a night like this until a while he had arrived at the park.

Syifa seemed to be looking up at the sky without a sound even occasionally she closed her eyes.

''Why are you still outside like this, it's already night do you not have time in the day?'' hanif asked while attaching a jacket to the woman's back so as not to get cold.

Syifa gasped even though there was warmth in her she was grateful because at least Hanif cared about her.

''Do you love me?'' tanya Hanif stared at Syifa's innocent face.

Syifa was a little surprised by her husband's words.

''I love you, very.'' Syifa said without knowing her tears fell back.

Hanif wiped the tears of Syifa that fell down her cheeks gently.

''Don't cry anymore, I don't want you to cry anymore.''

Silent immediately Syifa felt very long for a gentle Hanif figure like this in her life again.

''I will accept you back, I will try to remember you again, you want to help me?'' ask Hanif gently.

Somehow seeing Syifa crying like this made Hanif feel so heartbroken inexplicably Hanif did not want to see Syifa cry.

Syifa quickly nodded she was very pleased with Hanif's words to her.

Hanif embraces Syifa he holds her with a feeling that seems familiar Syifa body odor as if familiar in his smell makes Hanif more tightly embrace Syifa.

''Are you right my wife but why can I forget you Syifa, Lirih Hanif slowly made Syifa's tears fall back.

Hanif took off his embrace back he stared inside the figure of Syifa that he had long since let go seeing Syifa back crying Hanif gently wiped his tears that were unceasingly falling.

''I'm sorry I can't remember you yet.'' Hanif said slowly.

Syifa just nodded she herself did not know what to say only tears that continued to flow more and more.

A few minutes had passed only silence enveloped them even though Hanif was hugging Syifa.

''We enter yuk, it is not good to stay outside let alone this is already night.'' Hanif said he woke up soon followed by Syifa.

They walked into the house with steps that go hand in hand until now they were already inside the house again.

Syifa who was about to enter her room now stopped her steps as one hand of Hanif held back her movements.

Syifa turned back her body and looked at Hanif who was staring at her questioningly.

''We can start from the beginning, you promised to help me remember you again.'' Said Hanif reminded while Syifa he was still silent he still did not understand the meaning of Hanif's words.

''We can start from the beginning, you sleep with me back like a wife.'' Hanif slightly eased a smile and again led Syifa's hand to follow in his footsteps.

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Three o'clock in the morning.

Syifa who was used to waking up the night he woke up again but he did not find Hanif who was originally sleeping with him.

Syifa circulated her gaze but she slightly breathed a sigh of relief when she saw Hanif who had just come out of the bathroom.

''Are you awake?'' asked Hanif with a face that was still wet with ablution water.

''Yes mas,'' Syifa said a little awkwardly even though Hanif had given new hope but somehow as if there was a barrier between them made Syifa not completely like before.

''Yes already then we pray together.'' Hanif immediately held a prayer mat for her.

''Your prayer is still in the same place, do you want me to find it?'' hanif asked because he never took out Syifa's personal clothes because ummi asked that Syifa's clothes remain in place there in the hope that one day Hanif would remember Syifa with her clothes.

''Don't let me take it myself.''

Syifa immediately got up from her seat and moved closer to her wardrobe she saw her neatly arranged clothes even there were some baby supplies there that she had bought but she did not have time to dress right on the prospective baby they immediately make Syifa again sad but quickly Syifa shifted her feelings. He could not continue to grieve because there was someone he now had to defend in his life.

Syifa immediately took her face and held a prayer rug behind Hanif.

Syifa who was finished he went to the bathroom to take ablution.

Hanif who saw the departure of Syifa he stared at the prayer mat that had Syifa title up to his fingers he moved to pick up a bead of prayer beads that he was very familiar with.

''Aahh.'' Hanif felt very sick the image of the wounded woman now approaching him even some memories of the woman he had once embraced, she said, the woman who caught his eye reading the book under the shade of the tree was the same woman although it was unclear who the woman was.

''Mas.'' Syifa said as she rubbed the back of Hanif who was holding her head.

''As why?'' Syifa was a little worried because her husband was unceasingly moaning in pain.

''Mas.'' Syifa said back because there was no response until one hand raised as if she was fine.

Syifa immediately took water from the nightstand and gave it to Hanif.

''Be drinking first.'' Pinta Syifa though can not be denied if he is very worried.

Hanif who was already feeling a little better he immediately drank and took a deep breath.

''As why?''

''Why can this prayer be inside your face fold? are you really my wife?'' Hanif held up the prayer beads he was holding.

''Yes mas, mas himself who love me the same when mas proposed me.'' Syifa said sure.

''Do you remember everything?'' Syifa slightly smiled widely at Hanif's question.

Hanif simply shook his head and stuffed the bagbih into his cocoa pocket and immediately stood up.

''We should pray first.'' Hanif immediately woke up and began to pray quickly Syifa also immediately followed the movement of her husband.

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Morning has greeted Syifa is ready with neat clothes he intends to go to the orphanage with Ana as he promised yesterday to Ana he will take Ana to play and take a walk.

Syifa got down from Hanif's room first and went to Ana's room.

''Where is mama bobo?'' asked Ana curious because last night she did not see her mother.

''Mommy in my dear father's room, yes it's Ana now we take a shower later in the afternoon we take a walk okay.''

Syifa immediately prepared Ana's clothes with patience she bathed Ana with warm water until now Ana has finished dressing in her favorite pink dress.

''For grandma's grandchildren.'' Ummi hugged Ana and led Ana to the dining table.

''For grandma.''

Syifa, who was about to follow Ana's steps, was silent when she saw Hanif coming down from her room.

''We eat first mas.'' Syifa smiled towards Hanif who immediately got a smile reply from Hanif.

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''Fa, you don't get too tired, don't run around remembering what the doctor said.'' Said Ummi reminded because Syifa had not long miscarriage Ummi worried if too tired Syifa why-why.

Hanif who heard the words of ummi as if his memory was pulled back to the past made a headache that time before dawn felt now felt back even the pain he now felt was getting firmer.

''Aahhh.'' Hanif's shout made everyone around him feel panicked.

It is her who is in the doorway with a woman

''The first time to go, baby, you are careful at home just as Ana do not run away remember what the doctor said.''

''Mas?''

''Yes dear.''

''I want the porridge,'' The shadow of the whining woman asking her for the porridge returned to her subdued in her memory spoiled she said, Until the woman who ran on the beach happily took pictures of her dancing in her mind made Hanif even more moaning in pain.

''Mas.'' Syifa rubbed Hanif's back which was increasingly shaking due to her pain but with his strength he refused Syifa's help he even had time to push Syifa to make Syifa fall.

''Mother.'' Ana screams because the atmosphere is now starting to be bad for the little girl.

With the pain that Syifa felt she immediately woke up with the help of ummi and switched to hug Ana.

''Aahhhh.'' ''Quiet son.'' Abi Abdullah embraced Hanif and tried to appease Hanif.

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