Single-minded

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"Excuse me, can I talk to you!" As Bima's doctor was friendly, Farah immediately turned her head. The look on Farah's face was astonished to see Bima already standing behind her.

Sontak Farah shifted the wheelchair she was wearing. Farah tried to get a little away from Bima. Farah felt uncomfortable being too close to Bima. Instead Bima who began to understand the personal Farah. Just smile while walking a little away.

"Please!" Farah said kindly, right next to Bima. The two were at a distance that Farah felt comfortable.

This morning Farah had a therapy schedule with Bima. That's why Farah came to the hospital. It just so happened that Vira couldn't drive. Farah came with the driver and a nurse who was ready to help her. But without Vira's knowledge. Farah often forbade nurses to follow her. Farah sometimes wants to be independent. So he forbade anyone to help him? Especially when Vira is not there. The reason that now makes Farah push his own wheelchair.

"If you don't mind, we can talk in the hospital garden!" Pinta Bima was friendly, Farah was still pensive.

Not Farah refused, but why go somewhere else? If the place they were standing right now was already very comfortable. Farah felt strange, but Farah remained calm. For the sake of keeping the feeling of Bima. The doctor who took care of him.

"Why?"

"For us to be comfortable when talking, the hospital hallway where people pass by. I'm afraid it's disturbing when we talk!" Bima said kindly, Farah lowered her hand tightly grasping the bag.

Long Farah was silent, in her heart she was worried about going to the hospital garden. He doesn't know Bima very well. The only reason that made Farah afraid to talk to Bima.

Farah was starting to feel uncomfortable. Bima began to fidget, Farah is not the most women who easily agree to a male invitation. Bima felt sorry asking for more than just talking. Why is Bima so stupid? Farah's approval speaks to him. Instantly makes Bima forget the trauma experienced by Farah. Regrets that make Bima feel stupid and useless.

"Not that I'm not willing, but the hospital park is too far away. Both of my hands were not that strong, so it was able to push the wheelchair that far. A weak woman like me, has limits I can't afford!" Farah said softly, Bima silently lowered her head. His regret grew bigger, his stupid request even hurt Farah.

"Sorry!"

"For what? I'm weak, no need!" Farah said, shaking her head. Bima is unable to speak. He looked at the weak woman, but with a tough heart.

"We better talk next time. Once again sorry for making such a stupid request!" Bima said, then went away. Bima's footsteps seemed aligned, sounding like a beautiful melody.

Farah looked at the straight back of Bima who was away. There was a sense of ambush in his heart. The nakedness of Bima was looking at her cold soul. The comfort that Bima offered made Farah realize. If not all men are evil and hurt women. Bima's back is getting away, a white coat that makes Bima look handsome. Able to knock and shake a lonely heart.

"Wait!" Shouted Farah, Bima immediately stopped her steps. Bima looked at Farah.

"The park is too far away, if possible. Can we talk there!" Farah said loudly, her hands pointing in exactly twelve directions.

Farah pointed to a chair that was right under a mango tree. Bima turned to the direction Farah pointed. Instantly Bima nodded, a smile that was so sweet to Bima's lips. The happiness that somehow was in his heart? Bima walked as fast as he could to Farah. It was as if I didn't want to lose much time. Only with Farah was now in his mind.

"Revelation!" Shouted Bima, while holding down Farah's wheelchair that was about to fall.

Bima hysterically sees Farah's wheelchair almost fall. Bima swiftly walked half-running towards Farah. With his arms, Bima held the weight of the wheelchair that Farah was occupying. His hands firmly held the wheelchair. Bima was anxious when she saw Farah who was about to topple forward.

"Sorry, can I help you!" Bima said softly and kindly.

Farah nodded with her head lowered. Farah felt disinclined and ashamed of Bima. The independence that he showed, even made Farah weak and needed the help of Bima. Farah was unable to support her weak body. Bima's real heavy hands helped her.

"Thank you!"

"Together!" Sahut Bima friendly and warm, Bima push wheel chair Farah.

Bima felt Farah did not refuse his help. Slowly and politely, Bima pushed Farah's wheelchair up to where Farah wanted it. Bima chose to sit a little away, he did not want Farah to feel uncomfortable close to him.

"I'm sorry for my rude behavior all along!"

"I'm a woman of weakness. I honestly never hated men. But knowing a creature called a man, I was too afraid. I don't want to be sick and broken when I know men. Mama's fact is ruined, because of love for men!"

"You shouldn't blame love!" Bima said, Farah shook her head weakly.

"I never blame love, just think love is sweet and happy. My heart and soul refused. Especially for a weak woman not perfect like me. I no longer wish for love!"

"Why humble? You have an advantage that not everyone has!"

"What?"

"Strong fear and faith!" Bima said firmly, Farah smiled. It's like Bima's words aren't right.

"Is something wrong?"

"Doctor Bima misjudged me. I'm a Quran memorizer, but my heart is not as pure as my love for the Quran!"

"I mean!"

"A person who understands religion will not hate his parents like me. A child must respect his parents. As bad as any of his parents. As long as his parents don't ask him to do anything bad. As for me, obviously not being able to respect my real father. I hate him, don't know him. I wish I had met him I never had!" Farah was firm and cold.

"If you realize it's all wrong. Why not learn to accept Mr Azzam?" Bima said, Farah shook her head weakly.

"Since I was born, I have been an orphan. Nobody wants me to know who my real father is? For me he's alive or dead, no longer a problem. Just like they never thought I existed!"

"At least you can learn to love him. Is not your coming, none other than to know them!"

"No!" Reply Farah briefly and firmly, to Farah's head. It was as if an affirmation of Farah's rejection of the Atmaja extended family.

"Want to!"

"I didn't come to know them or to meet them. I came for a proof. If I wasn't a bastard and mama wasn't a cheap woman. As they alleged, when I wasn't born!"

"There's no way they're that fast. The Atmaja family is not a family. They are a beautiful and generous family. Many people admire them!" Bima lantang.

"Including those of you who are in fact Nafisa's adopted brother!"

"You know!"

"It is not difficult to find information about the identity of a great person like you. Same with the new book. When looking at a good cover, we think the book must be useful. But it's not always good outside beautiful in it!"

"What else do you know about me?"

"Stupidity that was initiated with Nafisa. Granddaughter of the Atmaja family!" Sahut Farah.

"You know everything?" Bima lirih. Farah nodded slowly.

"At least can you give my family a chance to know you!"

"Sorry who?" Sahut Farah.