Single-minded

Farah Nada Maulida's

"Mama, can Fatih come in!" Fatih said, right after knocking on Farah's room door. Fatih met Vira on purpose, because she wanted to say something a little important.

"Look baby!" Vira's heart was warm, Fatih nodded in agreement. Fatih stepped straight into Vira's room. More precisely Farah's room, because Vira was in Farah's room at this time.

"Where's Farah? Why don't I see her in the room?" Said Fatih, while circulating his gaze to all parts of Farah's room. Fatih was astonished to see Farah's room deserted. Only Vira was cleaning the room.

While Vira chose to sleep in Farah's room. Vira wants to accompany Farah, at least until Farah is comfortable among her family. Vira knows the true nature of Farah who is not easily close to anyone? Farah's trauma was not easy. Many things made Farah feel afraid to be in a foreign environment. Although actually Farah is independent. He won't ask for help from others. If Farah can do it herself.

"He's out with Rayyan. What's looking for mama?" Vira said warmly, Fatih smiled knotfully. Vira shook her head weakly, she did not believe Fatih like a child who was longing for her affection.

"Will mama reunite with Mr. Azzam?" Fatih said hesitantly, Vira turned to not understand.

There was something strange about his gaze. Fatih's grill on Azzam, hurt Vira a little. Vira never taught her children disrespect. Especially to Azzam their real father. The call that Fatih pinned on Azzam, as if to say to the world. If Azzam was nobody in his life? Clearly Vira saw such deep hatred Fatih had. Azzam really had no place in the heart of his son Fatih.

"Is that what you expected?" Said Vira, Fatih shook his head weakly.

Fatih's headband made Vira even more confident. There is no Azzam in Fatih's heart. Vira's marriage ended, as if it were true and had to happen. Fatih does not want more relationship with Azzam. A wish for her parents to unite. It became an impossible hope in Fatih's mind.

"Why? He's your papa, you should want us to unite!" Vira said in surprise, Fatih shook his head weakly. It was as if Fatih really did not want to know Azzam. Vira is very sorry to have left Fatih. In reality, Fatih was far from Azzam.

"Mr Azzam is just a biological father!" Said Fatih loudly, Vira stared fixedly Fatih.

Vira let out a long sigh, obviously Fatih did not expect Azzam to be his father. Fatih's loud answer, made Vira feel guilty for leaving Fatih. Not because Fatih grew up without her upbringing. But if Vira was there to accompany Fatih. Of course Fatih will not be this cold on Azzam. Vira really felt guilty for Azzam.

"Fatih, he's your father!" Vira said loudly, Vira was angry to hear the words of Fatih who did not appreciate Azzam. But Fatih seemed to not care about Vira's anger. For Fatih, Azzam was never his real father. Only blood made their status as father and son.

"I didn't expect that fact!" Fatih without hesitation.

Vira approached Fatih, lovingly. Vira patted Fatih's shoulder. Calming the real anger is there for Azzam. Vira saw a determination that could not be prevented. Fatih really did not want to know Azzam as his real father.

"Well, your father looks weak and frustrated!" Said Vira flat.

Vira remembers what happened this morning. When two eyes meet after twenty years apart. Azzam was frail and ill and accepted Fatih's rejection. The truth grew true, after Fatih said it without fear. Fatih rejected Azzam's affection without hesitation. Brusquely brushed off the hand that wanted to hug her.

FLASHBACKS

"Mama, don't ever leave Fatih!" Pinta Fatih.

"Mama will be here, won't mama go again!"

"Mama promise!" Said Fatih while hugging tightly Vira.

"Mama promise!" Sahut Vira winked. Vira hints he will always be there for her son Fatih. It was enough Vira to run, today she came back to stay forever.

"The virus!"

"Mas Azzam!" Vira was flat, hugging Fatih.

Azzam and Vira looked at each other. A love that sank twenty years ago. Now it feels real in the heart of Azzam. Age streaks on Vira's face. Can't change that beautiful feeling. Azzam felt so much happiness and love. The shadow will be in love with Vira. Pupus was not left, when Vira's cold gaze and Vira's flat attitude towards her. Azzam could only sigh long. The resignation of the attitude without any love that Vira showed.

"You really are Vira!" Azzam did not believe.

Azzam tried to act ordinary, covering up his heartbreak. Azzam was confused about saying hello or pretending not to recognize Vira. But the longing in Azzam's heart can no longer be prevented. His feet seemed to step alone to meet Vira. Such a light step without a burden.

Vira let go of Fatih's embrace, looking straight at Azzam who was standing straight in front of her. Azzam looked as handsome and handsome as he was twenty years ago. Age scarring does not make him weak and aging. The man who once existed and filled Vira's empty heart. Father who longs for the affection of Fatuh his son. Warm hug the kid he never raised.

"Fatih, mom wants to talk to papa. You go back on stage. Look there, they're waiting for you to go upstairs!" Pinta Vira is friendly, Fatih shakes her head. His hand held onto Vira.

Fatih is a five-year-old boy. A boy who was afraid of losing his mother. No more cold and quiet Fatih. Fatih looks weak and spoiled at Vira. But lovingly, Vira gives understanding. Asking Fatih to release his hand. So that Vira can talk to Azzam in private.

"Please go upstairs. Mama should talk to papa!"

"Mama's not leaving!"

"Mama will stay here with you. If my mom wants to leave. Why did you come back today?" Said Vira firmly, but warmly lovingly.

"All right!" Sahut Fatih with a nod of the head. With heavy steps, Fatih walked towards the podium.

Tap Tap Tap

"Father!" Sapa Nafisa's.

"Your daughter!"

"Yes!" Azzam kikuk.

"Beautiful as her mother!"

"Tante knows mama!"

"Of course aunt knows your mama. She's a good woman. She's a auntie's best friend, you're as beautiful as she is. The eyes you have are exactly like Nadya's beautiful eyes!"

"Vira's enough, we have to talk!" Snap Azzam.

"Papa, why yell at a pretty aunt?" Sahut Nafisa.

"Beauty, auntie should talk to papa. Can't aunt borrow papa!" Vira said kindly and gently.

"Aunty,...!"

"I'm not something that can be borrowed!" Azzam's words cynically cut off Nafisa's words.

"You're still the same!" Vira muttered.

"Wait for Vira!"

"Hmmm!" Vira said, then turned to Azzam.

"You're so calm, like twenty years away. No more than 1 day you disappeared. Don't you feel your calmness is so outrageous!" Azzam did not believe.

"Mas Azzam, twenty years have passed us differently. No need for anything to be regretted. You are happy with your little family. Fatih has achieved success with my brothers. I am calm with the memories of my little family. So, where does my inappropriate attitude lie?" Vira said softly, then stepped out of the hall. Vira felt uncomfortable arguing in front of many people.

"But Vira!"

"Enough mas, we're talking outside!" Vira said firmly. Vira stepped away, regardless of Azzam following her or not. Vira does not want to be a spectacle, especially in the important events of his son. Vira stepped wide, he really wanted to leave. But his footsteps stopped, when he saw Nafisa standing pecking

"Beautiful, come with aunt and papa!" Pinta Vira, Azzam surprised. The look on his face changed, there was a dislike of hearing Vira invite Nafisa.

"If Nafisa nods, it means there will never be an explanation I get from Vira!" Inner Azzam, while looking fixed Nafisa who was confused to hear Vira's request.

"No thanks aunt, Nafisa wants to see Fatih's graduation!" Rejecting the friendly Nafisa, Vira nodded slowly. Nafisa ran towards her seat. At least Nafisa was not disturbed by the debate Vira and Azzam.

Finally Vira walked out of the meeting hall. Vira stepped gracefully out towards the campus garden. Azzam followed Vira's strict steps. The person Azzam missed so much. A love that will never be lost, erased by distance and time. Both arrived at the beautiful campus garden. It looks like an artificial lake that was deliberately built to add beauty.

"Mama!"

"Where is Rayyan?" Vira said, with her eyes gesturing towards 12 o'clock. Rayyan is buying something. More like a drink for the girl.

Vira smiled as she gently stroked the girl's hijab. Farah Nada Maulida, beautiful and graceful girl. A girl who was born with few weaknesses, but has advantages that not everyone has. Farah was born prematurely. So Farah has a weakness in supporting her body. Farah had to use a cane or wheelchair. But despite her weakness, Farah was no ordinary girl. He is a messenger of the Quran. His ability to memorize makes him love the Quran more than himself.

Farah the little princess who was born from Vira's womb. A brother that Fatih had never known. The daughter Azzam never knew. Farah was born during Vira's depressed condition. The destruction of her marriage, the separation of her son Fatih. Being the main factor of pressure in Vira's life. The reason that made Farah born imperfect.

"Vira him?" Azzam was curious. Vira turned towards Farah, then nodded slowly. Azzam was stunned, he was surprised to see the nod of Vira's head. A nod that seemed to want to say. If Vira is okay without her.

"He's Farah Nada Maulida, my daughter!" Vira lantang.

Duaarr

A bomb exploded in front of him. Vira's words surprised Azzam. Vira's words are so weak, successfully make Azzam destroyed and fragile.

"You're married!" Azzam did not believe. Vira was silent and did not answer Azzam's curiosity. Instead, a smile emanated from Vira's face.

Vira sat down crouching in front of Farah. Vira gently clasped Farah's hand. Vira pours out her affection for Farah her beloved daughter. The affection that Fatih and Azzam might have missed and expected.

"He's the reason I survived such a hard life. The smile of the wound healing medicine I felt. What makes me strong enough to stand on my own without anyone? Stay away from even forgetting the past that is the reason for being born imperfect!"

"Mama, forgive Farah!" Farah said softly, Vira nodded weakly. Lovingly, Vira hugged Farah tightly.

"He's your father Farah, he's the man you've been asking. If Farah wants to, you can ask papa to take Farah for a walk. Or Farah wants to get to know papa more closely!" Whispered Vira, Farah shook her head firmly.

Suddenly Vira let go of her embrace. Vira looked at the face of her little princess. Vira tries to find the meaning of the lie in Farah's decision. But all in vain, Farah really did not want to know Azzam.

"Why Farah?" Vira said in disbelief, Farah shook her head weakly. Farah looked down, as if she did not want any more questions from Vira.

"Well, Azzam, we're already outside. Tell me, what do you want to say?"

"I just want to talk to you!" Azzam said flat, Vira was silent. There's no word he wants to say.

"I'm sorry, we're no longer married. It doesn't feel right to talk to each other without anyone else!"

"You completely forgot about me!" Azzam said softly, Vira looked down at the red ground where she stood.

"Twenty years I buried that taste. So don't ever remind me of the sense I don't deserve anymore!"

"But I still love you!"

"Mas Azzam, our story ended twenty years ago. It is not proper to say that love!" Vira said final.

"All right, I'll keep this love quiet. But tell me one thing. Why did you leave me? Destroying our happy little family. Keep me away from the son I love so much!" Said Azzam emotion filled with anger, Vira was still pensive. His gaze was straight up into the sky. Azzam felt he deserved an answer to his every wound.

"Vira!" Shouted Azzam emotion, Vira silence as if testing Azzam patience.

"Because there must be someone who ends it all!"

"You crazy Vira, you feel calm after breaking many hearts!"

"Whatever do you think? It all ended twenty years ago. I didn't come back to carve it back. I'm standing here, just for the sake of my son's promise!" Vira said final and firm.

"You're mean!"

"I have to be cruel, because if I want to see you get better. Then I must be the bad and the wrong!"

"I don't recognize you!"

"Because you never really wanted to recognize me!" Vira is cold.

FLASH BACK OFF

"Mama won't come back to him, but whenever she's your papa? He's the father who will be your sister Farah's guardian. Respect your papa, that's enough to make mama happy!"

"Mama!" Said Fatih while embracing Vira.

"Never go!"

"No, as long as you respect others especially your biological father!!"