The Complicated Love #2

CL - 12. Please Come back

“Seeing he was trying to maintain the existing sense, I got scared and worried instead of happy.”

The next day, there was no urge from where I went to meet Tefan at the Villa as the Lord had said before. For the first time I will meet Tefan after evacuating to Mama's house a while ago. If it was true that Tefan was at the Villa, I wonder what he would talk to me about. If she was to cancel her marriage to Nina who only counted the days, obviously I would not let her. My decision is unanimous that I will not come back to him no matter what.

The trip to Ciwideuy is not too crowded, crowded but smooth. Allows me to get to the villa quickly. There was a sense of unease when imagining a momentary encounter with Tefan. Hard to guess what would happen, I tried to calm myself by listening to music. If everything God tells me is true, that doesn't mean it will shake my decision. My relationship and Tefan should never have happened, the feeling of love that had grown and could not be avoided made things very difficult. But anyway the solution is only one solution without adding to the problem becomes bigger. As the saying goes, do not pour oil into a burning fire. Because it will make the fire more blazing and burn all that is.

At about four o'clock in the afternoon I arrived at the white crater. The guards who usually cleaned the villa seemed to run to meet my presence after getting out of the car.

“Good afternoon Non, good thing Non Riana is coming. Mas Tefan hasn't been out of Villa since yesterday. I was afraid of anything happening to him, the door was also in the lock from the inside, I called but no sahutan.” Clearly with a worried tone.

I rushed to the door and tried to call Tefan's name but there was no sound.

“Tefan you are fine right?” I said in my heart.

“How is Non?”

“Bapak keep his Villanya spare key?”

“Oh Yes No Non. Momentarily you take it first, why did you forget this way ya.”

I was worried, wondering what was really going on in there. Why didn't Tefan answer my call, didn't God say he was waiting for me? Before long the Old Father of the Villa guard returned with a bag of keys. Problems arise again, I think will be finished with one time the key, it turns out there are many keys and must try one-on-one key where it fits. The more annoying it feels.

After trying dozens of keys finally met also a matching key. Won't waste my time rushing in and looking for Tefan. I went into the room and found Tefan lying there with a few bottles of drink. I've never seen him like this. I know he's not a guy who likes to drink when in trouble. He can always overcome the problems that come to him, if what I see now is true Tefan, it means he is really in big trouble.

“Leave us both Sir.” I said to the guard who came into the room to make sure.

“Good Non.”

I lie down next to him leaning on the seat while stroking his face. I didn't want to bother him, I let him be so until he woke up and realized that I was beside him. I saw he was very messy, his face looked very tired, his hair was disheveled, his clothes were tangled here and there, this was really not the Tefan I knew. He changed drastically in a short period of time, what made him like this? Was she burdened by her marriage, but why? Didn't she agree to be betrothed to Nina herself? Ahhh. I am getting confused.

I didn't realize I was falling asleep next to Tefan, waking up when the sound of HP was buzzing. I saw Tefan still asleep beside me, but now his hand was holding mine. Is he really aware of my presence? It's just that he hasn't been able to wake up from drinking too much. The call from HP I just ignored. When it was six o'clock in the afternoon, I was about to go to the kitchen to find out what I could eat. But Tefan stopped me, his hand pulling my hand which he had grasped.

I resigned myself and let him hold my finger, I kept lying next to him just like the first time I came to Villa. Just as I was about to caress her face again, she slowly opened her eyes.

“I thought you'd never come back.” He said slowly while gathering all his consciousness. His hands slowly walked down every inch of my face and I did the same thing to his face. Things like this we often do together like this.

“I don't think you've ever waited for me.”

“Sorry I didn't look for you, but I always waited for you.”

“Why did you get to like this?”

“I'm fine, as long as I can see you I'll be fine.”

“You changed Fan.”

“I haven't changed. Even if I change, it's Papa who turns me up like this. I don't want anything to happen to you.”

“I won't let that happen. You know me, right?”

“I know you Riana, I know all about you. Don't go again.”

“Fan, Nina is worried about you. Your wedding is just counting days, you can't be like this.”

“Please.. don't bring the name of that poor woman in our conversation tonight. I want it to be just you and me. No one else.”

“Fan..”.

I haven't finished my sentence yet, she's already crushed my lips first. Slowly and more hunting along with the intensity of the kiss we did. He pulverized me with a grim, the remnants of alcohol still smell but it's not a problem anymore. One by one our clothes date from where they are attached. Making love on a sofa that is not how long and large gives a different sensation than when doing it on the bed.

Breath that began to be irregular, hunting each other. There's another with Tefan, the way he fucks isn't as gentle and calm as it used to be. He became very violent and uncontrollable, there were emotions there. Emotions so great that they can burn their lust in such a way. I tried to keep up with her game trying to give her the comfort I often do to her every time I make love.

Slowly the breath that had been hunting was getting subsided, I collapsed on his body with sweat dripping one by one. I just collapsed there hearing the rhythm of his heart that was still left confusion and anxiety. I looked into his eyes, there was sadness there. God, what really happened to this person I love so much? Why is he so different now?

“Fan..”.

“Yah..”

“Do we make any more mistakes?”

“No. Because we want it.”

“Are we guilty of Nina?”

“No. There's nothing wrong. Indeed this is what must happen now, so there is nothing to regret.”

The answer is so firm. I'm afraid she's completely changed her mind and not married Nina. If that happens then I don't know if I should be happy or sad. Both of them make it hard to decide. The thing I had planned before leaving Mama's house turned out to be completely useless. Meeting Tefan even made this feeling even more confused. I don't know what to do. It turns out that it is not as easy as imagined, nothing can be planned except to accept what God intended.

That night we made love twice, made love until tired and slept by itself. Early in the morning when I woke up, Tefan was no longer beside me. I got up and made the blanket a body cover. I was looking for Tefan in the bathroom, but he wasn't there. I also decided to clean the body first, too sticky due to last night. When I came out of the bathroom, I saw Tefan was sitting on the sofa reading the morning newspaper and in front of him there was a breakfast made by himself for both of them.

“Morning My Lady...!” the sweep is warm and the smile is sweet.

“Morning My Lord..!” I peeked at her cheek and she pulled me into her lap and once again we got hung up in love.

“Hehe... Excuse me. Yes, have breakfast first.”

“Still breakfast. But I'm clothes first.”

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After breakfast and a short chat, Tefan and I decided to take a short walk around Kawah Putih. There is still a lot of fog this early, the atmosphere is still very cold. We led each other on the road, talking about things that had nothing to do with her and Nina's marriage. Just me and him.

We walked for a long time, then went back to the villa. While sitting together in the living room, I thought that was the right time to ask why he was waiting for me at this Villa. What happened to him, to make him like a confused person and do not know what he did. Hearing the story of God I want to confirm that Tefan is currently a lost person and he needs people to guide him home.

“Fan, can I know the reason why you are waiting here?”

I asked very carefully afraid of disturbing his mood.

“I want to make sure I feel Riana.”

“Which feeling?”

“My feelings for you.”

“Then what's the answer?”

“I don't want to run anymore.”

“You mean?”

“I won't marry Nina.”

“Fan..!”

I was shocked to hear his answer. Beyond a doubt that if he does, it can't happen. Tefan can't stop marrying Nina, he doesn't deserve the mistakes we made. Can't do.

“I've decided Riana.”

“But what about Nina Fan? She is very happy.”

“Then what about me Riana? How're you? Is the happiness of others more important than the happiness of both of us? You walk away from me it's a nightmare I've had and I don't want it to happen again.”

I didn't expect him to have to scream in front of my face just to tell me how he felt. I was scared and could only be quiet for a moment.

“Nina loves you very much Fan. I can't even imagine how devastated she feels when she knows you won't marry her, and in a minute that happy day will come.”

“I know about it Riana. But can you just a little consider what I feel? Should I continue to sacrifice for the feelings of others? For Nina's feelings, for my parents' feelings?”

“Fan calm yourself.”

“No. I can't calm down Riana. I want us to get out of this city.”

“That's not the best path Fan.”

“What do you think is best Riana? Do you think by marrying Nina the problem will just be solved?”

“Fan..”.

“I can't calm down. I have to do something.”

“Fan..”.

“It's best we don't have to talk about this anymore.”

Tefan left me alone in the living room. He went inside and didn't know what to do. As soon as I was about to enter following him, he was already dressed neatly and carried his bag out.

“Where are you going?”

“Rome.”

“Sudden pocket?”

“I have to finish something. If you still want to stay here, stay first or you should go home to your apartment.”

“But where are you going and what is Fan? Don't make me panic and worry.”

“You just calm down.”

“Fan.. Fan.. Tefann...!!!”

He's stubborn, I don't know from when he turned out like that. Just walk away in front of me and drive the car fast. I panicked and decided to follow him from behind. Even though I've been driving gas as fast as I can I still don't get a trace of Tefan. He disappeared in the street. I tried to call his HP but it's not active. Where's tefan you going? My breath in my heart.

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I never thought the situation would be this complicated, Tefan being a person I didn't recognize very much. Or is that the real him? Seeing him trying to maintain the existing sense, I became afraid and worried instead of happy. There will be many sacrificed even unbearable pain. I need to find Tefan before something worse happens. Tefan, please come back...