The Complicated Love #2

CL - 05. Longs

"Is there anything more comfortable than being in your lover's arms?”

Tefan was immediately transferred to one of the public hospitals in Bandung, the situation was not so severe as Reno. Reno got her calf bones slightly shifted but according to doctors not so serious and can be overcome with rapid handling. Tefan suffered a head injury, was hit but no serious internal injuries. I haven't been able to see Tefan in the hospital. The time is not right, his parents often wait Tefan 24 hours. Nina often invites me to go together, but I subtly refuse. Although I knew he must have been wondering why I hadn't met Tefan when Tefan was my best friend.

How else, I can't do much. I had to wait until Tefan wasn't guarded by his parents. Maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I can meet him, because according to information from Nina Tefan's parents will be the arrival of business colleagues from abroad. Easy - hopefully true, so I can meet and keep Tefan a few hours. I also have not asked through BBM or a short message, just send greetings through Nina. I hope he understands my position.

Besides, lately I've been busy with restaurant business, Jane's going to have her wedding in a month. So right now he is also quite busy preparing everything beside he also has to teach me the knowledge he has. It was hard, but I tried to enjoy it.

Work was enough to distract me to think about Tefan but still the time - time off in my mind was just him. Just a week of not meeting, a longing that I felt like unstoppable. Even work feels so unsettled because it thinks about the condition of him without me there. Even though I knew she would be comfortable with Nina's presence.

Tefan.

A short message came to my gadget, from Nina.

“Riana, can you get Tefan not in the hospital? I have to go to the boutique there's a complaint from my customer.”

Such was the content of the short message from Nina, making something inside my chest as if it was soaring with pleasure. Finally the opportunity came. I immediately replied to the short message with an OK answer. Then I got ready - ready for the hospital, impatient to see Tefan. Along the way I hummed helplessly withstanding the joy. I stopped by the supermarket for some fruit, Tefan really likes Apple Malang. I want to buy it for him, and give him a surprise.

I smile at my own smile in my heart, imagining the meeting later. At about three o'clock in the afternoon, I reached the hospital, headed straight to room number 202. From behind the glassy door in the middle, I peeked at Tefan. Find out who he is with. But I saw that he was sleeping and alone. Slowly I pressed the door lever and opened it. I walked at my slowest possible pace afraid of interrupting her rest.

As I sat next to him, Tefan opened his eyes.

“Hei..” My broom.

“Why new came?” Ask.

I smiled at him and said “You understand how he is? I couldn't possibly meet you while your parents were still keeping you tight.”

He smiled gently at me and then pulled my hand and squeezed it slowly.

“I kangen.” Said.

“I too. What hurts?”

“Here.” He pointed it at the chest, apparently he wanted to tease me.

“Iihh... kok there anyway.” My answer is a little spoiled.

“Daddy really, the pain is here. Hehe..”.

“Lebbay. Huu... seriously nanya know.”

“Now no one is sick, just moments - just a certain moment my head still often feels dizzy. You are so old just here.”

“We have to discuss again?”

“Eh yes, sorry. Haha..”

“Your parents said they had a guest from abroad huh?”

“I heard that. I don't know who. But grateful they finally have important needs. If it wasn't possible until I got out of this hospital, we would never meet.”

“Daddy, so I am also very happy to hear the news from Nina. Coincidentally Nina also called and asked me to change your care because she again has a problem in her shop. What a fun coincidence. Hehe.”

Tefan tightened the squeeze of his hand on my finger, giving it its own warmth. It flowed through all the nerves in my body and at first glance felt like a great wave. Especially when he tried to get up from his lying position and stole a kiss to my lips. I was quite surprised and misbehaved but did not also refuse as her lips slowly pulverized. So soft as if I was the most fragile human being that he treated me very gently and slowly. Even so my body seemed to tremble and drift as she bit my lower lip to make her tongue freely explore my oral cavity. When he kissed her then I could breathe with relief.

Even after kissing I still felt her lips clinging to mine, the sensation was not perfect yet. It made me ashamed and maybe my face was red like a boiled crab. Though this is not the first time Tefan and I kissed, like ABG's son just fell in love. I find it hard to hide that childish feeling.

“You're so embarrassed - shame is that anyway?” Ask Tefan jail.

“Who is shy - shy.” My answer was trying to cover up but the opposite happened.

“Tefaan...” my screams while looking at him witty.

“Iya yes not shy, but shy. Hehe... age is past a quarter of a century but still shy? I never kissed.” God again.

“Still to be discussed?”

“Yeehh. Yes it is not. Let's talk about something else if so. How is your restaurant?”

“Lumayan makes busy, it turns out that pioneering a business is hard to ask for forgiveness. Not dear my papa used to be the same your papa pioneered their business. It all starts with hard work, even though in the end they are feuding and our family relationships become not good.”

“Have not been remembered - remember again, the past let pass and we make it a meaningful lesson for the rest of our lives. I'm just praying that our family can come back to what it used to be.”

“I also pray the same, let us meet no need cat - a cat like this.”

Tefan tried to comfort me by pulling me into his arms. He whispered the words that one day everything would be fine. In Tefan's arms I felt no need to hide anymore, he always made me feel comfortable being there. Like being protected and dare to believe whatever is in front of us will certainly be overcome.

“Do not be sad again.” Lirih

I just nodded slowly and buried my head into his chest that was fielded. God, if only it could always be like this, be in his arms until time is no longer on his side.

“Is there anything more comfortable than being in your lover's arms? For me this opportunity is something I will remember, because I know what I embrace now is no longer for me.”

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Nina had just arrived at the hospital at nine o'clock at night, when I was sitting in the waiting chair of the nursery while reading some magazines. He was not suspicious at all, because neither me nor Tefan did anything excessive when he came. He brought my favorite martabak and goat satay to Tefan. Iyah, Tefan is a goat satay.

I told Nina that her martab let me eat at home, afraid to disturb their togetherness. There's no reason for me to stay any longer anyway, I've had my own time for Tefan from afternoon until last night. Now that they're together, I could be jealous if I stay there. I finally took a break with Nina and Tefan.

“Nin, Fan.. I'm back first. Fear of overnight.”

“Daddy Na, thank you for taking care of Tefan. You be careful going home.” Answer Nina.

“Hati - Riana's heart. Don't speed.” Tefan is not left behind.

I replied with a smile and disappeared from behind the hospital room door.

Actually I'm also jealous of leaving them both in one room, even if it's a hospital room but still they will make out. There's no limit to them, they have relationship status, while I? I got what? Status is also not clear, it does have status but only as a friend. The silent friend has an unofficial relationship with the boyfriend of his own best friend. I don't know what this relationship is called, on the one hand me and Tefan are also friends of a small who then grows the seeds of love and on the other hand Nina Tefan's girlfriend is also my own best friend.

I knew Tefan's feelings for Nina were not as big as his feelings for me, but still I felt that there was no point if in the end I couldn't be with Tefan either. Tefan and Nina from birth were already destined as a couple by both their parents. While I might just be the shadow behind the relationship between the two. If this is often thought of, not only my head is dizzy but my chest is also tight to the point of not being able to breathe properly.

For some people this may be the wrong thing and should not be continuous. They don't know what it's like to be me, nor do I want a relationship like this. But what can I do? Everything is complicated, if I avoid because of their relationship, it's a childish act. Nina could have known everything but would I hurt her feelings when I knew how she felt to Tefan? He also loved Tefan as much as I loved that man.

Even if she never hurt Tefan, let alone hurt him to even offend him in the slightest Nina never did. Either me or Tefan, two - both are difficult. I realized Tefan's position, he couldn't possibly leave Nina who had been so kind to him. It was also impossible to leave the woman because her parents had wanted them to be together long ago. If Nina had one mistake or one flaw, maybe Tefan had a reason to leave Nina. But Nina is even perfect, beautiful, independent, mature, intelligent and kind. There is hardly any blame.

If the reason she had to leave Nina for loving another woman more was actually me, her whole life would probably be filled with guilt. I can't even force her to be with me because of Nina. Nina is too good to get any ill treatment. It's true that sooner or later Nina will know who I am and who Tefan is in this. But wouldn't it be better if she didn't know, I risked my whole life just so Nina never knew how I felt about Tefan.

Many things had to be sacrificed but not Nina. Because I love that woman too. I don't know what to take, whether to withdraw from Tefan or keep going even without clarity of relationship. I don't know which is better.

All the way back home, I only thought about Tefan and Nina. I had to get angry at myself to remember the story of the segitigia between us. If someone has to leave, I may be the one, but I can't leave. I can't hurt my own feelings either, I've waited long enough for news from Tefan and now that he's in sight, do I have to go? Did I put that stuff on myself? It sounds selfish, but I can't be a hypocrite to myself. I can't.

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