The Complicated Love #2
CL - 02. Just need to Love Him
I should have been grateful for all the time Tefan and I spent. Take a walk, spend time together. Forget about our status and there is only a heart filled with love. The definition of love for us is always simple, like the moment of watching or eating ice cream reminiscing about childhood. Those times are precious to me and Tefan.
Just about to enter the room, Nina appeared with her face which made me almost have a heart attack from shock. The atmosphere was dim, most of the lights had been turned off and then suddenly appeared a black figure with a white face with long hair like a child's twill. Kunitilanak. I felt that at that moment I would faint, fortunately the white-faced black figure was a typical laugh that I knew as Nina's laugh. Nina grinned at me revealing her white and orderly teeth. Satisfied for accidentally pranking me with his face.
“Oh My God Kare!!”
“WHAT???” Answer
“What how? Your face I know not. Kirain her son kuntil or her friend pocong.”
“Yeelahh, beautiful this is when you say kayak pocong or kuntil anyway. Where are you from? This night just came home?”
“If it's dark like this and use a mask, it's not beautiful loh Kare. I'm out of the way with friends, watch that's why it's for if you have to be at home continue.”
“Oh...! Yes, I went first. It's time for Tefan to call before bed.”
“Okey. Good Night Kare.”
“You Too dahling.!”.
A day outside turned out to make tired as well as fun. If with Tefan nothing goes by without meaning, everything is worth remembering, remembering and making your own smile before bed. I knew that now that Tefan was saying good-bye to Nina and not long after that, he would say the same to me. It sounds weird, but that's the reality we're living in right now.
I threw my body on the bed. Staring at the ceiling of the room, exhaling regularly while remembering the smile of someone who also made me smile at myself in the end. The person in my mind then incarnated on my gadget screen. Tephan. Immediately I picked up and across there was Tefan's sexy voice.
“Good night, good night Lady Riana. You must be tired and tired, right?”
Tefan's voice was always calming.
“My father my lord Tefan. Hahaha..” reply.
***
I remember a long time ago, long before Karenina knew Tefan. My family and Tefan's family are neighbors, living in harmony like other neighbors. My mom, Mama Tefan, Papa and Papa Tefan are all good friends. It is like family, even though there is no family connection. Papa and Papa Tefan built a business from scratch. A business engaged in the field of services, namely the business of Travel Bandung – Jakarta, Jakarta – Bandung. At first the business went very well. Even reap tremendous profits, they add to the Travel fleet up to ten fleets.
The business is growing rapidly, then finally a catastrophe occurs. Papa was accused of not being transparent in managing finances. Me and Tefan don't know anything, we're just teenagers. Staying friendly like nothing happened. Papa Tefan sued Papa to court on charges of corruption of the Travel business profit fund. Papa accepted the charges and tried to prove his innocence. I don't know what the motive of Papa Tefan, it's just that Papa is not a man who maruk treasure. I believe that.
Papa hired a lawyer like Papa Tefan did. All were discussed in court and finally Papa Tefan was unable to prove anything on his charges against Papa. Papa forgives Papa Tefan, but Papa Tefan does not accept and assumes that he has been humiliated by Papa. He was angry and chose to have the assets of the business divided equally, papa could not do much and granted Papa Tefan's request. Everything just happened, Papa Tefan turned to hate Papa and our family, including hating me too of course.
I know they hate me because he has also banned Tefan from hanging out with me again. Whenever we were both caught playing together, then Tefan's parents would not hesitate to hit Tefan and scold me all out. I complained to Papa and Mama but they just stroked my head and said, “it's okay”. Not long after the incident happened, Tefan's family moved out of the country. That's how I heard it. Tefan left me a letter through Mama. He did dare to meet Mama because my parents were never angry let alone hate them.
Tefan explained in the letter that he apologized for his parents' treatment of my family. He also said that he will never forget me, will remain his best friend and the person closest to him at any time. He also left his new address for me.
Although Tefan left an address and I sent him a letter, Tefan never replied to the letter I sent. I was sad about it, for years I waited for news from him but there was never any news and reply from my letter. In the end I found out after meeting Tefan, it turned out that the letter never reached him. The address was correct, but only a temporary address and Tefan moved out again and lived in an apartment. That is why, my letters were never received by him.
I wasn't angry at Tefan at all, because I could never be angry at him. Years apart and then met again when his family decided to return to Indonesia. At first I couldn't believe Tefan was looking for my tracks, because me and my family moved shortly after Tefan's move. Papa's business advanced rapidly and decided to stay in a better place. Tefan found me somehow.
I was glad to know that the handsome, tall and muscular man in front of me was the old Tefan. Tefan who is cungkring and likes to have long hair is no longer there. The first time I met him I immediately hugged him without seeing the condition that I was in a shopping center. At that time I did not care anymore about the surroundings, my chest was too crowded with longing and disbelief that the person who was standing looking at me at that time was Tefan.
Meeting after meeting continued, until on one occasion I was surprised and felt my world turned upside down instantly. Karenina who is also my best friend introduced Tefan as her fiance. Tefan didn't know that the person Karenina was going to introduce him to was me, her best friend Riana. We explained to Karenina that we both knew each other from childhood and were friends. Since the announcement of their relationship status, I would like to feel unperturbed about it. But I think more and more about Tefan non-stop. Then I told Tefan that disturbing feeling and he felt it too. We came to the conclusion that we both not only feel like friends, but more than that.
Although both already know each other's feelings, both me and Tefan did not try to be together like a pair of lovers. Tefan explained to me that he and Karenina had been betrothed even before they were born. Both of their parents have been friends since childhood. Therefore, he wants one of his offspring to be paired and establish a family. I understand that my position is very difficult. On the one hand, they were destined to be together, on the other hand me and my family were hated by Tefan's parents.
Tefan could not do a frontal attitude to his family, because he himself had agreed on the matchmaking. Overseas, Tefan was even banned from relationships with Caucasian girls just because Tefan had been betrothed in Indonesia to Karenina. What can he do but accept it? I also understand all the situations and conditions that are pressing on us. The only way I can continue to be around Tefan is to help her with her relationship with Karenina. After all Karenina is my best friend and I also don't want to see her until it breaks down just because her and Tefan's relationship is falling apart because of me.
At least that's the story behind why this story is so strange to parse. But me and Tefan have their own way of understanding and enjoying all these difficult situations and conditions. As long as they are engaged and Karenina does not know what is going on in my heart and Tefan, then everything will be fine. Sooner or later, they will get married in the end.
Everything in this world depends on how we look and show it. And I chose to look at this condition in a simple way, also showing it in a simple way, I just needed to love her no more.
