Single-minded

Under the Crying Sky

"Wait Farah!" Shouted Bayu, half running after Farah. Bayu sees Farah running without caring about her condition. Bayu anxiously looked at Farah who came out anxiously.

"What's wrong? You don't need to follow. I can do it myself!" Said Farah cynically, Bayu continued to step behind Farah. He did not budge, remained determined to accompany Farah.

"I know you can, at least let me accompany you as a big brother!"

"Sister!" Farah said in disbelief, Bayu nodded without hesitation.

Bayu deliberately chases Farah, seeing Farah walk by herself. Away from the family, incised the visible wounds in Bayu's heart. Why does Bayu feel so claustrophobic? When he heard the sound of Farah's crutches moving away. Without thinking or just asking Fatih. Bayu ran after Farah's shadow. There was no shame or disappointment in Farah's rejection she might have received.

Bayu continued to chase, until finally the real image of Farah was in front of him. Farah's limped steps, the more pain in Bayu's heart. A wound covered with salt. A clear drop of tear, falling right on the Bayu eye fertilizer. Scroll tears that seemed to want to say a big concern Bayu to Farah. Bayu saw clearly Farah's firmness which made Farah's weak body move away. Choose yourself in the crowd. Lying quiet and silent night without a brim. The shadow of Farah's debate, crossed Bayu's mind. A shadow that never seemed to want Bayu to remember.

FLASHBACKS

"Farah, mama asked you to stop not for defending your father. Mama did all this for you!"

"What did my mother expect of me?" Farah said loudly, Vira shook her head weakly.

"Mama didn't ask for anything? Just one word of apology for your papa!"

"I'm sorry Farah, I'm sorry Farah asked. It's not with Farah's hopes!"

"Don't hate your papa. He's not entirely wrong!"

"Since the past he was not wrong, because a man will feel right despite betraying love. Just like he is happy with his daughter. So what am I for, if anyone is able to remove the water!"

"But papa never knew about you!" Sahut Azzam's.

"If so, assume I never existed. Don't apologize, my heart is too cold. So sorry I don't want to know me!" Sahut Farah. Vira shook her head weakly, Farah stepped away. Fatih was going after Farah. But his footsteps stopped. When Fatih felt that there was a hand holding her.

Vira swiftly held Fatih's hand. When Vira saw Fatih was about to chase Farah. Fatih who felt incomprehensible with Vira's attitude turned around in surprise. Vira shook his head, forbidding Fatih from pursuing Farah. With a breath of disappointment. Fatih obeyed the words of Vira. Although Fatih never felt warm up up Vira. But Fatih never once thought to contradict the words of Vira. With a heavy heart, Fatih let Farah go. In Fatih's heart hoping, Farah will be fine.

"I wish I could hold you, wipe your tears!" Inner Milky.

Bima's gaze was nilar, when he saw Farah's limped steps. Bima felt weak, as she realized she was unable to catch up to Farah. Bima was too scared by Andra's sharp gaze. Not that Bima doesn't want to fight for Farah. But Farah's cold attitude had already crossed the line. Farah could no longer be understood, as her heart could not be knocked at the sight of Azzam kneeling.

"Mas Azzam stand up, there is no need for you to kneel to Farah. His heart would not be knocked, he was too selfish to understand the voice of your heart!"

"But Vira!"

"Train, help papa stand up!" Said Vira, Fatih was silent.

Azzam turned towards Fatih. Bayu looked at Fatih's silence, as if Fatih had not recognized Azzam as his biological father. Bayu warmly patted Fatih's shoulder. Bayu nodded slowly, as Fatih turned her head towards him. Nodding Bayu's head, Fatih's signal must meet Vira's request. Depressing his anger, for the sake of Fatih's devotion to Vira.

"All right ma!" Fatih, then slowly. Fatih pulled Azzam's body.

Fatih sustained the weak body of the father. The body he longed for. But now it feels foreign to Fatih. Azzam received a helping hand from Fatih with a sense of haru. Azzam felt like he was a real father. Azzam loses his daughter's love, but he can still fight for the love of the son. For the sake of a happy old age with his baby.

"Thank you!" Azzam said, Fatih nodded slowly.

"Mas Azzam, forget Farah's attitude. He was too early to understand the dispute between us. Farah was wrong with her attitude. She's exceeded the limit, but as a mother. I understand the reason for his anger. A woman born with weakness. Like a meaningless life!"

"The virus!" Azzam said softly, cupping his hands together.

"No need!" Said Vira while shaking her head slowly.

"I'm really sorry!" Azzam said, Vira shook her head weakly.

"If Farah feels your apology means nothing. To me, your apology is unnecessary. Before or now I never blamed you. Our relationship is over. My life is ruined without you. All of these are roads that we deserve. Without realizing it, our love hurts a lot of hearts. So we have to make up for it with pain, even separation!" Vira lantang.

"Just once Vira, tell me you love me!" Said Azzam without shame, Nadya looked down lethargic.

Azzam's words immediately hurt his heart. Nadya is devastated, when Azzam questions Vira's love in front of her. Not because Nadya felt ignored. But the words of Azzam that might hurt his daughter Nafisa. Nadya felt helpless, not just sick. Nadya felt worthless. Nadya was humiliated without being given a chance, to defend herself.

"Why Azzam?" Nadya said softly, Azzam turned towards Nadya. As if Nadya's question was meaningless. Azzam's gaze instantly paralyzed Nadya. No more anger, Nadya's love is too big. Nadya was too scared to lose Azzam.

"Would you ask me love. Especially in front of your daughter Nafisa and your wife Nadya!"

"Whatever!"

"You never change!" Vira said casually, Azzam stared fixedly at Vira. Looking forward to the answer he has been waiting for all this time.

"You should be more sensitive to the hearts of Nadya and Nafisa. They're hurt, even ruined by your question that shouldn't be spoken. They are women, not robots without. We have to learn to understand them. Before you understand me!" Vira said, Azzam held Vira's hand tightly.

Azzam felt played with Vira's attitude. Vira's words did not make Azzam calm. It even further fueled Azzam's anger. Vira felt pain in her wrist. Vira's moaning voice sparked Fatih's anger. When Fatih was inflamed, Fatih went forward to clutch Azzam's hand. Fatih did not accept the attitude of Azzam who hurt Vira. The atmosphere that was originally calm, suddenly crisp. Azzam and Fatih stared at each other. Both look very similar, like a betel on the other two. Fatih's anger seemed to be able to swallow Azzam.

"Trainer, let go of your papa's hand!" Pinta Vira, Fatih shook his head weakly.

"Trainer!" Said Vira again, Fatih shook his head.

"Let go of the hand of the father or the mother who will release him!"

"I won't let go before she takes off my mama's hand!" Said Fatih loud.

"Mama never taught you bad. So follow your mother's words, let go of your papa's hand. Let Mama solve the problems between us!"

"But ma!"

"Wood, take Fatih away!" Said Vira to Bayu, immediately Bayu pulled Fatih's hand.

"Patience, please mama!" Vira said to Fatih. Vira hopes Fatih leaves with Bayu.

"Mama, let Fatih be here!" Pinta Fatih, Vira shook her head. The Vira mark did not allow Fatih to remain nearby.

Fatih and Bayu went away, leaving Vira with people Fatih had never trusted. With heavy steps, Fatih headed for the table not far from him. Same table with Bima and Andra. Bima and Andra moved away. They did not want to interfere with the Azzam family's problems. When everyone was afraid of the debate Vira and Azzam. Only Bima and Bayu were anxious to think of Farah. Cold women are full of perks that seem tough but weak in them.

"Mas Azzam, let go of my hand. I'm in pain, your grip is too tight!"

"Answer question!"

"Jawab Vira, answer!" Shouted Azzam emotion, his hand squeezing Vira's wrist tightly.

Awwsss

"Mama!" Fatih shouted, then ran towards Vira.

But his footsteps came to a halt, when he saw Vira's hand stretching right in front of him. Vira blocked Fatih's footsteps. Bayu immediately held Fatih's hand. So that Fatih does not get closer to Vira and Azzam.

"You never try to understand. Even about the heart, you have to get a definite answer. You can never feel the meaning of love. Either my love or Nadya's love? No matter how much we love you always doubt it!"

"Vira, answer!"

"Mas Azzam, what did Farah tell you last night? It should make you realize how much I love you. The mental disorder that I've been through, can already make you believe. How badly did I hurt when I lost you? Weak Farah, what kind of evidence is your name written on my heart? But it's all over. Love is no longer as deep or as big as it used to be. It's not that I'm disappointed or there's another love. But the beautiful love between us, I've replaced it with the love of my baby. I put my sacred love, on their smiles and happiness!"

"Nadya, I give up the happiness of Azzam. Twenty years you have been faithful beside him. Twenty years on, Azzam can feel your affection. Maybe your heart hurts when you're with him. If possible survive, but if it is not able to survive. Let go, you deserve to be happy!"

"You're not mad at me!" Nadya said, Vira shook her head.

"I have no right to be angry, because we are both hurt by love!"

"Mas Azzam, you've heard my answer. So let go of my hand, I have to find Farah!" Vira said, Azzam let go of Vira's hand.

"Nafisa, don't be angry or disappointed in papa. Learn to understand your father, he needs support. Our relationship is not united, became the love that stuck in the heart of your papa. Whatever the relationship between us, Fatih and Farah are still your brothers!" Vira said warmly, then walked away from Azzam and Nadya.

"Vira, could it be that our love is united!" Said Azzam, Vira turned her head while putting on a smile.

"Time that separates, let time unite!" Reply Vira firmly and warmly.

FLASH BACK OFF

"Yes big brother, I already consider Fatih like a brother. It's appropriate that I take care of you like my own sister!"

"The same care you give to Nafisa. The reason that makes Nafisa feel warm beside you. If your attention is only to your brother. Please leave me now!"

"Why Farah?"

"Because I don't need a sister's care. I need a backrest to wipe my tears. A shoulder that can support my weak chin. The shoulder where I cried, the shirt that was not afraid of getting wet by my tears. I need that, not just a big brother's attention!" Farah said loudly, Bayu was silent.

"I can be all you expect. But I'm too cowardly to say it. The body I offer, is still too fragile to sustain your life. The shoulder you asked for, still has a burden that I can't handle. My shabby shirt is too ugly, to wipe your tears. I don't feel worthy to be your companion yet. The happiness I want to give you. Not yet in my hand. There's nothing I can offer as our wedding dowry. Although Farah's honest, I wish I was by your side forever!" Inner Bay.

"Why silence? Wonderful at what I said!"

"But Farah!"

"Enough, whoever you are? Stop following me. I don't need to be protected. I can walk, even with these two sticks. All this time I've been fighting against the fear in me. If only the world fears, it won't make me run!" Farah said loudly, Farah's emotions began to show. Farah's cold attitude, getting colder and heartless.

Farah walked away, with a limped step and a stick she was holding. Farah walked down the sidewalk. Farah lunged dark night. There was no fear of Farah, even though the road in front of her was silent. Only the sound of the night animals accompanied Farah's shunt steps. The sky was sad, the sky was red. The bright eyes of Farah who was ready to shed tears.

The Duaaarrr Duaaarrr Duaaarrr

A thunderous roar broke the silence of the night. A flash of lightning, as if splitting the sky into two halves. For a moment the sky became bright. But it was dark again, as the flash moved away. The sound of the sky glistened, not taking Farah's eyes off. His feet straight without direction. Walk step by step on the sidewalk. Hope to find the best place. Just calm his heart and mind.

"Mama!" Farah murmured, her hands clutching tightly to her shoulders.

The real cold started to ambush into his body. The long hijab that covered his body was no longer able to block the cold tonight. Bayu walked far behind Farah. With the gaze of an eagle, Bayu watched Farah's every move. Bayu is afraid something will happen to Farah.

"Mama!" Farah muttered again, an increasingly clear voice of fear was heard by Bayu.

Tik Tik Tik

Drop by drop rain water started to fall. Farah's hijab began to get wet by drizzling. But Farah's steps seemed not to want to stop. The cold rain, as if unable to beat the pain Farah felt. With the rest of his energy running thin, Farah continued to walk in search of calm that was not necessarily direction.

"Farah, you're walking!" Say Bayu loudly, Bayu memayungi Farah with the jacket he was wearing.

"Go!" Banishing Farah full of emotion, Farah's hand pushed Bayu's body very close to her.

"You're cold Farah!"

"Go!" Farah said loudly, Farah did not care about Bayu's anxiety.

With all his might Farah pushed Bayu's body. Farah doesn't want to get help from Bayu. The constant pity made him weak and helpless. Farah kept pushing Bayu's body. Until Farah forgets, if her body is sustained by two sticks.

Braaakkk

"Let'soo!" Farah shouted, as she felt her body stagger. Both Farah's sticks came loose. So he started to lose his balance.

"Flood!" Shouting Bayu hysterically. Spontaneous Bayu hugged Farah's body. Farah's body began to shiver, with alacrity Bayu enveloped Farah with his jacket.

"Take me off!"

"I'm sorry Farah, I have to be inappropriate. But I'll regret it if I let you be stupid!"

"Let go of me, we're not believers!"

"Sorry Farah, I have to go against that limit!" Said Bayu coldly, Bayu holding Farah to shelter.

"Let go!" Shouted Farah hysterically. Farah continued to thrash, but her strength was not so strong against Bayu's burly body.

"Be quiet if you don't want me to hold you tighter. Remember Farah, the distance between us is still within safe limits. But if you continue to thrash, then only a piece of cloth limits our distance!"

"Please put me down!" Farah said softly, Bayu shook his head.

"I'll take you home, at any risk?" Say Bayu final, Farah quietly curled in the Deck of Bayu.

"Including being your priest!" Inner Bayu firmly.