The Complicated Love #2

CL - 16. Get far

The rain this afternoon was so heavy, it melted in the window pane of the apartment. Everything I see from here is gray. Vehicles that spill on the road are like rain. A week after Tefan and Nina's wedding I haven't been anywhere. My feet are fixated on this apartment, my world is just a room of an apartment. There is no desire to go out or do anything. The excitement has not gone, still faithfully accompany my dark days. What's Tefan doing there? Is she as happy as the prayer I often pray for her?

During this week Tefan never gave any more news. There were only a few messages and calls from Nina that I ignored again. Until the often screaming HP was silent forever because I chose to disable it. This feeling is not until when it will continue to whack. The rain outside was getting heavier, as my heart hinted at the sadness I was feeling.

Between the two of us, no one likes the rain because it trapped us in a warehouse. Then we finally realized that we should both be grateful for the rain that once held us there. Because that was the first time we both knew there were flowers slowly growing in our hearts. For the first time too, Tefan kissed me on the cheek and then reddened with embarrassment.

Perhaps that is why rain is so familiar with longing, for the fall brings with it every memory. However, I cannot deny my feelings for Tefan, still so great, from the very first moment to the moment where the separation took place. Maybe these were the hardest times I had, where I really fell. Even to crawl I feel incapable, this feeling is very burdensome.

I can't be here any longer, maybe by being somewhere different, my memory of Tefan won't bother me too much. Whatever I would do to forget this feeling, if being away was the best thing I would do. Whatever. Finally while waiting for the rain to subside, I took advantage of that time to put some pieces of clothing in the suitcase. I don't have a destination yet, maybe on the road I can find the answer.

Until late afternoon the rain did not subside, even as there were no signs of stopping. I'm done packing, I look around the apartment I just occupied. I can't believe I'm fit to live here, there's a feeling that requires me to leave. At least as a beginning to get out of all the problems. The restaurant I have had has been running normally since my cousin handled it. I was no match in the culinary business, so I gave all the restaurant business to him.

The rain finally stopped at six o'clock in the afternoon. Cloudy still sagging, rain is also still left in the form of a speckle. I grabbed the handle of the suitcase and dragged it out of the apartment towards the basement. The place where I parked my car. About my departure even Mama and Papa don't know anything. As far as they are concerned, I have been at peace with my feelings since I left home. They can't let you know, this time I have to solve my problem. However I started, that's why I also had to find a way to end it.

The car drove slowly in the middle of the road that is still flooded. Player music plays slowly, the feeling of gamang is still soaking. I haven't thought about where to go, just drive and follow my instincts. The sky was getting darker, I also remembered the Villa that I often visited with Tefan in Kawah Putih. I decided to just go there. The villa will be filled with no one because the villa has been rented Tefan for the last three years. So me and Tefan can just walk in without needing permission first because we both have the key.

In the past, Tefan and I had the same vision, later if the match will build a Villa around Kawah Putih. As a place to release all fatigue due to exhausting daily activities. Build a family and have children like other lovers. Those plans exist even the status of him and Nina already fiancee. We forget for a moment that Tefan has been betrothed to someone who is also very close to me.

The road is crowded tonight, dense creeping even had a few times stuck in traffic. Maybe because after the rain so new people want to move when the rain stops. Apparently the trip to Kawah Putih tonight will be a little late, do I pull over for a moment? Waiting on the road for fifteen minutes because the car was barely running, I finally decided to turn around and find a suitable inn. Tomorrow morning just continue the journey to Kawah Putih.

Even to turn the course, it took ten minutes. Only now did I feel tired on the road, I was looking for a place where I was about to let go of the moment of fatigue that surrounded my body. After wandering around looking, he finally got an inn. Although simple but looks very clean, the owner is also friendly and friendly.

It didn't take long for the owner to come with the keys and take a look around, I chose a room where the view from the window looked beautiful in the morning and evening. The view of the mountain cluster in the distance makes you want to linger sitting near the window.

I decided to take a shower first so that this body relaxes after driving all day. I turn on the water heater, fill the tub and soak in there for 30 minutes. It was quite a while too, but I was satisfied that I could feel the warm water entering my skin pores and making the joints a little better.

It's past seven o'clock. I decided to get into bed, turn on the TV and watch for a while. But there was no quality spectacle at all, whether it was really not quality or my mind running around here and there.

*Why is it so hard to get in your way?

How are you doing now? Are you happy with your new status? I hope you're okay with Nina. Be happy, for I want that too, though part of my heart aches*.

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