The Complicated Love #2

CL - 08. Love is Not Enough

"I think it will be easy, that loving alone is enough..”.

“I have to go now..” Tefan said with his head bowed in the corner of the bed.

“What's up?” I asked to get closer to him.

“Papa knows I'm with you. He was furious and forced me to go home right now. Otherwise he would have leaked everything to Nina.”

“Ta-but how can she know Fan?”

“Papa has already investigated many things about our relationship Riana.” Tefan said with a sad expression.

I've never thought of anything that far, Tefan's parents let alone his father being very serious about what he said. He even hired someone to investigate me and Tefan. Then what's next?

I sat down beside him. It seems to be true, last night was the last night I spent alone with him. What's gonna happen next? Should he and I give up? Because Papa Tefan probably won't give up on our relationship either. I suddenly got dizzy. I couldn't think clearly anymore, my tears were seeping slowly into my cheeks. It's not gonna be easy anymore.

“Alright, you have to leave as soon as possible.” I said withholding my tears from falling more. However I must be prepared for every reality that will be present between my relationship and Tefan.

“You all right? Shouldn't we just go home together?”

“I'm fine Fan. Besides, I'm also taking the car, I still want to be here for a while. I'll be home in the afternoon, I'll finish your stuff. I'll take you to the front.” I try hard, even if it's not easy.

I know Tefan's heart is also heavy to go, how else, he has to go. When I was a kid I saw him get beaten up by his papa just because I played with him. Now I don't know what his dad's gonna do because we're both not just playing but more than that. Someone has to give up, but that doesn't mean giving up.

“Be careful on Fan road. Call when you get to.”

“Daddy, you are also careful here and do not forget later in the afternoon to go home.”

I nodded my head at him, he took one step forward and kissed my forehead for so long.

“I love you..”

I smiled at him, even though it was just a sentence, but I felt my heart warm again.

“I know.” My answer.

Tefan left and I felt empty again. I decided to tour Kawah Putih for a while, just a sport and enjoy the beautiful scenery here. Because it is not a weekend, visitors who come and stay here are not too crowded. Precisely because it is this silence that I love, I do not like places that are too crowded to visit people. I never come to Kawah Putih on weekends, always take a scheduled visit in the middle of the week.

I met some people around here, exchanged smiles and then resumed his walk. About an hour around me I went back to the villa. I don't know what to do, but I don't want to go home either. I turned on the TV in the middle of the room, moving the chanel from one chanel to another. Nothing so caught my attention. Early in the morning the treat is just news from Celebrities, some are married, some are new and some are taking care of the divorce process. Is that all that's worth telling from a celebrity? Hhhh.

Shortly after, there was a call from Nina.

“Again where Yan?”

“I'm Riana, not Rian or Yan.” Reply sebal.

“Sensitive very anyway Neng? Where are you again? Why did it suddenly disappear? Kayak Ninja only.”

“I'm not missing Kare. I just have a little work to do and I'm sorry I forgot to tell you.”

“Again the afternoon I've come home kok.”

“Emm... I want to invite you later tonight.”

“Where?”

“Family dinner with his extended family Tefan.”

“Your family can't be together? How can?”

“Suudzon deh, my family also came. But I also want to invite you because you too I have considered like my own family.”

“E...e... how about?” I replied a little hesitantly, because frankly I was a little surprised to receive the invitation.

“Please Yan... please....!!!”

“I still have another job Kare. Sorry well..”

“Yan... You are so evil. I'm nervous because, if there is you maybe my nervousness will be slightly reduced.”

“...”

“Yan..”.

“Yan... You're still there right?”

“Eh.. Yes, I'm still here. Yes already, wait for me at home well.”

“Yeiyy... thanks Riana...! Muachhhh.

“If you want to, I'm called Riana. Okay, wait yak.”

I flinch while fondling the HP I am holding. Feelings of worry, fear, confusion, all mixed into one. How did Tefan feel when he saw me coming with Riana? How is my heart that even just imagining it has been pounding like never before? What about Tefan's half-dead parents hating me. I've already gone to Nina, it's impossible to disappoint her just because of the fear and confusion that momentarily tricked my mind.

The next question is, do I have to go there? The next minute a message came in from a rectangular object called technologically advanced. Tefan told me he had reached his house. He also asked me not to worry about what his father would do later. I wanted to tell her about Nina's request to accompany her to the family dinner, but I broke it off. Because Tefan will definitely not allow any reason.

I decided to go home at that time to fulfill the promise I had given Nina. Throughout the journey my heart never calmed down, my mind just kept wondering what would happen later tonight. To be honest I'm reluctant to meet Tefan's parents again, but how about it again. I'm stuck. The chat that runs from Music Player is also not enough to make my heart feel calm. That's why I'm slowing down the car as slow as possible.

Meeting Nina meant I had to be someone else, a person who fully supported her and Tefan's relationship. If the heart can cry, then I have done it a thousand times for having to endure my feelings. The game was ridiculous, frustrating and I was forced to act mediocre as if nothing had happened. I need a mama, but if I tell mama what my relationship with Tefan is like, she'll come back to attack me with a piece of her argument. Doesn't anyone support me and Tefan? Why can't everyone see what's going on? Can't see the love that grew so great between us. Wh why?

Don't ask what's going on with me right now, those tears are falling again. This week I cried so much, is this the real me? As fragile as being unable to do anything? Where is Riana who is ready to face anything that is about to defeat her love? Where is Riana who has always believed in the power of love? Where is Riana who is immune to pain? Argh....

*I think it's gonna be easy, that just loving is enough turns out a lot of things I don't know yet. About the secret of God that has not been fully opened, am I going to give up or keep pretending that nothing happened while my heart cries silently? Save me from this feeling God?

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