The Ruler's Love Contract

The Waiting Baby Born

A few hours later...

My contractions were repeated over and over and it felt really amazing. Over and over again I took a deep, deep breath, but the pain was unbearable. Maybe this is what we call fighting with death. Fight hard to win and keep living. A mother's struggle to give birth to her children. Hours of enduring pain just to see a baby born into the world.

Pain during menstruation is nothing when compared to contractions during childbirth. Now I experience it myself that makes sweat pour from the forehead. My husband also seemed unable to see me in pain. He begged me to do a cesarean operation.

"Aakhhhh!"

So hurt. Their thrust on my pelvis made me almost cry feeling it. It was incredible the pressure. Not knowing how I look at my face right now, I don't care anymore. I just want my babies to be safe in the world.

"Darling, the opening is three. We need to act quickly. You must have energy after childbirth." Husband. He looked panicked and could not bear to see me.

Maybe this thing I feel is like a bone being broken at the same time. I cannot describe in more detail how the pain is. It's an incredible struggle.

"Dear, please. Don't waste your energy waiting for the opening. Remember our baby. We have to take care after his birth."

I understand my husband's worries. But I still insist on having a normal delivery. I don't want a cesarean. Even though my body feels weak now.

God, give me the best way to deliver.

My husband has always been faithful to be on the side. We are in the first classroom of RSIA Istanbul, Turkey. While Mom and Sister Jamilah take turns to take care of my husband. Their plan will come tomorrow morning after the dawn prayer. After all, there should not be many people accompanying me in this ward. Jack alone can not come in even if only limited to accompany. He was waiting outside to be with my husband.

"Darling ...."

I held my husband's arm. I clutched his hand. I feel like I have a risk to bear tonight. I was so weak against pain. I can no longer linger like this. I have to save my energy for after labor.

"Yes, Wife. Tell me what you want?" he asked with a face very anxious to see me.

"Excuse me."

Suddenly a nurse came after checking on me. It turned out that every hour he checked my condition without needing to be called again. And now he's coming to check my blood pressure and pulse. My husband gave her room to check. I started to feel helpless.

"The blood pressure is down, sir. The pulse begins to weaken. We recommend that you perform cesarean section immediately before your blood pressure is at a critical threshold. Miss could need a lot of blood transfusions if it keeps waiting and waiting."

The nurse reported. Either scare me or not. Right now I can't be prejudiced against anyone. I have to keep a positive mind so that my heart is calm.

"Can you wait, Sister?" My husband asked worriedly.

The nurse shook her head. "Sorry, Sir. Miss's blood pressure is getting weaker. Even though waiting for normal labor is feared to happen things that are not desirable. We recommend taking action before it is too late. Time will not be able to repeat. Excuse me."

The nun's words certainly made me doubt myself even more. I saw the clock showing at nine o'clock in the evening. I feel like I still want to survive in order to give birth normally. But, I was also unable to feel any longer pain.

I know my husband is so worried. He didn't want me to feel any more pain. I finally tried to break myself up. I'll resign if I have to do the operation. At least I know what contractions feel like. And it was so incredibly painful.

Half an hour later...

The hospital lights were running over me. I myself was taken to the operating room. My husband is still loyal to my side. Jack is accompanying. My husband will accompany me into the operating room. The most expert team of doctors were asked by him no matter how much more expensive the price had to be paid later.

Now my condition is weak. I also try to honor the Creator. If my destiny had to end here, I hope my children would grow up and be proud of us. I'm sure that the day of the meeting will be there even if it's not here. I love them so much.

"The disinterested one please wait outside."

The operating room door is open. I also prayed a lot. I went into the operating room in a drowning state. However, seeing my husband's face on the side it felt like that spirit was flaring up again. I smiled at him too.

"Honey, thank you," I said slowly to him.

"Master, stay with your wife. Don't come here because it will only make it harder for us who work. Pray." The doctor asked my husband to pray.

I'm injected. An injection that was so painful and felt right through my spine. After that I was laid down and asked to imagine beautiful things. Three doctors were deployed with one senior doctor as its leader. I saw that two nurses were also on guard. Cesarean operations will begin soon. I also go to the Creator.

"Dear, I love you."

My husband whispered in these ears. I saw tears in his blue eyeballs. I don't know what happened to my stomach, I can't feel it anymore. I don't feel the contractions anymore. I was a little calm because I was not in pain. But my consciousness will disappear.

"Thank you, honey. I love you too."

Second by second I was in the operating room. Minutes and minutes kept me waiting for news of my baby's birth. I finally heard the doctors praise the Creator. I felt very sleepy at the same time. Looks like the dope has started to work all over my body.

"Master, miss, congratulations."

Those words I heard from a doctor who handled. But I can only nod by closing these eyes. Drowsiness can no longer be restrained. I want to fall asleep. A little sleep to rest my body.

"Miss, look at her son so beautiful and also handsome."

The doctor asked me to look at the two babies who were carried in a pushbasket. However, I couldn't see it more clearly. I can't stand this drowsiness anymore. I want to fall asleep.

My children, welcome to the world, son. Thank you for coming to color our lives.

Their hair is black. Their skin is also white. But unfortunately I couldn't see how the two of them looked. My body can no longer move. But even so, I am very grateful. My life was perfect with their birth. May God bless this process of birth.