Ustadz Dream

Chapter 109

There was a sense of awkwardness between them somehow their mouths felt funny just to reveal each other the feelings they now feel.

''I have to go back Ustadz.'' Arumi immediately walked past Ustadz Yusuf who was still silent.

Arumi walked with a step that now felt heavy. He was confused to explain what to his three friends he himself accepted this proposal because he felt he could not refuse the proposal that Ustadz Yusuf gave to him.

Do not ask his heart even now his heart feels frozen somehow he himself does not know love is not an easy thing to express he himself can not accept Joseph because his heart is not able to love Ustadz Yusuf he will only live as God gives life to him. Suppose Ustadz Yusuf is his soul mate he will accept all the possibilities that will happen in his life.

Arumi opened the door slowly, hoping that her three best friends would fall asleep.

Slowly he pushed the door and entered his room like a man who was about to steal because he found his two best friends sleeping while he did not see Syifa at all.

Arumi immediately walked to her bed and laid down her body because she did not want to make her two best friends wake up and tried to close her eyes hoping that tomorrow there would be nothing else in her life.

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''Mas I have to go back.'' Said Syifa because since earlier she chatted with her husband in the barrier by hijab separation for santri and santriwati.

''Yes dear, oh yes mas seems to be back later at dawn because there are needs that must be completed you are okay right?'' hanif asked because he himself actually still wanted to be with his wife but he was also worried if his presence in the cottage made them get suspicious

''It's okay mas.''

''Thank you, Yes, let me deliver to the front like it is now quiet.''

They walked towards a different door and met in front of the courtyard of the mosque.

Hanif smiled again to find Syifa who is now faithful waiting for him.

Hanif walked closer towards Syifa and gently rubbed the top of his head.

''You be careful here you can't meet like you promised.''

''I'm sorry because I don't want people to be suspicious you have to be patient.'' Hanif kissed the back of Syifa's hand and grabbed the small body of his wife.

Syifa was speechless she herself was now feeling sad maybe what Hanif said would happen later. He had to accept that Hanif would rarely visit him.

''Please love you.'' Said Hanif, who kissed Syifa's head because now he saw his wife's tiny body trembling with tears.

Syifa did not reply she just nodded and further tightened her embrace.

A few minutes passed and Syifa took off her arms after she felt calmer.

''Mas should be careful on the road tomorrow.''

Hanif smiled again because he saw his wife's face reddened with tears.

''Yes, dear of course. Yes, you must return to the room immediately.''

Syifa nodded her head and passed from before her husband.

If only he had graduated he would not have had to endure such a heavy longing he only hoped that time would turn around so quickly that he could be reunited with his family.

Syifa stepped her feet towards the room and immediately opened the door that was still not locked.

He enters slowly but he finds Arumi who is now awake from his sleep.

Arumi woke up again because he had not been able to close his eyes because of sleepiness from his eyes as if he had just lost his mind since earlier because he always thought about the proposal he had just received.

Arumi was eager to tell Syifa because she felt bad because she had received a proposal from Ustadz Yusuf even though she already knew that Syifa was married to Ustadz Hanif.

''You haven't slept Arumi?'' ask Syifa because now Arumi is even closer to her mattress.

''You've been crying fa?'' Syifa looked back at Arumi with the smile she displayed.

''You can tell me the same story I fa.'' Arumi said because she knew Syifa would not be able to directly tell her grief.

''No, Arumi I'm just a little tired.'' Syifa said lying because at this time he just wanted to calm his mind which now feels heavy in his field.

Arumi took a deep breath he knew that Syifa was now sad and it was clear that Ustadz Hanif was the reason why Syifa was sad he just wished there were no serious problems between them.

''Yes if you want to rest.'' Arumi returned to his bed he even undoes his intention to recount his engagement to Ustadz Yusuf because he could not possibly tell it now.

Syifa broke her body and turned her gaze away from her best friend she did not want if Arumi saw her grieving.

Syifa stared at her bedroom wall her mind drifting back considering the togetherness of herself with Hanif she desperately wanted to be with she wanted to always be together. Is it not natural for a wife to want to always be next to the man who has now become her husband.

Time had passed by how long Syifa contemplated her life until now she fell asleep. Even his sunnah prayer routine he left because he slept late at night.

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The wind that felt pierced into the skin of his body with the sound of night animals that are now mutually unpretentious fill the silence of the night.

Joseph had been sitting on the balcony of his room since he could not sleep his eyes as if inviting himself to stay awake.

He continued to imagine the face of the woman who has now officially become his future wife. It was as easy as God sent a substitute from a woman who had been halal to his friend by replacing Arumi as his future wife now.

The heart that is now recovering from the wound is now perfectly healed despite one obstacle because he and Arumi have not loved each other. But Joseph will try to accept the presence of Arumi if it is true that he is a match that God gave for him.

Joseph still did not think he himself did not know what would happen in his life.

Joseph only hoped that good will accompany his steps with the pleasure of God who is always with him and Arumi later.

Joseph went back into his room and intending to perform the prayer he wanted to complain his feelings to Khalik hoping God would show him the best way.

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