The Complicated Love #2

CL - 54. Grief News

We finally got to the apartment tired. Tired of long journeys and taking hours. Tired of planes and cars. Until arriving at the apartment I could only lie on my back, straightening all the joints that felt stiff.

I saw that Saka had changed clothes, I was still gathering energy and lazing around to get up. I don't think with my eyes that always want to be closed. Sleeps. Sleeps. That's all I want to do. Until Saka kept pulling my blanket and forced me to shower and change clothes.

I lazily removed the blanket from my body and slowly walked into the bathroom. Saka looked at me with his naughty smile. For him I am so adorable that I was glared at in such a way with her veiled intent.

I finished cleaning myself and changed into casual clothes. I grabbed my phone to tell Mama I'm back from my honeymoon. I haven't been able to find Mama's number, my phone's been ringing. Mamma.

I am glad to get the phone from my mom. The next conversation went quiet. I just couldn't believe the news I just heard.

"Lad..." My tears had already broken down on my cheeks, Saka who saw that immediately ran towards me and asked what happened.

"Lad..." My answer is still with matai berlinang.

"What's wrong with Papa?" Ask Saka astonished.

"Come on, we have to leave immediately. Papa's. Papa's in bad shape. Mama just called."

Slowly my consciousness began to return, I quickly grabbed a sweater and invited Saka to immediately take the car keys and leave for the hospital.

I squeezed my hand, the sadness was so hunting down, my chest was up and down, filled with such sudden pain. Why is it so fast, God?

"Mas, hurry up a little."

"I've been trying, baby, just calm down, Papa's gonna be okay."

Saka's face turned towards me and gave a firm smile, then after that he refocused with the steering wheel in his hand.

How can I calm down, Papa I love is dying without any pain before.

Not long after Mama called, my phone rang. Mamma. I was shaking to pick up the phone. I fear.

"Mama."

"Papa is no more."

I'm staring, my phone's down. Saka speeds up his car, as if understanding something bad has happened to Papa. Not long after, we arrived at the hospital. The smell of the hospital welcomed my arrival, without waiting for me to run looking for Mama's whereabouts.

Seeing Mama stuck up on Papa's body, I wasted no time.

Mama was still crying, I grabbed Mama's body and we both hugged. Mama seemed to be trying to toughen up, but I knew she was so fragile inside. Therefore, it is not appropriate for me to be too late in grief. I kissed Mama many times, hugged her and tried to strengthen her.

Saka was always by my side, ready to take care of everything. Even without being asked, he had taken care of the administration of repatriating Papa's body to the house. Saka has also contacted his parents. Maybe we are going to the hospital now.

Whatisthis? Why is it all so sudden, omenless, unfathomable. Why when Papa was in good health, able to walk back, God took it. Papa, I love you.

Papa's body was being taken care of by the hospital when Saka's family arrived at the hospital. Mama Saka, who is also Mama's best friend, hugs Mama and strengthens Mama. He was also very surprised by the sudden news.

Luckily, I went home on my honeymoon. I can't imagine what if Papa left while I was there. Ah, I'm afraid to imagine it though. I kept hugging Mama, helping her to sit down and wet her when we were all about to leave the hospital.

In the street, Mama had told me, if there was no sign that Papa was sick, then surprisingly he left all of us. Papa still had time to drink coffee before entering the room and will prepare to sleep. Mama is preparing some clothes for tomorrow, as she will be planning to eat together with me. But before that happened, when Mama was done with the clothes, Mama saw Papa was already with a frothy mouth.

In an atmosphere filled with anxiety and fear of something happening, Mama contacted the hospital. Upon arrival at the hospital, first aid was performed. But by then, Papa's heart had stopped beating.

Hearing that story, I continued to hold tightly onto Mama's hand. You have to be strong, Mama strong. Robust. But what about me? I also have no power to face this reality. But Papa's wish in my lifetime had been fulfilled, he was eager to see me married and he became my guardian. Oh Papa, thank you for being my Papa. Loved me all this time.

That night, I slept at Mom and Dad's house. Last time we slept with Papa, whose body was no longer with us..

You know, Papa, how lucky I am to be your son. Papa who always protects me, no matter how much you suffer, you only care about me and Mama. You are the greatest Papa for me and also the greatest husband for Mama. Goodbye Papa, I promise I will take care of Mama, your true love.

For the umpteenth time, I kissed Papa's forehead. As much as possible to keep my tears from falling on her skin. He said our tears for a dead man, should not be about his skin, if they do not want to feel the pain that is very sick in the grave.

I kissed Papa's forehead with prayers for Papa's salvation to the Lord's day. Saka lifted up my body that continued to cry and grew weaker and weaker for longer. He led me a little distance from Papa. He grabbed my body and sat down while leaning my head on his shoulder. Every now and then he pulls me into his field chest and feels the warmth there.

"How's this? Why is Papa so fast gone?"

"Honey, let go Papa. Papa also definitely does not want to see you constantly sad this way. Papa must want you strong in order to take care of Mama. Come onlasiklah!"

"Just yesterday Papa drove me to the beach and that was one of his greatest hopes. But why did Papa leave even when I haven't given him a grandchild." I cried sobbing in Saka's arms.

I felt Saka pull me into his arms. Kiss the top of my head gently and deeply.

Papa was my first love, the first man to embrace my tiny body. Teaching me what love means, teaching me about patience and other life lessons that I can't possibly forget for the rest of my life. Papa was the first man to put his hand on the top of my head and rub it gently. While saying 'Son, if big later be useful to others, do not bother let alone make trouble to others.'

And now, that advice I'll never see again. Goodbye Papa, your messages will always be remembered.

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