The Complicated Love #2

CL - 14. Farewell Speech

My car drove towards the hospital that Papa Tefan mentioned. I agreed to part with Tefan as long as he allowed me to meet him and know his condition for the last time. Although I have a heavy heart to do it, however, there must be an end. Whether you want it or not, like it or not.

I thought about many things along the way, including thinking about what kind of sentence I should say to Tefan to let him understand, that the situation would never side with the love that was binding us now.

I've reached the hospital yard. I take a deep breath. Trying to calm down, hoping everything will go according to plan. I don't know if I can hold back if I see Tefan's condition. But I'll try my best.

I got out of the car, prepared to get in and face the harsh reality that was about to happen. My steps were steady walking in, trying to ignore the feeling of worry.

The atmosphere of the hospital that afternoon was so quiet, I walked down the corridor after corridor with slightly accelerated steps. Even though I only have five minutes, I hope Tefan will understand my words and we parted in a good way.

No one in this world wants a separation from the one they love. Sacrifice is often needed for the happiness of one of them, or the happiness of those around us who also love us.

I searched the room according to the sign given by Papa Tefan via sms. After climbing a few floors right at the end of the corridor I saw several people with sturdy bodies standing guard outside the patient's hospital room door. I'm sure that's his room.

I walked over, the suspicious gazes of the guards watching my steps until it stopped in front of the room door.

“Sorry, I have an appointment with Tefan and with the approval of his Papanya.” I said to one of the people standing in front of the door with sunglasses.

“You time is five minutes.”

Without getting stale and showing a friendly attitude, it really made me shudder. Papa Tefan's men look all cruel. Just according to one man, who else if not Papa Tefan who is the big boss.

“I know.” I replied succinctly.

I went inside and I saw Tefan's condition lying pretty bad. Looking at her like that, it felt like I ran towards her and hugged her right then and there. But that was not the purpose of my arrival, I came to see him for another purpose.

A meeting to convince him of one thing. The time I had was very limited, Papa Tefan gave me no more than five minutes. I tried as hard as I could to face Tefan, he must not see the tension I was currently feeling. He looked at me with a withered look.

“I'm sorry.” Speech weak. His body was bruised and even his face looked badly injured.

“Sorry for what?” I answered trying to find an answer.

“I can't convince Papa. But I'll never give up Riana. No will.” Tefan's face at first glance seemed to be trying well to show me that he would succeed in persuading his Papa. The truth is, it will end in vain.

“Sssst.... Don't talk anymore, Fan. Look at your condition is not good, you just listen to me. Because I won't repeat this sentence.”

“You said what Riana.” asked in wonder.

“You're not wrong Riana. Which logic did you get until you blamed yourself like that?”

“Fan, my time is not much I have to go. Please follow my request, the only thing I want now is to see Nina happy with you. No matter what, you should marry her. Our relationship, it's over.”

I restrained myself from breaking my tears in the patient room where she was being treated. As hard as I can try.

“No Riana. You can't give up like this.”

I couldn't look at Tefan's face. His face was so grim, not to mention his eyes that looked red in tears, between filled with anger and sadness. My time is up I have to go, if I stay there longer, maybe I will change my mind.

“Fan... fulfill my request. Please! Now I have to go.”

I hurried out of the hospital room, unable to be there anymore to see Tefan's frustrated face. After the door closed I ran aimlessly, carrying a wound in my bruised and bruised heart. Not only were my eyes crying, but my heart was also crying.

I left the room without looking back. I know your feelings are also devastated Fan, but this is all for your good. You should be with Nina. Ignore my feelings, ignore our feelings.

I've never felt this sick before. Like losing a part of myself, until I walk like I don't tread the earth. Oh my God, please strengthen me. I can't imagine the days ahead that I'm going through and the days that Tefan is going through.

How much I feel about Tefan only you know God. I did all this for the common good. I can't possibly let Tefan suffer under the pressure of his Papa. Therefore, I was willing to go from him so that he would no longer get the harsh treatment of his father.

What kind of parents would make their children lie so badly because they were beaten by their own men. Looking at Tefan's face, it's just as impossible for me not to see him. But what should I do? What I can do about the destiny that welcomes us is not on our side.

Ii'm sorry....

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Arriving at a hospital park, I sat limp with puffy eyes and did not finish shedding tears.

Is this pain a farewell? I want time to go back and no more sadness like this. What is wrong with two people loving each other?

The time that brings together and the time that separates as well as the wounds I hope time can heal it no matter how long. One thing I know right now is that Tefan has fallen in love with me. Knowing that, I had calmed down enough despite not being able to hug each other again.

Not all love must be together, some must let go of each other and give up their love for others. Like rain falling to the earth, some are roaring to the ground some others are not. No matter what happens, as my heart says. To love or not to love, life must go on.