The Complicated Love #2
CL - 15. Wedding Day
“God chooses destiny for our love, which is not together and must forget each other.”.
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The feet that often step toward you are no longer the same. He stepped towards the quiet despite the crowd around him. The hands and arms that once held you no longer hold you. He escaped one by one to silence, although traces of your body are still left there. Eyes that often look at you, now no longer staring at two sparkling eyeballs. He fell in the darkness of life, his light was taken away by night. Now it's not the same, it's not the same when I realize there's no longer you by my side...
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The message was sent by Tefan on the night before his marriage to Nina took place, while reading the message part of my heart was also broken. I can't imagine how my life would go without him. It may all go in God's way, but as Tefan said, it will never be the same again. My heart, his heart, has lost one wing. Now we're both trying to fly with one wing that's still badly injured.
Tefan tried to embrace the happiness he considered pseudo with Nina at the will of his parents. While I was trying to fly and penetrate time just to heal my wounds. I don't know how much longer I can fly, but one thing I do know is that time is the best cure ever. It may take a year, two years, five years, ten years or even decades. If it had been that long it would have taken to heal then I would have waited for that time until I had witnessed my once-broken wing had grown back.
I looked at my only one wing in the mirror, I looked at my finished face in makeup. I once expected to wear the same dress that Nina wore. Being with someone I love and once promised me happiness. Now he will be with my own best friend and I am only part of the bride-to-be's introduction to the wedding. It's ironic that the love story of my life, loving but not being together.
“Yan, called Nina. Event is about to start.” I heard the heavy voice of the Gods reprimanding me as slowly one by one my tears fell.
“Iya Wa wait a minute.” I hurriedly wiped away the tears and sprinkled a bit of powder to disguise the tears that had just flowed there.
“You're okay right?” Ask the gods again.
“No. I'm not okay. But I'll try for both of them.”
The god took both my hands and tried to give me strength. The reason why I remained in the midst of the frenetic party was to keep Nina's promise to be on her wedding day. As well as showing Tefan's parents that I'm not as weak as he thought. Although at the same time I had to look at Tefan's face covered in cloudy.
I approached Nina who was already very beautiful with her wedding dress. I grabbed her dress subordinate to help her walk down the stairs. Everyone who saw Nina was fascinated by her beauty. I admit it, she was like an angel who had just descended from the sky. The smile on his lips never receded, looking very happy. She loved Tefan so much and wanted her marriage so badly.
Down there, precisely in the chair pelaminan has been waiting for the prospective groom. Someone who wants to marry me, someone I want to make my life companion, but all that is only hope and ideals that can never be realized. His facial expression did not radiate like a groom, but someone else. A person whose soul was not in this room, went out of nowhere. It made me feel the same emptiness of soul. Seeing Tefan like that, even I don't think it'll be strong to take Nina to Tefan's side.
I braced myself even though the legs I forced this step on had almost wavered. I would have almost collapsed had God not been by my side to grab my right-winged shoulder. Nina was unaware of that, she kept stepping down the stairs while the Gods tried to calm me down and asked me to just rest. What the hell's going on? Thought. Why can't I go through this wedding procession when the event hasn't even started yet.
“You all right?” Ask the Gods
“It's okay. I just feel suddenly dizzy.” My answer.
“What? Tefan saw it?”
“Daddy. Tefan saw it and maybe he was the only one who noticed such a small thing happening to you amidst the crowds in this building.”
“Don't tell him anything. I'm fine.”
“You go to the room first, would you like me to drop off?”
“No need Wa, I can still do it myself.”
I went to the room while the Lord went downstairs to watch the wedding procession that was soon to take place. I think it only took me five minutes to get back to the show.
After taking the aspirin, I rushed downstairs. Tefan had just finished expressing his faithful pledge to live with Nina. Some look moved, I see Nina crying, Tefan is too. But their cries were clearly different. I know it. For here I felt the same cry as Tefan.
Is love present between us just to hurt like this? Tears were slow but sure to spill over my two cheeks. Everyone congratulated the bride and groom, including me who was happy for Nina. I don't know if I'm really happy or just pretending to be happy.
The event took place solemnly, when Nina was busy receiving my guests and quietly went from the crowd. I can't take it anymore, the tears that I've been through now are falling one-on-one and I don't want anyone to see them. When I left the building exactly when I was about to get into the car someone came up to me and said.
“You turned out to be stronger than I expected Riana. You sacrifice your feelings for the happiness of your own friend. Salute.” That heavy and firm voice came from behind me, a voice that had made me tremble and almost waver. Papa Tefan's.
“Sorry, I have to go.”
“But why should you run away like this?” Follow him again with questions when I want to get in the car.
“Sorry I didn't run away. I saved your son.” My answer is much more firm.
Papa Tefan was silent and now he let me into the car and just passed by. He was not even aware his actions had hurt his own son, not only that, he willingly ordered his men to beat up his son. What kind of old man behaves like that, he is not a human but a monster. And now he's accusing me of running away, which is what I did to save his son. If I continue to be there in tears and Tefan sees, it is not impossible that Tefan also messed up his wedding party and invited me to go together and leave Nina.
Such an event cannot happen. That's why I chose to stay away. Sometimes good is considered evil, good things always hide from a dark heart. Tefan's parents have darkened his heart, due to old obsessions and grudges. He tried to get back at my parents through me. He wanted to hurt my family by taking advantage of the situation between me and Tefan. Now he can be proud to have separated me and Tefan. But in his entire life he will never succeed in separating our hearts. As well as her grudge against my parents, it can never be lost by just hurting me. His heart was filled with hatred.
Is this the last time I saw your face? You'll be far out of reach even if I can look at you up close. The distance is getting wider between us, besides praying for each other's happiness there is nothing else we can do. But is there happiness when we hurt each other? I'm sorry, if I can't save what we've been through. God has his own destiny for our love, not together and must forget each other...
